Metamorphosis

Here for ya DF...the way you describe your surroundings is more than inspirational ☺

Thank you for sharing - calm continues

Stay strong...keep talking

S x

Well gave it another try but reading some diaries on here just heightened my feelings that this site is no longer useful to me. The happy clappy brigade have taken over to the exclusion of so many interesting opinions to the extent that very few will feel safe to write about their inner feelings and the traumas and devastation they have suffered exploring the reasons behind their current situations. How dare anyone express a view that differs from theirs or speaks of feelings and pain thereby 'spoiling their weekend'. If insensitive, ignorant people want to talk bol.lox in the atmosphere of a pub, f**k of to facebook or actually go down the pub. Sad to see so many names disappearing from the site replaced by the same ones appearing time after time giving 'advice' instead of support.

Hi Dragonfly. I don't really want to comment about the happy clappy brigade as you put it, but I do agree with you about the insensitive comments made by that poster, which are in a similar vein to things that she said before. As someone who has shared many of my deepset thoughts and struggles on here, I was upset by those comments. I don't think they were aimed at me, but I still felt them. I imagined eye rolling, sniggers, derision...and it didn't feel very nice. My initial thoughts were to retreat. But I've decided not to let it stop me. Finding out what fuels my desire to gamble is really important to me. Too important to let those comments stop me. If I bore people, well...so be it. There are a lot of people on here who do care. There is a lot of support, and I believe it is a genuinely useful place at times. If it doesn't serve you, then I can understand that. I just don't want you to lose a lifelife based on some ill-judged and insensitive remarks.LB x

Hi DF
When i first came here i read through a variety of posts. All much of a muchness, not really exploring their need to gamble, just the usual stories around money. I was about to give it up as a bad job. Then came across a post from Joan, then i found others from people such as you, Duncan, Freda & others. It gave me hope the site could maybe be greater than the sum of its parts. I get the reaction to throw the towel in & walk away, I feel like that on an almost daily basis! But if you do walk away wouldnt that be remaining the person we dont want to be. We cant always leave it to someone else to fix it.

Please refrain from posting on my diary. I have no interest in what you have to say. Be happy 🙂

And therby lies the proof - what ego and ignorance

Absolutely disgusted that admin have deleted my entry which was not aggressive in any way yet they leave an insensitive egotistical entry on another diary from someone with absolutely no insight or interest as to the damage they are doing as they have stated clearly on others and my diary. This may well be a virtual site but we are all real people with real feelings.

Hey DF,

Keep breathing..i cought your post - diamond piece from you! Absolutely loved it! Try and copy and paste next time..we will keep admin on their feets then 😉

Stay safe..it's quite fun recent hours lol...bad bad girl huh

Will catch ya soon and pls..stay calm

S xx

Nah... No, tell itchy and scratchy to take a hike. Just like us human service types to take on guilt and shame that has NOTHING to do with us. Shake it off!!! Big fat hugs! xxx

For a much more balanced view of last nights events please read Cardue's entry on the Feedback forum.

Well that sums it up for me. Deano missed ' a good show' last night. Just how insensitive to peoples feelings can some people be and what a low this site has now stooped to become.

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Final thoughts

I have absolutely no problem with people being either happy or clappy, have been both myself, what I do have a problem with is this being called banter and used to intimidate, mock and giggle at others with expressions such as "glorification of people who have had something seriously nasty stuff going on in their lives".

DF, it is horrible to hear that you feel unsafe here 🙁

You too will be missed but you have to do what is right for you!

Stay safe out there - ODAAT

Hey DF,

I hear you my friend. Maybe it's all just a learning curve? I know that at times over the years my posts my have bordered on the provocative and divisive end. I have learned that, "in addiction", I can be quite the little monster. If my thought processes in addiction were balanced and healthy, than addiction wouldn't be a problem in the first place would it? I'm on the fence about walking away though.... I have no use for "us and them" mentality but, like I said, I have felt that way myself at times. It has been said many times on here take what you need and leave the rest. Sometimes it's really hard not to get sucked in. I remember when I was a child, my mom shoving bitter medicine down my throat and me holding my nose coughing and sputtering.. In the end I guess her intentions were good, and it was good medicine. But, as I have already mentioned on my own thread - I no longer need a mom or daddy to force medicine down my throat. Not sure at all what this ramble is about but, you have been a constant friend to me through all of this. You know where to find me. I agree that admin dropped the ball on this one. Over focusing on provocative posts but dismissing some of the deliberate divisiveness in other posts. Unfairness ticks me off too. Do what you need to do for your own health and sanity good friend dragonfly. ((((((H)))))) -joanxxxx

Sorry to read you feel vulnerable on here at this time, you have to do what is best for you, but we know it's all about taking one day at a time, and we feel different nearly every day my friend, hope you feel different soon, and post again,you too will be missed

Take care of you DF and thank you for letting me read your thoughts, another big part of my own journey.

Suzanne xxx