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Hey you ☺

Firstly well done on your shamazing time g free and the strength and determination ya show is sky high ☺
Very proud of you S, and so should b you ☺
(Showing you these ☺ so you know what ya missing for not sorting your phone out lol ☺...look at those yellow smiley faces..☺ HD lol)

As we covered the subject earlier, feeling s**t some days are normal and now just let me put my professor glasses on lol..listen hun,(this is from my own experience but we all differ in our journeys as ya know)..pressure might b building up now ya approaching that milestone of a year g free....i thought i got it sorted after i passed a year mark and start letting my guard down..a month or two later i had a flutter..money was not an issue...the mindfook was...and i wouldn't wish anyone the feelings relapse brings. It simply hurts...but in devastating fashion.
I know you can learn from others mistakes hun...i know it's not an easy ride, but you have to remember that you are never on your own...on good or bad days, you don't have to walk this path alone.
You're doing brilliant and maybe my ramble is off the street lol ( me no Eenglish as ya know)..just wanted to remind ya that recovery is for life and you have a choice daily. ..plus you're defo stronger than before but the platform you have build has to stay firm on the ground! No pressure..i am sure you will keep slapping mr G in the face even 50yrs later (with your stick that is lol lol)

Stay safe and keep at it skinny jeans gal ☺

S xx

Morning Suzanne.
332 days is just fantastic and weather it's one day or 371 days it is amazing not to gamble.
Very proud to be walking along side you on your journey.
Have a great day.
Steve xxx

Thanks for your lovely messages all, it means a lot xxx

Good morning diary,

332 days of abstaining and maintaining on this rollercoaster ride of recovery and feeling stronger and more determined than ever to keep my recovery at the forefront of my mind, gambling has done so much damage to me and my family over the years I will not let it creep back in, the addiction can make me feel high, low or whatever, gambling won't solve anything in my life, Infact gamb,ing just made my life 100% WORSE., it did not solve a d**n thing, and the longer I am gamble free, the more I realise what a stupid

Selfish, deceiptful, manipulative woman I was. to let something soo self destructive control me.

My choice today is simple NO gambling for me, how positive is that very very positive.

Wishing everyone a strong, determined and calm gamb,ing free day.

Suzanne xx

I wished wrote:

Thanks for your lovely messages all, it means a lot xxx

Good morning diary,

332 days of abstaining and maintaining on this rollercoaster ride of recovery and feeling stronger and more determined than ever to keep my recovery at the forefront of my mind, gambling has done so much damage to me and my family over the years I will not let it creep back in, the addiction can make me feel high, low or whatever, gambling won't solve anything in my life, Infact gamb,ing just made my life 100% WORSE., it did not solve a d**n thing, and the longer I am gamble free, the more I realise what a stupid

Selfish, deceiptful, manipulative woman I was. to let something soo self destructive control me.

My choice today is simple NO gambling for me, how positive is that very very positive.

Wishing everyone a strong, determined and calm gamb,ing free day.

Suzanne xx

thanks suzanne

right along side you with that calm gambling free day

Morning Suzanne.
All the three's is amazing work, and we all know how much work it is.
have a great Friday my friend.
Luv steve xxx

Thanks Tri and Steve xx

All the 333s today and no thoughts whatsoever to gamble and that feels good.

Day off and taking little man swimming, and then to the park (weather permitting) have the car so picking him up and dropping him off, so a good day is on the agenda. the addiction just cannot compete with today, and it hates that,

Wishing everyone a strong happy and calm gambling free Friday.

Suzanne xx

Morning Suzanne.
Hope you had a good day off yesterday.
A huge well done for reaching 334 days just an amazing number of days gamble free.
Keep up the GREAT work.
Have a great weekend.
Steve xxxx

Thanks Steve yes had a lovely day yesterday even though little man nearly drowned me lol, through being overconfident lol.

Good morning diary,

334 days today it's the 28th so I am now 11 months of not spending even one single penny on any form of gambling WOW, I can't make my mind up whether it has gone quickly or slowly, because taking one day at a time, puts me in a different time zone ( if that makes sense).

11 months ago comes across now as a blurry deep desparate and totally irrational time which was simply utter madness.

It seems like another life another person in a way, but I know it was me who was self destructing me and I know that I could go back there at the drop of a hat, if I let my guard down and thought I was cured, hell I will never be cured, I am a CG and always will be, be it in recovery, but that is me now, I don't think I have recovered either I am in recovery for the rest of my life.

I have read a newcomers heart breaking post on the newcomers thread, and my heart goes out to this person in every way, because that could and probably would have been me if I had not found recovery and the support and advice from like minded folk on this wonderful forum. I learn something new about this horrible self destructive addiction every day on here, and it keeps me strong determined and focused. and I hope with all my heart that this newcomer gets all the help they need to overcome their gambling and find recovery like I have.

It's raining buckets here OH is flying on his comp and chilling, (we have had a difficult week ) with money issues and ofcourse my gambling past is brought straight to the front, but we have sorted stuff out and we are back on track with our relationship, the damage I did to him is still raw at times, with him,,but through thick and thin he is standing by me and supporting me, so he is allowed to rant at me at times, he is the innocent party, in all of this.

Through talking it through, being honest and communicating, even when the situation is painful, we will come through all the ups and downs of the aftermath of my gambling.

Nothing will change if we don't change what is negative in our lives, and I have made quite a few changes in the last 11 months for me and my well being, and I am very proud to say choosing NO every single day to gambling is the best choice and change I have made to my life.

wishing everyone a strong positive and happy gambling free Saturday.

Suzanne xx

Hi I wished

Thank you for the post and support. Congratulations on 334 days that's amazing and an inspiration to us at the early stages of recovery. Looking forward to congratulate you on the one year, which will be here before we know it.

Bex x

And that's the spirit hun! ((((((((S))))))) talking and being honest is the est way out of any situation 🙂

So proud of you my friend. 11 months...wow....day at a time eh 😉

Clocks forward tonight lol..just a reminder to myself if I'm honest lol. (Short memory due to all the addictions i have picked up in my life and doing my best to get rid of!)

Take care and keep winning

Sandra x

Hey Suzanne

I just wanted to say congratulations on 11 months.

When I look at people like yourself who've come so far it gives me hope and inspiration that I can look forward to following in your footsteps and being living proof that we can stay in recovery for the longer term. I'm at three months and initially I'd have looked at someone racking up almost 300 days as someone who could say that had beaten the addiction. However from reading your latest post it's clear we can only say we are beating it each day. The cravings haven't disappeared for me yet and by the sounds of it they may never go away forever. I'll always have the urge to gamble but like you say, day by day we can beat it and keep winning by NOT playing.

Enjoy your weekend

Clare (boxingday1) x

one word thankyou

another word congratulations

triangle

Morning Suzanne.
Congratulations on 335 days you have now entered your twelfth month. HOW GOOD IS THAT.
Not long now when you become a statistic of 3%.
A statistic all GC's want to be in.
Have a great Sunday and well done on your continued abstinence.
Luv Steve xxx

It's very very good Steve lol.xx

Good morning diary,

Day 335 and keepng strong and on track which is very very good lol .

Had a big spring clean out in the kitchen yesterday, every cupboard blitzed and every corner cleaned, so I have a lovely sparkling kitchen today, it's still raining, so I am just thinking what I can blitz out next lol.

Looking forward to the warmer weather I am not a winter person I love the sun, it's been a long long winter lol.

Wishing everyone a positive, determined and happy gambling free Sunday.

Suzanne xx

so much better with the light isn't it??

i love summer

love your inspiring posts

tri