Well it all started just over 2 months ago. Prior to this i was in the best position ive been in for a number of years, i had no overdraft, wasnt gambling, and had a couple of thousand pound saved up in my girlfriends account. I wasnt gamlbing whatsover at the time and it felt good, me and my girlfriend were also in the process of moving out and doing our house up at the time. On top of the savings i had, we also saved money into a joint account for the new house.
it all started when my girlfirend went away for the weekend to barcellona, i was left with the money for my bills and money for the weekend. On the friday i went out for a normal night out with my brother and woke up on saturday morning. I woke up with 30 pound in my wallet from the night before. I dont know if because my girlfirend was away i seen this as an opportunity to have a flutter. Before i new it a few hours in the bookies and casino i was left with nothing at all.
I think it was the bank holiday monday that weekend and my girlfriend was still away and i was feeling sorry for myself. I looked on her laptop and found out that her internet banking passord was saved to the computer, As much as i new this was wrong my eyes lit up and i thought this was an opportunity to win my money back and everything would be ok. Safe to say as ever everything came crashing down, thousands of savings gone, 1000 pound overdraft used up. Since then wages have been lost, loan ammount upped etc. Now me and my girldfriend are not currently seeing each other and im back at my mum and dads house all because of that 30 pound that i had spare, when i was on my own.
My girlfriend has given me many opportunites and although she says its not the gambling, its the fact i dont tell her after or just send her a text because i cant bring my slef to tell her face to face. I understand this but the core to all the problems, lies. etc is problem gamling.
Im sick of hurting all those people closest to me, i just hope they realise that im not doing this on purpose and do appreciate everything they do. Ive been in this position many times before and i know i can turn things around, unlike before im going to give myslef the best possibilty to stop myself gambling each day. Ive put many things in place before but theres awlays been a loop hole. This time around im going to give myslelf the best chance, all i want to do is be back to the person i used to be and make those closest to me proud. Hopefully things can work out for the best and can get my life back on track.
Thanks for taking the time to ready my post, any feedback would be very much appreciated. Unlike other times im going to continue to post on here every single day, wether ive gambled or not im going log my feeling and how each days has gone.
You can beat this if you get yourself organised and make a plan of what you need to do: i.e.
Don't try to tackle this on your own - stay on this site and use all the help they offer: telephone counselling, exclusion methods, finance help etc. and read other peoples posts to see that you are not the only one with this problem.
While you are with your parents find a quiet moment to tell them about the problem and ask if they can take over/monitor your finances and wages. Don't keep secrets from them and you will feel much better and find this will deter you from gambling. If you have good friends you can talk to ask them to support you as well.
I know it is difficult but try to use your energy up on other interests or have a goal to aim for like saving up for a holiday or a deposit.
You have to remember what a good life you had without gambling and how much happier you were then- and from what you said that was not long ago - I am sure you will get back to that life again with a little help from a few people. The reason I try and help people like you is because I would hate to see another bright young life being ruined by the easy lure of this online and high street gambling. As you may guess I am the parent of a person who has been in your position.
Make today Day 1 of not gambling and tick off the days and keep a diary going at home or on here. Concenrate on overcoming this and do it for your Mum and Dad as well.
Good luck
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