Where to start....
I didnt really consider myself to have a problem to begin with as I'm sure many people do, It started off as abit of harmless fun, me and my partner at the time deposited some money on a bingo site, it spiralled from there, we craved the bonuses and became angry when we didnt get on them and would deposit money until this happened. At one point we had won £5,000 which was amazing at the time, but the majority went back into gambling. We thought hey if we can win that much surely we can win more if we bet bigger? Of course thats how the sites suck you in,
The relationship fell apart not due to this but it didnt help. Whilst i was single i had to move back into my mums as i had worked up quite abit of debt. I spent my wages either trying to gamble to win back what I'd lost or going out drinking, it was a pretty low time tbh. A year passed and i met my current partner, i became really happy and didnt feel the need to gamble as much, started to pay back my debts.
I was so close to being out of debt, when out of the blue i blew about £1k i won back some money but inevitably blew that aswell. Im at a point now where i just dont understand why I'm doing it, I love my partner and im happier than ive ever been but still i do this.
i installed blocking software on my laptop and it worked i didnt gamble for a month but i made the mistake of not getting anything for my phone and of course a week ago i became weak and started gambling again.I now have installed software on my phone so im hoping this is going to be the final time i feel like this, i dont want to jepordize my relationship and put him through this again.
Hi Chloe just seen you on chat. Great work for starting a diary and also for coming here's the first place. It shows great will power to start off. Stay close to this site. You will receive great support.
Take one day at a time
Stay safe
Gaz
Thank you it means alot that people are willing to offer there support and help 🙂
Hi Chloe,
You will get lots of support on here I've done nearly 9 months and find it helps my recovery to pass on the advice and support I was given. This place along with GA mad hard work has changed my life.
Good start in putting the blocks in place and it sounds like you have told you partner which if you have is a major step.
Have you spoken with Gamcare they can offer free counselling which you might find useful.
Keep close to your diary keep posting and reading others it helps to get it out in the open and clears your mind and gives you some clarity.
KTF
checking in on day 2, so far so good! Been kept busy with work and seeing my partner, not had any desires to gamble which is good, recieved alot of junk mail and emails from sites trying to tempt me, but i will stay strong! hope everyone else is doing good! We will be free of this together
🙂
Chloe
Well done on your great start! You seem up for this! We will do it!
Stay safe
Gaz
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