Day One..... 30/05/2016
I lost £2,200 yesterday in about an hour, a month's wages down the toilet. That's a lavish holiday, an engagement ring, a season ticket, a bonus, a car, a state of the art laptop.... what am I doing??
I completely know how silly I've been but in the back of my mind I want it back, I want to be all square. The sooner I get it into my head the HOUSE always wins the better...GRRRR...Wish me luck.
Hi mate
You've taken the first step in recovery! That is a good achievement. This is a great place to be. Record your progress every day and post regularly. Read other diaries aswell. Very inspirational. If I can give you any advice is that you have to write that money off. You will not get it back. "You will not win because you will not stop" that's what I always say to myself now. Even if you have a winning day you will give it back. Take care mate! Your in the right place!
Thanks SF,
I'm going to keep repeating that to myself. I will not get it back, I will not stop, I will not get it back. I've had a read of other people's diaries and I think I will update as often as I can. I had huge losses in December/January and quit for almost 4 months. I don't know what made me relapse yesterday but I've decided I can't do it quite on my own.
Also get in touch with gamcare they are great! Im a bit like you been trying to quit on and off for a couple of years. I'm on my 16th day gamble free now and feel good i know I'm not going to gamble again. But need support and councilling is helping. Good luck my friend!
Look into the chat on here. Sessions every night and some during the day. Might see you there. Tri
Hello G7
Today you made a huge step! You have admitted you have an issue and you need some help well done!
Im going to be blunt its gonna hurt your gonna feel like cr@P but i can assure you that the burning pain of this loss will slowly dissapear and you will wake up and realise a few things! So a bit of advice open up and be honest with the people you care about friends family mrs. they may be angry but the more you talk the better you will feel. Give gamcare a call they are fantastic. you can get some free counciling and will fill you with confidence and feel happy. Have a look at Gamblers Anonomous i have been a few weeks now and is a fantasic environment. so read some of the other peoples diarys they will inspire you and write your thoughts down on this forum it has been a massive help to me Ramble not gamble!
Today is the first day of the rest of your life g7. You cant Turn off the rain you have to dance through it!
Triangle... Are there chat groups then that have sessions? Sorry all very new to this. I have exams on Thursday and Friday (I think possibly why I've got myself in a state again.. No excuse I know) so I have my head in the books.
I do feel like absolute cr@P about the money... Saving for a flat in this economy is hard enough.. I don't know why I get taken over by something that makes me throw good money down the drain! Uh. So P*ssed off at myself.
Day Three.... Watching the French Open.... All I can think is "I could be making money"... I know what's going to happen, I think they'd be good odds right about now... Argh! I'm not going to, I know that..... But it's a slippery slope to be plagued by these thoughts.
I must be stressing..... Exam tomorrow and exam on Friday! Argh!
Offload over.
(And when I say watching.. I mean keeping an eye on the score whilst up to my eyeballs in past exam papers haha)
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