Day 59 - 6/3/17
Feeling tired and a bit fed up. Still gf though and that's a bonus.
Keep going - don't give in - just say to yourself not this time, not today , stay strong
All the best
60 days!!! Such a come back! Don't listen to those 'I have it under control voices', u have being gamble free under control! Yay. Reward Treats!! 🙂 xx
Day 64 - 11/3/17
Had a nice night away with the OH at a hotel. First time away from Paige. Was lovely. But came back and feel thousands times worse. Also OH been gambling and been winning which makes a change but it's just reinforcing doing it! And he constantly gambles. I get annoyed and yet still slightly tempted. Oh well. Another day gf x
Day 66 - 13/3/17
Having more frequent urges but keeping in control. Total deposited in 2016 £6992.59 total won £3354.44 total loss £3638.15! No wonder I am still in debt. My salary is only around £8000 a year now as I'm part time. So I deposited close to my whole years salary. It's ridiculous. What's more ridiculous is that I still get urges. Silly mentality
Day 71 - 18/3/17
Wow can't believe I am 10 weeks gamble free. Have urges when I see OH gamble even though I know it's destructive. Keeping busy. Keeping positive. Focussing on doing activities and having treats instead of gambling
Day 72 -19/3/17
Another gf weekend
Day 75 - 22/3/17
After the day I have had I could easily gamble and OH on nights too which is even harder. I am gonna keep busy and remember how much easier it's been with money since I stopped. Still not great but getting there
Check you out day 76!!! Woop Woop 🙂 xx
Day 80 - 27/3/17
Payday and could have so easily gambled this evening while OH was at work. He will be back soon so not long left to abstain. He's still gambling. I just need to remember how nice it's been not to lose all my money when I get paid and struggle all month. Although I have been substituting gambling for retail therapy
Just want to drop by and say a big well done!
It must be difficult for you, especially as your OH appears to be winning.
You know statistically we never usually win in the end but our addicted brains tend to forget about that.
It's certainly a battle but it's a battle well worth winning.
I'm sure your mental health has improved and if you're like me just the fact that you're able to spend your hard earned money on retail therapy is a bonus and does make you feel as though you have achieved something.
Enjoy your freedom to spend, with a clear gf head and a spring in your step. Life is so much better without the dark clouds and despair caused by gambling. Best wishes xx
Hi there w.t.s.
Just wanted to say a huge well done on all those g.f days! Especially as your o.h is still gambling. Keep hold of that hard earned salary - very tightly. Retail therapy is way much better than giving it (and most likely losing it) to those gambling sites! Like I have said before, you never seem to see bookmakers, casinos or online betting sites going into liquidation! Says a lot doesn't it? I treated myself to a nice Chanel foundation brush this month and it felt so good again to buy things for myself.
Take care and have a lovely g.f day.
Our Lady
Day 81 - 28/3/17
Thanks both. It does feel good to spend on myself Paige and others and not worry about money too much. Obviously I have to sort out my debt but I have been living my life and enjoying it. However I have been getting more tempted lately. Just need to remind myself that it's not worth it. Also it's not just the money it's the emotions ups and downs etc that goes with gambling. Same goes with OH his mood depends on whether he's winning or losing. And he keeps borrowing off me too
Just a thought, and it is your life. But if he is borrowing off you, it is easier for him to gamble and keep gambling. Why should you fund his gambling habit, when your doing so well and working towards a good life..
Julie x
Day 82 - 29/3/17
You are right Julie and it annoys me but I say no and he ends up wearing me down in the end. I know it's not an excuse. So nearly deposited earlier. Don't know why it's been so hard lately. Had a nap whilst Paige did so I couldn't. She's in bed now and OH at work so it could be tempting. But got a program to watch. A book to read and soooo much housework to do. Will keep busy and not give in x
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