Hello folks

Hello folks.

Awful day today feeling low. 

Toad.

Hi toad. Sorry you are having a bad day today. Anything in particular? Anything you want to talk about?

Hello Charlieboy, 

Wanted to run away yesterday and start a new life.

The only problem is my problems stay with me.

Still not feeling great today.

I didn't sleep well last night ? and everything by the pond feels gloomy.

I wish everyone a gamble free day.

? Toad

Hi Gambling_Toad , thanks for sharing your post.

I am sorry to hear that you are feeling the way you are at the moment, you are not alone and there is plenty of support available to you. 

Please feel free to contact the GamCare Helpline on 0808 8020 133 or Netline to explore the additional support available to you. We are available 24 hours a day, 7 days a week if you would like to talk to one of the GamCare HelpLine advisers, and please continue to post and use the forum . 

I would also encourage you to make an appointment with your GP if you are struggling with feeling down and gloomy .

All the best 

Kirk 

Forum Admin 

Yes toad wherever you run the problems will follow. So stay with us and get on the right track again, make that future brighter. 

Good afternoon, 

Thank you both Kirk and Charlieboy for your advice it is much appreciated.

? A few years ago I joined the forum and with hindsight I didn't take the good advice given on here but I hope I have become a more mature worldly wise Toad and i am all ears these days on the forum

I managed to have a discussion with my wife this morning which concludes that I am still not in a position to manage all my finances. It has been 7 years since I give up full control but its what is best for our relationship.

I do feel a better now but I am absolutely exhausted. I need a good ? night ? sleep.

? Anyway the dark cloud over toads pond is lifting. I can see some blue sky and there is optimism. From my lily pad I can see Casinos over the horizon but I turn my back on my lily pad and I can see the pond with the gamcare forum.

Toad turns his back on gambling let's out a croak. Let's all do this and find a better day and a better place. Make it a special day for you and me and the entire human race.

? Best regards,

Toad. ? ? 

Good morning, 

It's Monday morning again. I just had some bran flakes washed down with some coffee and a blood pressure tablet.

I look outside across the pond and it is misty today with light ☔ rain. This is very much like my mood today although it is improving.

On reflection I want to be a better person and also I don't like confrontation. I want a relaxed life by the pond.

I know I must not gamble if I want a relaxed care free life. Please forgive me thoughts just come into my head and I want to use this forum to record them and hopefully help others in some way no matter how small.

I want to also thank gamcare. I'm not entirely sure why I was banned previously but I do remember things got heated on the forum and any friends toad had made were disappearing quicker than an ice cream on a hot day ☺

But on a serious note. It has been a few years since I was on the forum and I missed it greatly. I want to assure all on Gamcare that I am here for good intentions and I will do my best not to offend anyone.

I have a poem that was wrote about me years ago I might put back up for you all to read. It did sum me up a few years ago. I was arrogant about gambling but I realise the errors of my ways because gambling does need to be both respected and feared. If you think you're on top of it sure have one small bet = hundreds if not thousands spent. It's that wee bet that we thought was harmless we have all been there.

Again Thankyou for giving me a final opportunity to use this forum and I won't let myself and others down. When I was not with Gamcare I lost alot two years ago. If I was on gamcare I may have stopped but its in the past now.

Time for  ? Toad to move onwards. Today is payday and I cleared my overdraft today. One small loan left one giant leap for Toad.

Wish you all a great day.

? 

Good morning, 

Just had a toasted pancake washed down with yes you guessed it coffee.

Today again gambling is on my mind. Thankfully I'm with Gamstop and I won't be leaving the house today.

I work from home so I will stay at home. In the past I used to travel to work and have my lunch in the bookmakers. Never a good idea!!!

Anyway its all quiet by the pond. I wish you all a good gamble free day.

Gamble we may

Please say nay

Just for today

Make your way

Toad ? 

Good afternoon, 

Not a good day today. I slipped off my lily pad and fell into the bookmakers clutches! 

? I'm an idiot

I am extremely disappointed with myself. 

Toad

Hi Toad. Nice chatting earlier.

Well done on your recovery so far. It sounds like things have turned your life around with the all the hard work you have put in and you and your wife deserve all you have and all the luck in the world.

Hope to hear from you again soon.

Take care and well done again.

Hello Sanpablo, 

Thankyou very much for your post. I have come a long way thanks to my wife and family. 

Thankyou for your kind words they really cheered me up much appreciated. 

I must read your diary. 

Best wishes, 

Toad. 

Good morning Mr Toad,

Have read through your diary the phrase is "deja vu" which is the feeling that one has lived through the present situation before.

I am going to be honest. You are still not treating this addiction 100%. You want financial control, you want to have a laugh, you want to be you. What you dont want to do is deal with your addiction.

You were in the bookies - why?. 

In your diary you wonder why you were banned. Me, Deano, KTF, CW among others gave you advice. You got upset with that and you were rude.

I have known you on here for several years. Put some blocks in place and stick to them. No excuses.

I know you can do it - just need to convince yourself that.

Best

Good morning All, 

A busy morning working from home and I had a work meeting over the phone. Nothing exciting planned but to throw myself into work.

BAL,

Thankyou for your input in my diary. I feel it is really important to be honest in my diary that is really important. I really hope this is not deja vu Toad I am on here with the best intentions. I do agree that I am still not 100% putting effort in to quit but I am trying very hard. My life has changed over the last few years and I'm truly finding happiness by the pond. I have everything I need.

I disagree that I want financial control that is not true. I pay my wife around 80% of my wages for us and all the house bills. So 80% is not wanting full financial control its accepting I have a weakness and I'm not good with money. The same weakness I showed yesterday by going to the bookmakers. Yes I was wrong but I was honest and put it on my diary. In closing i will continue to add humour to my diary in the hope of brightening up someone's day.

? Best wishes to you all. Toad croaks loudly he is happy today and won't bet today. 

Best wishes, 

Toad ? 

Good morning, 

? Nothing exciting to report today. Just had a nice cereal will grab a strong coffee now. ☕

I have no urges to gamble today. 

So jump up and ? celebrate a day without gambling. 

Jump up jump up and get down

Jump

Jump

Everyone jump

? 

 

Morning Mr Toad,

Keeping 20% of wages along with access to the bookies could be a recipe for disaster.

Hope you have a peaceful day.

Best