New beginnings!

Lucy, I cannot thank you enough for your kind words of encouragement. The last 6 days for me, have seemed like 60! having you drop in from time to time has been like a cool breeze on very hot day. Thank you for your support!! xxxxx joan

Good afternoon all

Been up in Cumbria since Friday , weather not been great but managed to get out yesterday and thoughout the day did about 2500 ft in total !

Legs were feeling good but the Achilles went again 🙁

Blew up last night and uncle made me go to hospital to get it checked out

Well was told 6 weeks of rest , no mountains just gentle stroll or hobble lol lol

So now , painkillers and anti inflammatories and rest !

Weather not too good next couple of days so hoping to get out again before I leave , trouble with me if it feels better ill go up on the tops but maybe not a big one lol lol

I never listen until its too late so maybe just maybe I might take on board what's been said !

Anyway apart from that the mood is lifting , feeling very strong in my resolve to continue being bet free , there is sooo much more I now want from life and boy I am going to give it everything to try and achieve it !

Take care

Keep strong

Smiling , sore sore foot Lucy xxxx

Thanks for the post lucy.. Ouch to the achilles, i wont start with any hop along jokes it would be inappropriate lol.

Jesting aside I hope you do listen to the advice you have been given, dont push yourself to much for the sake of another trip, plenty of rest and next time you will be running up those mountains before you know it.

Great to see your still feeling strong, the sky's the limit for you now lucy... No looking back now !

Enjoy the rest of your break

Blondiexxx

Thank god you're still alive!! Was beginning to think you'd got lost in those mountains! Sad to hear you've done your foot in but maybe now you'll take the rest you deserve! 😉

Reach out for all you want mate because it's there for the taking... especially if you continue to tame the beast that is gambling!

And I'm sure you will buddy!

Keep smiling 🙂

xxxxx

Lucy.

Just catching up, with things and I hope you have had a better spell of weather to enjoy, your post was further inspiring lucy,you really have hold of your addiction now, keep making that hoice and dont loosen that grip.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Hi looby loo,

Thanks for your post hun....You know....You and a few others on here have been the reason that I have managed to get where I am!

I thank you soooo much!

Sue xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Good morning world

Thanks for posts all and lmm great to see you back on , a diary would be good for us to post on !

Good to see your remaining soooo strong and that life is just getting better for you 🙂

Today the foot gone down , tablets kicking in and Lucy is now thinking what fell to tackle tomorrow lol lol

Actually I am thinking I really do need to listen and do what I'm told this time cause would be unfair to call out mountain rescue if it snaps just because I didn't listen !

Maybe this is something I'm learning on my journey , it would always be my way , never taking advise, never listening because I always knew best !

It makes me wonder how I do my job as the main part is listening to people and then giving strategies for them to make changes for a better life !

But I am slowly starting to listen to advice , it will take time for me to realise I need this but I am getting there

Still no thoughts of a bet

Very very positive about remaining this way but still only one day at a time as I am aware my mindset can change quickly if upset

Keep strong all and have a great bet free day

Smiling Lucy xxx

Good morning Lucy!

Good to hear from you again! I think the busted foot is actually doing you good 😉

Also great to hear you're not being so stubborn and that you are taking the advice of people that care about you.. another small step in the right direction for you on this long but rewarding journey!

It's also great to see how you have met each and every challenge head on, whilst remaining strong and determined and all with a huge smile on your face!

Very, very proud of you mate... keep strong, keep focussed and above all keep inspiring!!

xxxx

Thanks 4 your posts mate we both joined this forum on the same day and its been a pleasure to get to know you and really appreciate all your support your a good un

Good morning

A week away from home , one I usually have great pleasure in but a very up and down week here in the beautiful fells !

The last few weeks have been difficult for me as a huge part of my past came out the cage, I really thought I needed to deal with it but know its been too long , nothing I can do about what happened and I need to tame it again , put it back and throw the key away .

I know this is not the answer but really do feel it's the only way for me .

Did this have an impact on my gambling , ohh yes!

The present is where I was focussing but this was always is the background asking to come out so escaped I did , that way it would not come out, I would not have to deal with it

Has it come out because I am abstaining , yes I think it has , it been getting nearer and nearer over the last few weeks , off work , home alone , NO gambling have all impacted in it getting out !

So , not got out as much this week due to poorly foot but knew with a dry sky I had to yesterday , took it slowly and did not go too high , about 1800ft but when I got up the views were amazing , sat for a while , cried , even shouted at one point lol lucky I tend to walk where no others do , I don't like tourists lol lol , I feel I'm home when I'm there !

I felt better coming home , still along way to go and heading home tomorrow

Gambling :

took me away from all the bad things in life, did it resolve any , noway did it , all it did was hide me behind it , create more problems and nearly destroyed me completely !

NOW

Having to face some tough tough stuff, its really really hard at times , sometimes even physical sickness facing up to stuff but I know if I can then my life really will just be beginning for the first time

So today

I will smile , no matter how I'm struggling I will put that smile on , I managed through tears on top of a mountain yesterday , smiling cause it was so beautiful and that's how I want my life to be

This post is for me to remember just what I'm tackling to remain bet free and if or when the urges come I want to read this post to remind me why I must choose to remain bet free cause if I can tackle this my world will become a calm and happy but if I choose the other route then it would destroy everything I've put into my recovery

Lucy xxx

Good morning,

What an honest post . I think for me and probs a lot of others , it rings so true .

Gambling was my escape, it was never about winning ( although if I won it allowed me to escape more) it was about not facing up to what ever was going on in my life .

Slowly like you , I am starting to deal with those things that I ran away from. It's not easy but I hope for both of us we find our way , and move onto a better future .

Take care Hun, hope your injury improves quickly .

But most of all keep smiling even through the tears, it takes a lot of courage and you have that in bundles.

Shiny xxxxxxxxxx

Lucy. Now that is a wow post.!!! You keep making that choice just for today, tomorrow will be better for it, to steal a phrase, it is like peeling an onion keep peeling off those tougb old skins, inside it is fresh. Lucy i feel like me you are starting your second half and with the team you have you can trully win

duncs stepping forward never back.

Hi Lucy,

What a great post there...really take it easy if your processing stuff and now going deeper with onion peeling ...it doesn't all have to be done in one go..

lots of people supporting you here and am still reading your posts..

take care and keep getting it all out.

Rachel xxx

Wow Lucy....what a post!

Yours is a diary everyone should read!

I used to love gourge walking when I was much younger.....maybe I will look into taking it up again. The fells sound perfect for you, well done making it to the top!

Sue xxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi lucy hope ur ok mate i really do keep your chin up

God bless

take care