Day 42 - 17/2/17
6 weeks gf. Thanks for the posts guys. Good to see u ODAAT. I take on board what you are saying. He says he has self excluded so we will see. I know I can't make excuses but it's not as bad as he was when we were first together. He gives me the house keeping first. And it's hard when you love someone and have been with them so long. I am just trying to think of me and Paige now. Get some more motivation. I have never looked through my diary. I only saw a couple of posts last night looking for my PB but it may well be a good idea for me. I sdod check in on you to last night ODAAT. Red keep it up. Have a good weekend both x
Only managed to look at Jan and Feb 2016 so far to see what I spent and won.
Jan spent £248.94 won £464.21
Feb spent £1385.62!!! Won £125.60
Shocked already !
Day 44 - 19/2/17
Plan to work out the rest of the money I spent in 2016 and have an action plan for my debt. Also start my reward scheme too
Winner!!! 🙂 xx
Day 46 - 21/2/17
Still strong and gf although had a few fleeting thoughts earlier
Just saw your post on my diary. You're so right!! We will not be fooled by these thoughts of control. Being gamble free is the only and fortunately best form of control we have!! Staying gamble free, 1 day at a time. We've got this! 🙂 xxx
Day 49 - 24/2/17
Still gf. OH still gambling but had won yesterday so had it flaunted in my face the last 2 days. Got a really sore throats so just not feeling up to anything. Went to give blood for the first time today but the declined as I wasn't well which upset me a little bit but I will book in again x one day at a time
Half way to the big 100 🙂
My OH is still gambling as well after telling me (very sincerely at the time, but of course I know better than to a) believe him and b) challenge him about it further). Only they can decide to stop and we must look after ourselves. Just like us, they're not bad people, just caught in the addiction, in some ways it's almost a good thing that we know how the mind of a gambler works. I certainly wouldn't be putting up with the behaviour other wise! But everything else about my OH I love very much.
Hope you (calmly and kindly of course, as us gamblers can get a bit crazy and very protective of our winnings and defending our habit to others! :)) reminded him that some of those winnings should go towards the debt he owes you 😉
One day at a time chick, sounds like you're due a reward xxx
Keep on trucking w2s!...little steps forward вє
Day 52 - 27/2/17
Payday and OH On nights. One of the worse times to give in.
Just finished working out what I spent in 2016
Jan spent 248.94 won 464.21
Feb spent 1385.62 won 125.60
March spent 0 won 0
April spent 240 won 0
May spent 404.90 won 0
June spent 0 won 0
July spent 0 won 0
Aug spent 1015.00 won 455.19
Sept spent 595.47 won 360.00
Oct spent 636.99 won 350.00
Nov spent 507.91 won 647.97
Dec spent 1847.76 won 951.47
Red I can't believe how closely our lives echo each other. OH still gambling daily. Each time he loses telling me he is never doing it again etc etc. Heard it all before. He is also depressed not in a good place and fed up with me apparently!
Just going to keep strong on my road to recovery and not let it get to me. As the worse I get the more likely I am to gamble to escape
Stay strong chic x and you're right, our lives really do echo each other's. Apparently my OH is fed up with me too. Well if we're so hard to be around whilst we seem to be the only ones making an effort then they should either change or go be (what they consider to be) 'happier' in their gambling existence. We should not feel bad about trying to be better or apologise for wanting more. Being gamble free will eventually, one way or the other, set us free xx
Day 56 - 3/3/17
Stayed gf while OH on nights. Had a few temptations but staying strong. 8 weeks today 🙂
Woo hoo!! 8weeks and 1 day XD
Day 58 - 5/3/17
Been feeling tempted again lately. Little devil telling me to have a little go. You can control it etc. Not going to listen this time
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