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Matt congratulations on 501 days mate, absolutely brilliant

Wilsy

Hi Matt, belated congratulations on achieving 500 days!!!
We'll let you off for feeling a little glum and giving yourself a few kicks - as you said, at least now you acknowledge those feelings, ride through them then jump on the next wave with happy days signposted on it! We'd be thinking there's something not quite right if every day was a tip top good day!!
Look at you being given helicopter rides as a present! More trips in the making, a new honest relationship - each and every one of these things are down to you making the right moves, taking the right path and never giving up on hope. It's payback time now Matt - get out there and enjoy it!!! X

Belated happy 500 days brother ! Stay strong ! You’re an inspiration, I mean seriously life is wonderful without gambling ! Let’s not do that thing 😉

Sars

Day 505

Hi all. I appreciate the kind words of encouragement. I know l shouldn't beat myself up about it anymore and what's done is done but I do wonder exactly where I would be if I never started gambling in the first place. What I am determined to do more than ever is to live a fulfilled life where possible, I want to reduce those what if questions from here on in.

I have made a lot of poor choices in life but I have survived them, I have my health and I have plenty of potential to fulfill so I am determined to keep on the correct paths.

Stay strong all.

Matt

Day 512

I am wondering if one day I won't feel the need to count my days. My fear is complacency. My new life is one that doesn't involve gambling and I am enjoying it but I know I am only ever one bet away from being back to square one.

I have to accept the fact I will always be an addict but without that next bet there will be no problem.

Stay strong all.

Matt

I think thats it never see as you've beaten the addiction, after four months I thought I had the upper hand but then it just slapped me about a bit and the last 71 days have been much harder, a relapse is just a reminder that it knows when your down and will attack. Ive been addicted for a very long time but had it surpressed and having money at my disposal ruined me, not ruined but let the gambling demons loose. Count the days until you have no gambling debts then know how it works and when it comes for you and be aware at all times, take it easy Matt.

day 520

So the weekend just gone I popped over to Belgium for the day, bit of sight seeing and some nice food. Literally a day trip and had a really nice time. I love being able to do this stuff now.

This weekend is mothers day so just ordered a big bunch of flowers to be delivered to my Mum on Sunday and will of course be seeing her too.

Life is going well, work is going tremendously well, I am almost amazed at myself what I have achieved recently!

Love to all and I hope you can get free of this horrendous addiction we all suffer with.

Matt

Hi Matt so glad you are enjoying yourself and doings things that make you happy, you sure deserve it! I don't post as much as before but I try to check in and the early parts of other diaries remind me why I need to stay GF. Take care S:)

Hi Sharon,

It is always nice to hear from you. Your support helped me immensely during some painful times.

You are just over a week away from a Year gamble free, proud of you.

Matt

Thanks Matt ditto! Your journey is truly inspiring and must have helped many in this forum. So pleased you are now living the life you want and deserve Sx

Just read through huge chunks of your diary... Keep going dude.

Life is showing you how beautiful it can be without gambling my brother ! Keep it that way 🙂 you’re an inspiration . Take care

Sars

Hi Matt Thanks for posting and being such a huge inspiration and support to me, From the darkest of places you have rebuilt your life and deserve every happiness. Anyone struggling should read your diary, take care S:(

Congratulations on how far you’ve come Matt, truly inspirational and hoping I can somewhat follow in your footsteps.

Thanks as ever for your kind words and support guys, they are invaluable.

DAY 532

Had a nice weekend (if rather cold). I headed up North to visit my best friend and to watch my team play, they won and I had my fair share of beers and laughs. Life continues to be good and gamble free!

Take care all and staf gamble free!

Matt