My Diary of Shame

Hi there,

Am smiling indeed girl...keep smiling yourself, life is for living 🙂

Thanks for keeping an eye on me Junnnneee, all is well as far as gambling goes, mind too busy with learning the new ropes at work, lol.

It's great to know you are keepng strong,

Keep smiling because it sure has turned out nice agsin Ohh HD indeed.

Blondeeee xxxxx

Hi there! Hope all good? there was time when the thought of never gambling again scared the heck outta me as it s been with me all my life. But I feel much more comfortable with it now, accepting i've an allergy to it, and its not for me in any shape or form.

Keep strong !

massive hello ODAAT,

it's always lovely to hear from you Junie, I genuinely didn't know i had that wicket 111, and then there's you with your three little ducks 222 exactly half your total that's spooooky Junie..I'm more than pleased with my progress picking winners at Cheltenham and collecting absolutely zilch. HD indeed.. I've been to the Chelt festival about a dozen times (normally gold cup day) with my pals but we decided late last year we would give it a miss because there was a hatch..match..and dispatch of sorts with one having a new baby..one just got wed..and another getting divorced, i was just starting on the road to recovery so i was secretly pleased..but i now feel I could go and not gamble..none of my friends are what you'd call gamblers they just go for the social aspect, I'd like to think I'm in that bracket now, especially by next years festival..

here's hoping i stay 111 days behind you Junie because I know you're not for failure...as for Mrs Ginge yeah she's got a long busy Sunday ahead but she doesn't mind Mother's Day because it's daff's and pot plants for Mums...not spiteful roses that lovers like.

thanks for being there ODAAT & Juuuuune......onwards and upwards Ginger x

Hello Mrs D, apparently it's time for an update - even though, for the record, you had one last week ;-)...

Hope you are ok Junnnie this morning.

I know you will kick those silly thoughts into oblivion, because your recovery journey is too strong now and precious.

I too had silly thoughts yesterday but like you I kicked them back to where they belong lol, telling me I deserved a treat Ohh HD indeed.

Take care my friend and keep choosing NO and stay very safe.

Suzzzzanne xxxxx

Thanks ODAAT for your messages and support on my diary.

Well done for kicking Mr gamble where it hurts he's picking on the wrong woman with you your far to strong for that.

Take care and have a great weekend

Hi ODAAT,just letting you know I'm still around and still on the path of redemption,hope you have a better week,you've come through it that's the key,stay strong!xx

Hi ODAAT

Junie You say you're blessed with a little bit of the ginger gene so I'm dedicating my profile pic sentiment to you....here's hoping that your weekends a corker....relegating the last couple of days to the.. 's#it days i wanna forget bin.'...stay strong, stay focused, stay inspiring,stay upbeat...well just stay Juuune really....and Junie I think it's Galaxy ripple time.

all the very best..your friend Ginger x

Hi
Juuune

The thoughts you are having is just your brain trying to find away to calm the anxiety you feel about your friend. Constantly checking if they are on here & personal email is just adding to your stress. I had a situation before xmas when my best friend disappeared. He decided life was too tough & spent a month in a c rack den on his laptop blowing a 6 figure sum on blackjack. He sometimes answered my calls & texts but most of the time ignored them or broke plans with me to meet up. I too was getting anxious & stressed about him thinking my actions should be able to make him better, that i could control his destiny within recovery. I couldnt. He came back when he was ready to. We have talked in length about why he continued when i was offering help. The simple answer was there was nothing i could have done, he told me it was comforting to know i was there waiting & i would not judge. But he could only come back when he had nowhere else to go. My only advice would be let them know you are there when they are ready

Dan

Thanks guys, for all of your support...It is indeed Galaxy Ripple time Ginge 🙂

Ohhh, it will have to wait as it appears the little man in the kiosk @ Euston has had no previous call for such delicacy - fear not I am settled on the train with my can of red & white fizzy delight & a packet of Wheat Crunchies 🙂

Imagine my surprise today when my new boss spoke to me about some extra work (for a few dates in Juuuuuune co-incidentally) & I mentioned that I fully expected to be working for someone else by then, only to hear this is the 1st he knew about it! I've been harping on since the start of December & when I say harping, I don't mean dropping subtle hints! Probably just as well I'd had less than 3 hours sleep as the tears trumped the outburst & they're really easy to fight back 🙂

I'm not very good @ patience but since I'd really rather not be arrested for stalking, I have come to my senses & accepted that this is out of my hands...Doesn't mean I like it though! I have traded yesterday's late finish & this morning's early start for an early finish today with a late start tomorrow & I am glad to report that this, coupled with support both on & off the forum finds me calm again 🙂 Strange that a recovery journey could bring new perils but hey, no-one said it was easy!

I am off home (having not let myself down @ work), the sun is shining & Mr Gamble has not deigned to show his ugly mug today...HD, it sure turned out nice again 🙂

Junnnnieee, soo pleased to see you are feeling better, we can only be there for folks, ( ie your mum and my son) they will only converse with us when they are ready, trouble is we feel there pain but we know with our own experience, no one can pull us out until we are ready,

Did I tell you you are doing amazing, changing jobs and getting ready for an October wedding will be stressful, stay strong girl,

and keep choosing NO, it's the only sure and happy way to go.

Don't know where my niggles have come from but they are there, Mr Gamble is trying sooo hard for me to not do that one year, but do you know what, he is not going to win anymore, because like you I choose NO

Take care and think of you, and your future HD all the way.

Suzzzzzannneeexxxxxxxx

Hi Junie, sorry for the confusion i posted my Ginger Pic then Gamcare must have replaced it with my 99 day pic. (probably checking to see if it's politically correct...in case it's offensive to Gingers.)

Juuuune if you think I'm cryptic Suzanne's on 321 today.

have a lovely day ODAAT..onwards and upwards..Ginger x

Hi Junieee just popping in to wish you a lovely gambling free Sunday,

Keeeep gooooing my friend and stay safe

Suzannnneeexxx

Hi ODAAT
Onwards and upwards
Stay safe and keep being you
Take care
Cheryl xxx