have to stop for me and also my family :-(

Well here i am again sitting with eyes filling up with tears as i have lost hundreds of pounds over the last year
and 1000 in last month.put 200 on a football team today who lost which has brought me back here.av had enough of this and really want to stop.got third child born 4 weeks ago this cant go on.this site really helped my last time and hope it can again.

Time to believe that you have done this to yourself again, Scotty, and you will do it again unless you put 100% into recovery.

Kick that gambling S***e into oblivion, you are sooo much worth it, you have done it before, Scotty can do this again.

Stay strong and stay safe and remember nothing changes if nothing changes.

Suzanne xxx

Why do you need to put off giving up until monday. Burn those betting slips they will only lead to more heartbreak & more destruction. Is the price of your sanity & the possible destruction of your family worth a few quid on blokes hitting a ball with a stick

Hi everyone i am back here and hopefully i can find encouragement from all here that
I have help and who have helped me in the past.this is just a short msg on things going on.i have been struggling from start of the year but now av hit a brick wall.it nearly xmas and i have lost 1k in last month.i put 200 on a football team today and cant understand why,after them getting beat am sitting feeling sorry for myself once again.really want to be done with this horrible illness forever.hope everyone are doing ok on here still. Scottyboy

Hi Scotty,

Sorry to read you did not let go, but am pleased to see you come back,

My support is here as always my friend.

Suzanne xxx

I cant actually wait until tomorrow to start my recovery into days instead of hours.this needs to the end of gambling for me this time.

Hi Scotty... sorry I haven't had chance to read through your previous diaries yet. Have you been a long time compulsive gambler? When did you start gambling again (and is it sports betting like myself)? It would be useful to know as a lot of people are addicted to fobts and slots but that doesn't do it for me so I have different types of urges. Having to stop watching sport is incredibly difficult.

Scotty boy look deeper in yourself gambling is a symptom good luck my friend

The bear

Hi Scotty

I've been reading your diary and you have had so many ups and downs over the last three years. But you've kept on going. You've kept coming back, and you're now climbing upwards again. Fantastic that you've been going to GA and finding the support and fellowship there. Feel free also to give us a call on the helpline if you haven't already. Details, as ever, at the top of every page of this website.

Take care,

Forum Admin

DAY 1. Still lying in bed thinking of how stupid i have been over the years,months,weeks,days and hours.right now am thinking about hours as there fresh in my mind,putting 200 on a stupid game of football yesterday.WHY.anyway that money along with the rest lost in past few weeks is gone forever and its now time to look forward.am going to get up get myself a shower and head out with wife and 3 kids.give them some of my time i robbed of them through gambling.today am not going to gamble on 1 single thing because i have had enough. I wish everyone a nice gamble free
day. Scottyboy

Hi Scottyboy thanks for your post on my diary sorry to hear of your lapse never give up trying I tried and tried at start but realised I needed help that's when I had my cbt therapy sessions they worked amazing and made me look at myself and reasons for gambling it may be worth you having a look too ? Your family need you have don't let gambling push you away, have good Xmas my friend good luck.

The bear

Hi diary, my 1st day betfree has gone to plan with no bets whatsoever placed.its really hard not to think about gambling and am not going to lie.i have had thoughts on what price teams may have been but the important thing is i done nothing about it and every day i add another day betfree to my ladder those thoughts will slowly go away.watching sports personality of the year right now and hopeful andy murry can win.all my online accounts are closed so i will remain a betfree day for me.hope everyone,s day is going well. Cheers scottyboy

Here's to your 2nd day Scotty, yes the days will soon build up again,:))

Suzanne xxx

DAY 2, got up and took my daughter to nursery,now back home looking out window at horrible weather.wish weather was better to go out do something with wife and kids as i am off work right now.anyway the main thing is i am not in those horrible betting shops giving away my money.really determined this time to remain gamble free.take care everyone and enjoy a gamble free day.

Most of day 2 has past and no gambling.going to get back to a ga meeting tonight to share some of my feelings face to face with other recovering compulsive gamblers. Hope everyone has had a betfree morning