Life begins again

Good morning diary

Day 70 ten whole weeks without even spending one single penny and it feels good

Busy day yesterday gardening housework washing etc family round but I can relax more today on 2nd day off

Yes it's the Monday again but I have no intention of wasting my day off gambling

It's 4 days to pay day and my next goal and that is sooo positive for me

With determination and feeling strong today I won't gamble today

I won't be playing today because I am chilling today

Have a great gambling free day all

Suzanne xx

Well done Joanna on 10 weeks it's a fantastic effort which I KNOW is very hard.

You are flying and i know you can keep going because the old life that we had is not one we want ever again!

So chuffed for you! 100 days wont be far away!

Keep going.

Steve xxx

Hey S 🙂

Thank you for your kind words on my tread and massive well done on ur 70 days g free. You are doing it girl and will keep doing it forever. Life is for living and we deserve peace, happiness and freedom. Really happy for you and wish you continued strength, determination and belief on this road of recovery.

Be proud and keep smiling

Sandra x

Hi Suze,

Thank you so much for reading and posting on my diary...Always makes me feel so humble when someone does that. You know one thing I have discovered is that us addicts are real genuine people. We don't want to gamble and being on here I believe gives us the tools to quit...I intend to stick around and my guess is that you will also.

Womble xx

And the last soldier I'm gonna visit this early morning - S 🙂

Ya know girl you are such a huge inspiration for others and your kind heart is here for everyone to see. Really proud of you and yep yep..you know it coming lol - high five girl, another day of making the right choice. Let's stamp on this nasty habits head!!

Be proud and keep choosing life 🙂

Sandra x

Thanks womble and Sandra xx

Afternoon diary

71 days today

Thoughts today

HONESTY

We have to be 100% honest with ourselves and then we can be 100% honest with our partners and it does not cost one penny

But it can change our lives

I commented to my OH yesterday about my laptop he simply said he would keep it for now as he does not want to put temptation in my way WOW I was thinking initially he doesn't trust me still even after 71 days

And then I realised with relief yes relief that he understands me and my destructive selfish addiction enough to know that CGs can relapse at anytime

How wonderful is this man we are surviving on literally the bare amounts of money left after bills and my debts he has been hit so hard financially because of me

and yet he is still standing by me knowing I am not cured or ever will be

That is the honesty of it all I would hate now to have to lie to him to make him feel better by saying I am cured

Our relationship is being built up again by HONESTY that is the least I can give this man

There's an old saying honesty is the best policy but it's true

One day at a time I will keep abstaining from this selfish disgusting addiction and stay honest

If I can't be honest to myself about what is has done to me and my family how the hell can I be honest to them

I won't be playing at all today because it would not be honest

Have a happy peaceful gambling free evening all

Suzanne xx

Suzanne

What a wonderful post,truth in every word,a great deal I can emulate with,My Sarah is not only my amazing wife but my best friend too,yes there has been tougher times during recovery for me

Why??

Because I used to lie to her before,I pretended I didn't care,I was too in love with my addiction to care.

Today I take her words on the chin,they are too great medicine,she like your other half unconditionally gifts her love and works relentlessly on her on recovery to,this includes protecting herself,in turn this protects me to.

Keep making the right choice

For us that is abstinence

Enjoy the product it offers

Unconditional LIFE

embrace it the way you are

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back

P.s thanks so much for the kind words upon my thread,as I have said many times it is simply a truthful account of my recovery.

Thanks Duncs

Morning diary

Day 72

2 days til payday and Two payday loans will be paid off

Only 7 to go but these two will free up 100 next month so next month I will be 100 better off that will feel GOOD (will feel rich lol)

Goes to show that I am winning everyday that I am not playing and that is sooo positive

I won't be playing today because I enjoy winning

Wishing everyone a happy peaceful gambling free day

Suzanne xx

Morning Suzanne.

72 days is awesome well done.

Steve xxx

Hey S

Great going on those "clean " days so keep it up!! Even better seeing financial situation getting sorted. Allow yourself some time, it will only get better, you are truly on a right path. Tap urself on a back girl, you soo deserve all the best.

Be proud and keep doing what you are doing so well - abstaining and maintaining.

Take care and stay safe

Sandra x

im really happy for you paying off those pay day loans , congratulations and well done,

Morning Suzanne

Well done on getting this far, paying off each of those nasty payday loans will be such a weight off your shoulders.

Best wishes

Andy

Good morning diary

Day 73 and feeling optimistic today and can I say hopeful yes I can

Day off and the sun is shining down and it does make you feel good

Not having the merrygoround of having gambled for 73 days and the stress and despair it bought everyday never mind the deceit with lying and everything else it brings I have my self respect back for today

I don't want to get carried away with myself because I KNOW it's there at the back waiting for an opportunity

I have to stay strong determined and positive because life without gambling is simply GREAT

Why should I ever want to go back

I won't be playing today because I feel GREAT today

Wishing everyone a positive and determined gambling free day today

Suzanne xx

Hi Suzanne

Well done in your journey, it does get easier has we get through the gamble free days but we both must guard against one thing - OVER CONFIDENCE.

So many times I have read diaries of others to see how well they have been doing then one mad moment and they are on the gambling merry go round again.

Take care speak soon.

Shaun