Life With Sports Bets Only

Hello Captain46,

Your poem seems to express chronic unhappiness and weariness of life; It is good that you are expressing yourself and using your creativity with words, at the same time it is concerning that you write 

"I'd like to be happy but I cannot lie

A part of me hopes this is the year that I die"

This prompts concern for your emotional wellbeing... I wonder if you would talk with your GP about your lack of satisfaction, and call us on our freephone to talk about how you are feeling?  Someone on the forum once posted 'Recovery needs to be enjoyable to be sustainable', your levels of enjoyment and life satisfaction are important for your recovery and wellbeing.

Here are a couple links that might be of interest:

https://www.thecalmzone.net/footballer-steven-caulker-on-addiction-and-getting-his-head-back-in-the-game

https://www.menshealthforum.org.uk/howru-hub

Take care,

Adam.

Hi Captain,

Its been a while ?

Sorry things aren’t good with you. 

I don’t have any news either. Things are up and down with OH. Part of the problem is the fact I take things personally and get upset by quite a lot. I think it’s due to changes happening to my body - due to my age ???

Dads appointment on Friday can’t come soon enough. He’s back to being in quite a lot of pain, along with having no interest in anything. It’s very sad. I just hope they can do something and things will change somewhat. 

Please don’t worry about repeating yourself. I’m here always. 

Tizzy xxx

Hi Captain,

Good to hear from you. I’m glad you’ve been in chat, I’m sure it will have been of help to some. I haven’t been in chat for months and months. Part of me feels it’s hypocritical, it’s not for me atm. 

Things have been better with OH today. We’ve been busy around the house as we’re having a family bbq on Saturday. There’ll be about 15 of us! 

We are going away on Monday to a lodge in the SW. I’m looking forward to it. It’s nice to get away from the norm. 

Love Island is back on the tv (I know you hate it) ? OH has to suffer it ???

Yes, almost our first year Anniversary…. How we gonna celebrate?

Tizzy xxx

Hi Captain,

I hope things are better with you, even if only a little.

We’re away. The weather is lovely, a little too lovely for my liking tbh. It’s nothing fantastic, just different from the norm. You can use the same tea and the same milk, but the tea tastes different. The same sausages cooked taste different. I like it. On saying that, I’m hoping to go back on Saturday (2 days early) as there’s something I don’t want to miss out on. Not sure if OH will roll with that but I’m keeping my fingers crossed ? 

We’re going to venture out today to a seaside town. I fancy eating (we’ll share) fish and chips out of the paper, with lashings of salt and vinegar. It’s a holiday thing that just has to be done! So cereal and toast for breakfast shortly. 

I do think there are different depths of CG’s. You, like me have some control. I know you’ll say it’s a case if “having to” ….but you do. It’s hard and you battle daily, maybe again it’s because you previously hit your rock bottom - did you? Maybe it’s because I haven’t that I still shop. I just did a massive sigh. I currently have online gambling under control. It’s controlled to a certain degree as you know. I’m with Gamstop until next year. OH is excluded from many, many sites. These are barriers, if I really wanted to gamble online I’d find a way. There’s ALWAYS a way. But is it the fact that I still occasionally “shop” that covers my online addiction? That gives me my fix, so I don’t look for it online. I just don’t know…

Take care of yourself and let me know how you are. 

Tizzy xxx

Morning Captain,

Yes I am totally up for exchanging email addresses. I have many, all made for different gambling accounts. ? I could therefore nominate one specifically for you ?

To be honest, I thought about that a couple of months ago, but didn’t know how you or Gamcare would see this. I didn’t think it was allowed, so was trying to think of ways I could give you my email address in code. ? But I didn’t want to get into trouble ???

My dad received a letter from the plastic surgeon (he seems to be taking over dads case) yesterday. A very long letter, detailing everything my dad had been through and the plan he has moving forward. Sadly this is another op. But really knew it would be the case. It would involve what’s called a debridement, removing whatever is necessary. This would leave a big hole at the bottom of dads chest, so there is talk of twisting/moving the muscle from his back. Quite a big op I would suggest and he’d require ICU treatment afterwards. 

I have also got to have routine blood tests, smear and first mammogram when we get home…… you know how I feel about that! ???

It is nice being away from normality. And no doubt it’s what you could do with. Sadly when you’re single you generally pay so much more. I’m sure you’d love a nice lodge holiday. It’s pretty quiet, not many children around ? there’s a pool and a bistro here. I haven’t been to either, OH went swimming yesterday. We’ll probably go out this afternoon, grab a coffee somewhere, have a little walk around. As I say, it’s nothing wow, just nice to get away. 

Let me know how we move forward re exchanging email addresses,

Tizzy xxx

Hi Captain,

I’m sorry to hear Gamcare don’t allow the exchange of personal details. I do understand their reasons. The sad thing is I have many outlook.com emails addresses. I could just allocate one to you. 

I see the forum changed something on your previous message, obviously I have no idea what. 

I have been suffering a little toothache these past couple of days, although it has improved a little today. 

We are going home tomorrow, two days early. I’m happy to be going home, just sad that my bubble will be burst and it’s back to reality. ?

When we were out today I bought a new teddy. I’ll let you know what I’ve named it tomorrow ?

Tizzy xxx

Hi Tizzy

I just wanted to say that I get email notifications for these posts and I love reading positive posts like yours. People like you give us all hope. It’s also a great recovery relationship you have built with captain. A equals one by the way ?

Hi Captain

I don’t like the weather too hot either. I already have the fan on constantly. Any hotter and even that won’t help. 

Yes it is nice that some others do read our posts. 

Are we on the same wavelength Captain? ? My teddy, I named it -  mobish65@ do you like a good riddle? …. Talking of riddles, have you heard of wordle? I do it daily on the New York Times website. Just for something to do, a challenge. I like a challenge, do you? 

I hope you’re ok my friend and confidant.

Sweet dreams,

Tizzy xxx

Hi - FAO @Joseph83 and others - 

Joseph thanks for the post and I'm glad to hear that you enjoy reading the posts between Tizzy and I 🙂

For other members - interested to know if there are others who follow our posts?? - we have been corresponding 1:1 on here for almost a year now supporting each other, it would be good to know if our posts are also helpful/beneficial to others and if so in what way?

Hi captain46,

I have regularly read the posts between yourself and tizzy.

I find the honesty and support you give to each other amazing. I've also been able to relate to alot of the topics you have discussed during your friendship. I've  thought about commenting at times but didn't want to post on your discussions uninvited. 

Kind regards 

@walliss77 - great to hear from you and glad you find the conversations between Tizzy and I useful and that you can relate to some of what we discuss  - please feel free to post and comment accordingly !

Captain 

Thanks captain46, I appreciate the friendly message.  ?

Kind regards 

Hi Joseph and Wallis,

I too echo what Captain has said. Anything you relate to, let us know on either of our diary’s. The one thing I have found the most helpful is finding others who feel the way you do. Knowing others have those same thoughts…it’s how the addiction moulds us I guess. But when I talk to others who experience what I experience it excites me. 

Something else I’d like to add is the fact that Captain and I are now communicating one to one. We will still post on here, but it won’t be as often. I’m only saying this as I feel it fair to anyone who has followed our messages over this last year.

@Captain really glad to hear you’re enjoying wordle. Sometimes it’s the simplest of things. I got it today but only on the sixth attempt ???

Much love to all,

Tizzy xxx

Hi Captain,

Took me ages to find your diary. How are you & is everything ok, you're a miss.

Best

AL