My Diary - Time to stop gambling for good.

Day 91 gamble free, Today I hit the 13 week milestone, it seems so long ago since my last bet.

My stages have changed consideredbly, the first week was horrendous, but slowly it got easier with the coping and triangle measures I had in place. After a couple of weeks the daily urges subsided to Every few days and I could begin to live again and think about other things, concentrate on sport and physical exertion.

My goal from 50 days was to.reach 100 now I am only a week and a half away, Which is so close, I have worked so hard to change my habits , I know this is a lifelong fight and my recovery is my.main aim. I am putting 15 years of wrong right, 13 weeks is a start here's to another 13 weeks. Bring it on
Today is a good day, today is a gamble free day.

Day 97 gamble free, been away with kids this week and had a great time, good to have money to spend not juggling accounts with payday loans etc.

Still have a long way to go but making good progress. The big 100 on Tuesday, not long now and after that my next goal is 150 which I know will be my longest stint gamble free in the last 15 years. I'm embracing my recovery, I'm still learning every day and feeling more in control of my life

Gambling is a choice and I choose not to. I have very nearly lost it all and I cannot take that risk again, my life is more fulfilled now I don't have the demons on my back.

Today is a good day, today is a gamble free day.

Lovely positive post Dazz, and only 3 days away from that lovely milestone,

Suzanne xx

Good morning.

Welcome to the 100 club and congratulations on your achievement. Keep abstaining.

Best wishes

100 days gamble free get in!

It really has been a roller coaster, I had some severe lows and some great highs, but one thing that has remained consistent was my will and drive to remain gamble free. In every other facet of my life I had control over, apart from gambling, but I am slowly wrestling this back.

Day 100 is great, but it is the start, I want this to be a lifelong change not just a phase, I have already committed far to much time energy and money to this awful disease, it is now time to reap the rewards of abstaining and maintaining.

I have changed so much over these last 100 days, I no longer have to worry about pay day loans, post through the door, credit card statements or any other loans, I am at peace my partner knows everything and she has stuck by me, now it's time to pay her back for all the years of selfishness, lies, deceit, stealing money, it's time to be selfless, truthful, honest and most certainly self reliant and pay back the money I stole (which I have already done).

Don't get me wrong I still owe a lot of money but I now see a path out of this awful mess, 100 days ago I was at rock bottom, today I am raising my head above the parepit, staring at a new world and embracing it.

Today is a good day, today is a gamble free day.

I was hoping you would stop by Phoenix, great to see you and thanks for your kind words.

We started this together and you was a big factor in my recovery in the early days, when I needed someone you was there to support, I won't forget that.

I just hope in time you will start your recovery again and I can be there for you, we need all the help we can get as you well know.

Will my 100 days inspire you to start as day 1, I sure hope it does!

If not be happy and see you soon I hope!

Thanks Balvaird good to see you pop by, it has been hard but the days soon clock up, this is the start now time to beat my record of 4 months and really.kick on with my recovery.

Whoop whoop, welcome back to the century club my friend 🙂 Bring on the golf balls 😉

Great last post Dazz & I stand firm in my belief that you get it now! Lovely to see you continuing to work hard @ recovery as well as making things up to your missus & just in case she still doesn't get what an accomplishment this is for you, I'm gonna give you an "I'm proud of you" 🙂

Hope the marathon training is going well? Keep winning - ODAAT

Welcome to the century club Dazz, 100 days is a massive achievement, because it is not always an easy journey, but you have done it, through simply committing to recovery, and your hard work.

Keep strong and stay focused, tomorrow will be another good day.

Suzanne xxx

Thanks for your kind words Suzanne & ODAAT, 100 days is a start, brick by brick I will get my life back.
I have a compulsive personality so have put my efforts into more constructive things like building my business and golf. Marathon training hasn't kicked in yet, just getting fitter before pounding the streets properly.

Welcome to the 100 club. 6 days after me!!. It's a fantastic feeling to get there. Many congratulations.

Best wishes

15 weeks gamble free today,

In some ways it has gone fast but in others incredibly slow, so much has changed in 15 weeks, I am slowly getting my life back.

These last few weeks I have not had any urges at all and largely don't think about it. I watch a lot of sport so cannot get away from the adverts, but this does not entice me in, if anything it pushes me further away from.wanting to gamble as I now understand it is a mugs game and chasing that impossible big win is pointless.

I'm getting close to my record of 4 months and I'm focusing on that.

Life is good life is gamble free.

Well done on

15 weeks Dazz, totally relate to that feeling of going fast and yet slow lol.

Stay strong, stay focused and keep winning your life back.

Suzanne xxx

Thanks for taking the time to drop in yesterday, I was pretty gobsmacked by the support 🙂

Good to see that you are treating the adverts with contempt...I never really noticed them before I came on here but my goodness there are a LOT! All that money they can afford to waste on advertising eh? Well @ least none of it is ours anymore 🙂

Keep building those bricks up - ODAAT

Hello diary it's 109 days since we started this journey, you have been a great comfort to me, expression my feelings and gaining advice from others.

I still.feel we have a long way to go, we have built the foundations to our gamble free house, now it's time to start mixing the cement and lay that first brick.

On laying this first brick I am underlying the belief that I will never gamble again, my recovery will last my whole life, in my early stages of recovery this led me to fear I would never gamble again but now I embrace it, I am ready to move on to my next chapter, put a lot of wrongs right.

I came here a lying, selfish, deceitful, debt ridden, carcass of a human being, slowly I am changing and becoming the man I should have always been - reliable, honest, truthful, fulfilled, selfless, it's a long journey but I will get there.

Today I choose not to gamble, for many many reasons as highlighted above, I am moving on with my life and I'm excited.

Today is a good day, today is a gamble free day.