My Diary of Shame

Hi June,

Have the best time, Suzanne is right you do deserve it.

So impressed about the food bank - you're right, the list is normally nasty boring stuff but so long as it's not perishable any time soon I expect they will take some of more tasty stuff for 'todays' customers whenever today is.

You're so right about the practise - I am unfortunately an expert already. Knowing my luck, even if I got onto said game show I would lose anyway 🙂

Anyway, Have a brilliant time my friend. Catch up with you soon.

Rach x

Enjoy your break mate, stay strong !

Au revoir Have a great time ODATT you deserve it

Hope you enjoy ur trip mate, I love reading your diary it's always full of positivity!!!

Take care Carl

Hello Everyone, thank-you for your kind words 🙂

I am Home Sweet Home 🙂

It's lovely to get away from work & spend time (most of the time) with OH but oh, the cold in my little old lady bones was barely bearable & I couldn't wait to get back (if only I knew how to set the heating) :-0

2 nights ago, we were wandering along in a little tiny French town, literally in the middle of nowhere, where all the shops are in half light & suddenly my eye was drawn to a bright light & 2 men sitting like zombies staring up @ something! It literally took my breath away because I did not need to see their surroundings to know where they were & I swear a little piece of my heart snapped off 🙁 Even here, 'we' are no longer safe! I am fortunate that I am here in recovery as I asked myself the question, would I? & I am pretty sure I would have wanted to! 2 days ago, I simply didn't! Neither did I today when I walked into the Service station to grab a burger from the relative of a well known Old man who had a farm! A little over 6 months ago I would probably have considered whether I had time to throw a few bob in & come out complaining about the queue without OH getting suspicious. Disgusting eh? I was kicking myself for who I once was as I walked out & realised that I had walked past not 1 but 2 advertising boards on the way in, both for the fruities! Now that is disgusting!

I'm back, having been away from temptation (pretty much) for a few days & thankfully I'm still mad! I will catch up with you all soon! Be safe, be strong - ODAAT

Hi ODAAT,

Good to see you home safe and sound and still mad lol.

Suzanne xx

Hi ODAAT,

Thanks for your supportive post on my diary.

Hope you enjoyed your break, apart from the gambling distraction popping up like that out of the blue....

As for the Chaf tag? Well not quite, really!! I may have grown up on a council estate in Norffffffff Lundin, and as they say - "You can take the boy outta the council estate, but you can't take the council estate out of the boy!!"" ;0) But I ain't no Chaffing chav rite guv'nor!!

Keep strong mush

Ade xx

Morning ODAAT,hope you had a nice break,my parents live in France,so I go over quite a bit,I love it,they're out in the sticks so it's a total wind down,I think if their local village pub had a fruity it would be the talk of the town,they think the bar football table is a wonder of science! Thanks for dropping by,take care,xx

Hi ODAAT thanks for your post, and glad you enjoyed your well earned break! and more importantly didnt gamble! Gambling is everywhere these days theres no escaping it , maybe the government will eventually do something.

Hey ODAAT thanks for your post and support great to have you back we've missed you even though it was only a few days. Glad you enjoyed your break such a shame we can't get away from these places anywhere these days just stay strong and believe in recovery and you can be safe everywhere.

Hi oddat just read through your diary crazy how I can relate to most everything I tried stopping just before Xmas new yr new start and failed was gamble free 10 yrs plus till last year so now at day 1 again the comment amt1974!About seeing a months bank statement without any gambling transactions on it is my goal at the moment too as each month the pages have grown on it thanks for sharing it's inspirational to see how far you've come and with hope and determination maybe we can all get there one day x

Right girl, I left the smoke of Norf Lundin 25 years ago and headed Sauf West of Lundin Town meself. Not too far away from me ol manor, but far enough treacle if you know wot I means!! ;0)

It breaks me f*****G art evry time I go back to the manor to see some old boat races that I used to run around with. Mind you, the way my knee is at the mo. I ain't gonna be doing much running these days!!

Keep strong

The Guvnor x

Yes, I do seem to have reached the old Soixante-neuf day! oo-er missus!

Quite apt, as you have just returned from France I thought!! lol ;0)

Laters Treacle x

June! (I sang that out loud like an excited child!) You're back me old mucker 🙂 So nice to have you back. I haven't been as diligent as I should have been on here, I have 'had the raging hump' and felt very sorry for myself but haven't succumbed (by the grace of God or the luck of the devil - can't decide which). Sounds like France was just what you needed. Anyway, will catch up properly later tonight.

Rach x

Hi ODAAT,

Good to see you back and being as strong as ever. Staying mad is working lol.

Suzanne xx