NEW DAWN , NEW DAY , FEELING GOOD !

Afternoon buddy,

Nice to see your footsteps around the forum the last few days. pleased to hear the hip op went nearly as planned, im sure you will start seeing the benifits soon. made up the kids seem to have a chance would be great if they could stay together but im sure you will be able to maintain a relatioship with the new people they go to and one will be lucky to have you still in there life.

as you noted im not around here much, i do read but not as obsessively as i did, i took a couple of weeks break and enjoyed it and thought id come back but not as much, when i came back found it hard to catch up, sort pop on now read a few posts if i feel i can offer something different than is said i will but mainly just do the challange with Deano.

The old mans doing well but of a worry at the time but pleased it happened when he did as was supposed to be going on his jollies a week later.

I'll catch up properly soon just in work and got a couple of bits to sort before i go.

KTF

Just a random thought ! .

" As we try to give up gambling, Why do we cling so tightly to a past that is filled with many level's of loss , relationship's , possessions , money and our own self esteem, in the hope that we can somehow still change things instead of reaching out and and embracing a life full of gain in every level " ? .

" What keeps us dangling there , fear of ther unknown " ?

" Answers on a postcard please to a "Former Dangler " " :))

A good random, so beware Alan, i have a fairly long post card coming your way with regards to that thought....TBC

A few things to do and also process needed in a a little confusion i'm going through at this moment which requires processing....

Thanks for the post mate. Have a great weekend

Long overdue welcome back Pops...I missed you.

And as for the question of what keeps us dangling there...A bit deep for me but pretty sure it was my mahusive ego! **swear word** why on earth did I need to reach out, I didn't even have a problem! My sick mind thought the only way out of the hole was to keep @ it! Crazy huh?!?

That's a bit deep for you Uncle George. Are you sure they operated on the right part...or maybe there's still some analgesics swirling around in there?! Good question though. Like Paul, I'll have a ponder too.

Thanks for your message to me the other day. I got quite a fright when I saw my diary on the front page. I'm used to lurking around page 20 or so now. Good to see you back. No time for a proper catch up as daughter's birthday meal with her mates this afternoon. 10 teenage girls....wish me luck 🙂

Hello again Alan,

That random is a question thats had me intrigued for a long time. Have had some superb points of views in the past and was also bought back into the grey matter earlier in the week by an article on loss and also via Dervkids diary. Had intended to reread article before i was to share my thought but has been quite a day, so will keep it within a nut shell and possibly go off tangent.

So, here goes, and a disclaimer before i start, this is for atleast now only my humble views and an understanding of what ive either read or been told by people i respect. So the nutshell is, despite knowingly doing something that hits our low esteem, our self worth, confidence, hurts ourselves and family and on the lower scale a bank balance. We kinda program ourselves that its our lives and what we deserve. A little akin to being in an abusive relationship, its bizarre, yet the abused stick with it because its what they've accustomed too and the unknown becomes a lot scarier. I've met budding nigh on genius's in the past but because of there programming or the environment they've been bought up, never really fill there potential.

Its bizarre isnt it really, and too quote Gorge Orwell , ' all animals are equal but some are more equal than others ' Albeit true but i like to think its a load of bollxxxx.

I do have yo disagree with LB and ODAAT, it wasnt a deep but a very worth question on a addict forum.

Also before i wish you well but will lazily echo Martins first statement from his above post.....

Your old adversry Paul 🙂

Hi Alan - glad you are back and hope you are feeling better.

Volcano - You go very deep into all of this (reading between the lines I think you are quite well-read!) which is quite interesting because in the middle of it all you throw up really important stuff. I am not the brightest tool in the box but I would say you have thrown up a really important point about self esteem i.e. you can be a really brainbox high-flyer, you can be the other end of the employment sector, you can be an addict, you can have had an awful upbringing or life experience - but low self-esteem can hit any one of these people and drive them into some way of getting comfort be it gambling, drugs, alcohol etc. Anyone of these above can suffer with not actually liking themselves and there often lies a huge problem, no matter how much money they may have. I have read so many posts on here now where the self-esteem has flown out the window and it is a case of building it back up again. It is such hard work but you can see people on here sometimes actually starting to like themselves again after they have taken steps to recover from their addiction. I have been helping someone with this myself and it is not the easiest task to get someone to like themselves again but it can be done with love and patience. Good luck with your own journey. Take care.

It might not be broken but you can always improve it 😉

On the other hand...
If it's good....cherish it..nuture it..embrace it...live it ! but always protect it ...
Worth a thought 🙂
And feel free to soil on my page anytime...mwahhhhh x

LOL 🙂

Just been glancing back over my diary....often like to do that...reminds me of the state I was in...of the place I never want to be in again....my little bit of thearapy !
Anyway....I've just spent 1/2 hour chuckling to myself outside with my coffee and smoke at some of the posts from my musketers...all priceless....but wonderfull buffers that got me to the better place I'm in today....I was horrified that my diy project on son's room was around twelve months ago...so I'm bracing myself for next one...kitchen unit doors to be made over....I bought specalist paint months ago...just need a couple clear days to get on with it.....surely painting a few doors can't cause to much mayhem...we'll see lol
Anyhow my old mate....hope your recovery from surgery is going well...it sure is lovely to see you flitting around here again...it's great that we've all moved on in our journeys. ...but I do miss the tounge in cheek nonense with my musketers....I expect I'll hear from them soon ...summers coming and they'll want advice on waxing and sun showers before they hit the beach....take care Mr fish x

Lol..lol..more lol..
Very quick reply...Buffett to do for tonight...
Boredom....knitting ...
Poohy problems...straight jacket..

Jeez....sorry old timer...
The truth is...I suddenly thought...twinks must have a special day coming soon....went to find her.....took f*****g ages...got distracted on route by a few posts....resulting in still being here !. ..
And actually it's only a buffet for twenty old village bus drivers...agm meeting....so I'll knock that up in ten !
Be lucky to sell ten orange juices tonight....but it's my little gesture to the village....I know....I'm all heart....giving up a normally closed night to a local charity....I'll even light the fire for the old buggers !. ...

Turn the heating up the old hits will be desperate for a drink then . Apparently it's why they put salty snacks on the bar? A pleasure to see you still doing well , and I'll repeat what old man Alan said: get back in the kitchen foxy x