Day 95 gamble free.off for a few days. Life good project astro turf laid no more mowing for me looks good and real not like a fruit and veg stall. Staying strong hitthefanx
Day 102 gamble free took ages to find diary tonight. Having late one days off . Family time. Hitthefanx
Thinking too much tonight been reading diaries and actually get a bit overwhelmed by it all at times .
It took me a while to get time money location the triangle I don't have a o level in the obvious but it works sort those three things and keep mr will power by your side and it is possible. On this site there are so many inspirational people whom constantly post and give advice and never become disheartened when these people vanish after a couple of posts admiral people who have great belief and give so much I'm in awe. It amazes me the effort, thought and time people give on this site , restored my faith in human nature. Thank you all gamcarers the silent observer hitthefanx
Still gamble free . Working one more 12.5 shift to go then day off life hectic. Emotional time at work some rather distressing situations . Soldering on . Hitthefanx
Lost count is that a bad or good sign but still gamble free and not complacent . Due to the bloody debt I returned to work full time and had to give up the voluntary jobs . So my wee charity shop stint has finished and school library hours all on back burner. The library job was something I won't miss the craic was s**t far to serious for me. The shop was brill mostly ironing for me I think I may have been the only one non arthritic and under fifty also the quality of clothing was rather dated. Off work for 24hrs still unsettled no issues with staff but I have been in this field for 29 years it has taken me up and down the country and abroad . My second option was to be a air hostess but I was too short because in 1984 you had to be five feet two I was to short. Right weight though . Today all these restrictions are gone good thing . Gosh I have a numpty head on today must be the sun . Having a good one hitthefanx
Read my previous post sounds a bit ageist not supposed to be. Day off .sold a lot of stuff on the non bidding site result money for hair do and beauty treatments luxury . I miss the normality of having money and being able to do things this is a constant reminder of the things gambling has allowed to rob from me which I allowed it to do. Debt is just one factor that is a constant reminder of how soul destroying and destructive gambling can be annoyance springs to mind that I lost myself . My journey continues and I wish to have peace of mind and only I can resolve this issue. Weather lashing down puddles you could swim in ducks with wellies on and I feel rather sunny inside hitthefanx
Day 114
Car boot yesterday made some dosh euros bought for sons trip next week. Mum and aunt coming to stay help with younger son whilst working. Got job interview panel of four and got to do power point presentation and study help rather stressed . But no gambling . Strange but my life is so much fuller unable to explain skint . My perspective has changed and I look at thinks so differently maybe the fairies came and gave me a personality transplant last night. Maybe I'm just happy and had forgot what it was really like due to my gambling . Not had an external interview for over 16 years . Rather daunting but it's a life experience .
What's for you won't go by you. Hitthefanx
Hi HTF - So glad to read your positive post, and good luck with the interview.
Joanna :o)
Thank j. Still gamble free . Life full on . Hitthefanx
Day 125 gamble free and feeling good had interview and got new job no more on call public holidays weekends bring it on .on a natural high hitthefanx
Well done hit the fan - what a great achievement on getting the job. Lovely to hear that you are still remaining gamble free also.
Take care and enjoy your new life.
Feb.
Day 126 thanks Feb. glorious sunny day staying strong hitthefanx
Hey there,
Thanx for ur post. Yep, I hit the floor full face but seem t have my soul intact. Julie is doing more than well. Really pleased for her.
You should b well proud of urself 126 days is great, won't b long and you will have a year under ur belt. Stay safe and strong..life can b much better if you keep making the right choice!! You are on a right path.
Take care
S x
Day 128 thinking of you Sandra such an inspiration. Rather mixed shifts this week . Sad to be leaving will hand in notice when get letter in post . Looking forward to the change . My eldest home tomorrow back from Normandy has been moved by the trip and overwhelmed in awe of the veterans he has spoke too . Staying strong hitthefanx
We'll not been writing diary much . The days are rolling on very busy living. Future new job usual anxieties but just part of life's tapestry. No moaning , no irritations the world hasn't changed but I have . Staying strong and gamble free hitthefanx
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