Life begins again

Thanks Gregg and Steve,

304 days of abstaining and maintaining, by not spending even one penny on any form of gambling, so the addiction is getting more starved every day and I am winning more and more every day in every way. Just by taking one day at a time.

Off to WR shopping centre today, on the bus, which will be a treat, as I very rarely use buses. have an interview for an admin job, Mon to Thurs and NO late nights, not going to get my hopes up too much, but have dusted my suit off ( bit big now lol) as I am now a 10 and suit is a 12, HD.

So feeling very positive, clear headed and poised, and this is all because I am gamble free. Recovery sure has gifted me again.

Wishing everyone a positive strong , and focused gambling free day.

Suzanne xx

Morning Suzanne,

I hope you enjoyed your lunch, small things like meeting a friend for lunch weren't so easy when we were gambling. Its the small things like this that make our recovery so worthwile. Keep it up!

Phil

Hi Suzanne

304 days, keep marching on Suzanne.....good luck with the interview , you've a great attitude towards everything in your life and it's catching.....have a wonderful day of abstinence 'Twiggy' ....onwards And upwards....Ginger x

Suzanne

Simply fantastic to read 304 days Is an amazing achievement , it's a pleasure and a privilege to read and see your progressing , as always so happy for you

Castle2

Hi Suzanne,

Thanks for your kind words of support on my diary, always appreciated. You're stilling flying through the days, nearly a year now gamble free - absolutely amazing and inspirational!

Good luck with the job!

James

Morning Suzanne.
305 days wow.
You are such an inspiration to us all.
Always 39 days ahead.
Steve xxx

Good morning diary

305 days today, and staying strong and positive so choice made today NO gambling for me .

Interview went well yesterday (I think lol) nothing like my last job, less hours less responsibility and totally different type of job, will let me know on Monday if there is a 2nd interview, not worried either way. I won't let myself get stressed about this. No desparate hurry to get a job,

Wishing everyone a strong, positive and safe gambling free Friday.

Suzanne xx

Well done Suzanne 305 days wow, I want to be you !!!!!!!!! Good luck if you get second interview, i love the way nothing seems to faze/worry you anymore.

Hi Suzanne

I told you your attitude to life was catching.....now we all want the....'Suzanne Factor '....fingers crossed for Monday blondie, but whatever happens one things for sure "it's turned out nice again " have a lovely gamble free day......onwards and upwards.....Ginger x

Hi Suzanne,

Good going on your continued journey and it sure turned out nice again :-)HD

Thanks for your kind wishes and gotta report that all is ok this end 🙂 plus dad is on his road to be healthy again. Can you believe it - he went out to do groceries shopping today!!!? What a man...what a person made of steel 🙂 bless him..no stopping him even if he has to crawl on his hands lol

Anyway..have a good one and hope that interview will come bk as position offered 🙂

Later
S x

Hi Suzanne
305 days well done my friend
Cheryl xxx

Morning Suzanne.
You are smashing the 306 day barrier with ease.
Wow it must feel good to have the year in sight.
Have a great day.
Steve xxx

Good Saturday morning diary,

306 days today and it's the last day of Feb, spring must be round the corner now lol.

OH has just gone to get his hair cut, and to look round our little market, with a big smile on his face, why because he does not have to worry about money anymore, and it is good to see a new contentment in him. And this has been achieved simply by me abstaining and maintaining one day at a time.

This time last year we were dire straits ( it was not confirmed to him yet the damage I had done) we were well past on borrowed time where money was concerned.

To be honest thinking about it now, it really does seem like I was in another life, a nightmare of a life, and I could see no way out,

Everything was closing in on top of me and yet I still carried on gambling for yet another 2 months, it makes me shudder to think I still carried on putting higher and higher bets on, the last couple of months my addiction escalated til,I crashed.

10 months on (yes it's been hard ) but I am a different person, because I do not want to gamble in any way or form, it turns my stomach today, as I think about the last day of Feb last year, my self destructive addiction thrived and got fat on my last 2 months of sheer desperation. ( it's not nice to remember but the past does come up out of the blue at sny time and I take it as a very good positive) to keep me in recovery.

Any urges today no way,,my thoughts this morning have strengthened my resolve to stay and keep safe and sane today.

My addiction is in that hell hole now, not me.

Wishing everyone a strong positive,safe and determined gambling free Saturday

Suzanne xx

Amazing that you have managed 306 days must have taken a lot of effort to get where you are now! admire your strength and really appreciate your support, it's a lonely life at times overcoming this secret illness!

Hi Suzanne,

Thanks for your recent posts.

Keep moving forwards him.

It's good to look back sometimes, but never stare. It works for me.

You are doing great by the way, remember that. Big yourself up for how you have turned things around! Virtual high five coming your way.

HD!

Keep strong

Ade x