Hi, its the day 2 of my Journey. Its so hard for me because gambling have been my life, my hope, my purpose for over 4 years. I gamble literally everyday, even tho i hit a rock bottom a few times, i still dont wanna stop. I lied a lot to just get money to fill my gambling addiction.
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But right now, I need to let it go all the money that gone. I need to focus on my life again. I want to commit to stop gambling. I wanna be happy with my partner that i have now. I hope i can do this. But i believe i can do this.Â
Be better one day at a time, even if its insignificant.
It's never too late to stop, the biggest win on gambling is to completely stop playing.
What you think that may have been your rock bottom is maybe just a surface of what could have been if you continue playing, cheers and hopefully you can recover.
It's incredibly brave of you to recognize and confront your gambling addiction. Admitting how hard this journey is and expressing your desire to change for the better is a huge first step. Focus on your goal of rebuilding your life and finding happiness with your partner. Remember, it's okay to seek support and take it one day at a time.
Keep going! Keep fighting! Try to draw a line under it, imagine you landed back down on earth with what you have and there was no past. Move forward from that point. You can do this.
Thank you all for all the support. It means a lot to me.Â
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Today is day 3, the urge to reopen my gambling account is so bad. But i can beat this. Tomorrow i will meet my partner, still not sure if i wanna be honest about everything or just keep it to myself.Â
I cant wait to be 7 days GF, as it will be my longest time without gamble. Im sure it will be easier day by day.Â
I will keep posting my journey to remind myself that im stronger than this addiction.Â
2 days ago i was relapse. Im really scared with myself. I feel like a monster, I worried i cant beat this addiction even though i really want to.
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Still undecided to tell my husband or not. It’s really eat me from inside. Would be easier to tell him everything, but the fact that’s gonna hurt him and broke his trust is make me dont wanna do it.Â
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