Need serious help! My life is ruined

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Loxxie
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Hi rach. ..
Just wondering how you're getting on love x

 
Posted : 10th November 2017 9:28 am
amanda0324
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Hi Rach, idk if you still check this but I made a similar mistake and it’s nice to know I’m not alone.. I’m so worried about being sentenced that it makes me feel physically ill. ):

 
Posted : 28th April 2018 8:59 pm
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Rachel just read your story and just wanted to wish you the best of luck

 
Posted : 29th April 2018 6:50 pm
Rach87
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Hey everyone!

I know it’s been a long time since I posted on here and I have to admit i haven’t had the best few months.

I have had a few relapses 🙁 one month I ended up gambling a substantial amount which put us in arrears with our house bills. My partner sensed something was wrong and went on my history and saw my new account, it was a very hard time but I was so glad he found out when he did or I don’t know what would have happened. It took him a while to forgive me and he’s still hurting now but I am really trying to fight this. I don’t know how I could have been so stupid to get back into the cycle of firstly thinking I will win big and then secondly wasting more money chasing my loses!! Why can’t my brain tell me it’s not going to happen??

Anyway, I’ve been strong for the past couple of months and have enjoyed spending the money on my children and actually paying our bills. I still feel I want to gamble for those highs but I have made sure i pay stuff out as soon as we have money in. I can’t afford to lose my home with two small children. Gambling makes me a bad person and a rubbish mother.

I am still waiting for counselling which is annoying as I feel it will help a lot.

I hope everyone else is going strong and managing to live a life without this horrendous addiction!!

Rach xx

 
Posted : 28th August 2018 10:17 am
Rach87
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amanda0324 wrote:

Hi Rach, idk if you still check this but I made a similar mistake and it’s nice to know I’m not alone.. I’m so worried about being sentenced that it makes me feel physically ill. ):

Hi Amanda! So sorry I haven’t logged in for such a long time I never read these posts 🙁 what has happened? Hope you’re ok? If you need to talk I will try and help as best I can xx

 
Posted : 28th August 2018 10:20 am
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