my betting diary

Well done wp, my good fellow Scot! Hope you have a good Christmas and I'll buy you a drink to bring in the New Year!!

lots o' love Lili xx

thank you jeff,youve been wi me since my cry for help on day 1 and believe me real cries they were,in fact during a counselling session in a little room this addiction finally brought me to my knees,picked up i was by my councillor and told things had to change...i contacted my councillor today to thank her for getting me to where i am today in recovery (if your reading thanks again S) 😉 last year on this day,was the final straw,soul destroying and depressing were my words after blowing money on stupid cartoon races in a 20 minute break from work......that was just the tip of the iceberg..i had lost 000s over the years,and loan after loan not only was i gradually losing my house but my relationship had long gone and beautiful family to go with it...something had to be done !!.i found this website and by the use of my mobile phone (dont have laptop,only use library occasionally) gradually day after day broke away from this illness..as i have said today is just a minor milestone because every day as compulsive gamblers,to NOT BET is a significant achievement and therefore a milestone in itself...even though i have never met you,you ALL have become close friends and to the many diaries out there (too many to thank and id be too scared i missed someone out) i thank each and every one of you whos contributed to my diary...you ALL know who you are....many thanks to gamcare for having the use of this site and to NECA for providing me with counselling which i am the 1st to admit at 1st wasnt working as i still fancied the odd punt but finally realised my illness could get no worse....life is still very much a struggle but believe me im in a far better position than i was this time last year..in fact just last night i was left to do the things dads do,play,read, bath and put to bed the little one..something i never thought was achievable but it IS progress..many things have changed in that year...i no longer wake up looking for that next bet,no longer worry if im overdrawn due to betting transactions,one day money in next winning bets not cleared therefore facing bank charges...a basic cash card put paid to this ;-)....also i no longer go for sneaky walks with the dogs taking "shelter" in the nearest broke lads or hi lls shops...every day away from gambling i get stronger though i am only too aware that i am only one bet away from disaster and having to start again...having scaled the heights of one year bet free i wont fall that easy to them money grabbing shops both online or in the street....simples i cant win cause i cant stop !!!...so here i am on day 365 at 16:41 and 8 seconds (still got that virtually unreadable betting slip of my last bet to remind me of that dreadful day) one year bet free..the good thing about this site but not only today but a good few of us, im 100 % certain will reach the one year milestone on the diaries (i think viggo and seano maybes next followed by GT russ,tommi and brian,blues,unlucky the list endless but i have great confidence in you ALL) ;-).today i wont bet,onwards into a new year i march determined as ever to beat this evil,tomorrow i wont bet,this can be done with a little help from yourselves... MY FRIENDS....BELIEVE !!!! NEVER GIVE UP GIVING UP,many thanks,we can do this 🙂

Well done on your year of freedom wp.. your resolve and fortitude is to be commended. Keep going.. year on year on change.. one day at a time.. an inspiration! regards.. S.A 🙂

Winningpost,

I'd say it was both painful and pleasureable writing that diary entry.

All I can say is Very Well Done. You sound like you are a totally different person one year on; mature, responsible, caring and an endless list of other positive qualities.

You deserve the credit for what you have done. The gambling life of endless sh it, worry, ruin is behind you. Now is the time to build. Build on these foundations you have laid. Winningpost for president !!

Brian

Hey Mate (and you are my mate),that post was from your heart,as Brian says writing it must have conjured up a right old mixed bag of emotions for you,i know you are a big softy at heart:).It's great seeing the progress you have made,not referring to gambling,more so on the rebuilding of things with your family,i have always felt that would be the case,it warms my heart to see it happening:).

"We can do this"......you've proved it:).

Seano.

Well done Post on getting through the last year. Although you probably did not realise it would be such a hard path that you were going to tread, I have nothing but respect for the way that you have managed to stay away from gambling completely. This alone is a marvellous achievement but as you have had all the other family pressures and worries to contend with as well it is even more of an achievement.

I know that this first year of the way back to a normal life will lead to even better years ahead my friend.

I CANNOT WIN BECAUSE I CANNOT STOP

Stumper

Hi wp.

Massive congratulations on going one whole year without placing a bet. You are truly deserving of all the praise that is coming your way.

Even more so i wish to congratulate you on the generous time and effort you have spent in supporting others. As well as finding your own path in recovery i genuinely believe that your constant support and advice has helped others get on the same path.

All this posting via a mobile telephone!

Keep doing what you are doing wp.

High five!!!!!

Huge congratulations on passing the 1 year milestone 🙂

You need never go through that first year of recovery again. I knew you could do it, you are very strong wp.

Really happy for you, hope this has been good for your self-esteem.

Take care,

f x

wp, 1 year WOW!! thats brilliant mate, but must keep up the good work into year two and beyond.

Your support is invaluble and I hope you have a good day

Take Care

Blues

many thanks for your encouraging posts...they have really touched me 🙂 .....onto today and its a day off for a change....as the ex is at work i am round there waiting on a parcel to be delivered with the luxury of a certain satellite channel on hand.....low and behold flicking through the channels i find one of my old haunts (atr channel)..the demons pricked their ears for a minute but i quickly switched them off by switching over....we must remain alert at all times....a simple mistake like that couldve started things off !!!.today i wont bet tomorrow i wont bet,we can do this 😉

Hi wp.. yes temptation at the flick of a button.. staying alert for sure.

yes the Wetherspoons comment in my diary i regret. When i was in there the other day with an old accquaintence I had quite a nice time nursing my pint and soaking up the atmosphere. I guess am just a bit of a snob.. when i had more money I used to hang out in the posh bars in London doing a crossword and pre-tending to be something i wasn't. Wetherspoons is much more friendly and real and cheap of course! have a good day.. S.A 🙂

wp, excellent news on the 1 year. At the moment that seems a lifetime away for me but you are living proof that things can be done. Your right about being alert at all times though. Keep it going and I echo others comments when I say thanks for the encouragement you also give to others.

Hi wp

Many, many congratulations on your milestone of reaching and passing a complete year gamblefree..Its a huge achievement and one which you should be incredibly proud of reaching..

You've put the work in, stuck to your guns and shown many that this can be beaten..

And i for one take my hat off to you..

Now on to year two (how good does that sound)..

Very well done, keep up the good work

All the best

Hi wp

Just wanted to pop in and say hi, great to read how well you are doing, congrats on the year gamble free, great stuff mate!

take care, ands

Thanks for your post on my diary mate appreciate it. I'll still be around daily catching up on few diaries. Yours being one of them.

And a massive well done on a year, you're showing us all the way to do it. I'm really pleased for you.

It soon builds up going odaat, keep it up 🙂