67 days gamble free, feels amazing. I've just booked a suprise holiday to haven, this time I've had to book it for during the summer holidays as I work in a school now and can't get term time off. Prices are so much higher during half term so it feels amazing that I've been able to book one. We've not been away for a few years now, so its going to be a lovely suprise for the kids. I'm so proud of myself, I've fought hard to get better mentally and throw myself into my recovery. I'm 36 years old and haven't enjoyed my life the past few years but now I finally am and I feel like a new person. I won't let gambling get a hold of me again.
Hi Stace,
Well done for posting on your diary rather than gambling, as you remember your daughter.
Tommy's midwives are able to offer support for grieving her loss, on 0800 0147 800
https://www.tommys.org/baby-loss-support/stillbirth-information-and-support
We are available on our freephone if you would like to talk about your gambling recovery.
Take care,
Adam.
Not quite sure why my post yesterday was removed!!? All it said was it was the anniversary of my daughters death and that I usually gamble on that day..but thanks for your post adam. I cope with these hard days much better now, I no longer need to gamble or reach out to anyone as I'm doing really well ?
Day 69 gamble free. Get my first wages from job on Friday and really looking forward to treating the kids and not gambling with it ?
77 days gf today and got the keys to our new home ? fresh start for me and my family
Been so busy with the house move, all settled now, instantly feels like home. Love it..been out buying things for the house, felt so good, couldn't do that when gambling. I'm in such a good place. 89 days gamble free, never looking back ?
Who would believe I'm 102 days gamble free? I'm so proud of myself. Times passed so quick. I'm settled in my new home. Loving my job, made new friendships. I'm socialising again, no longer hiding away in a life of utter despair and misery. I have money saved. Last night I did a bbq, my parents, 2 sisters, friend, 2 nephews and 1 niece a came. It was such a good night.
If I can stop gambling, there's hope for everyone. Please believe in yourself. I nearly lost everything, and thst was it for me, it was make or break, and I have 5 kids, no way was I breaking.
I'm so thankful to all the support I've had on here. I don't update my diary much now or attend chat but thats because I'm feeling so strong and getting on with my life that gamcare has taken a back seat but I won't ever forget I'm a gambler and the support I've recieved. I may pop on to chat tonight to see how everyone is ?
Stay strong all. Whether your at the start, middle or end of your journeys, remember your not alone ??
Stacey ?⚘
So so glad to hear this, you are amazing. Keep pushing on, you are absolutely smashing it.
111 days gamble free. And I really do feel free. I'm so happy and have reached a huge milestone with my mental health. My cpn and psychiatrist have said I'm ok to stop my antipsychotic injection for the psychosis I suffered. Lucky for me the psychosis was brought on by trauma and not a illness like skitsophrenia if thats how you spell it so the chances of me suffering again with it are slim. I'm loving my life and am so happy. My money is going on good stuff now and saving and it feels amazing. My sister is still struggling bad though and I'm continuing to support her but she's yet to stop gambling.
Take care all ?
I've recently been having bad dreams, that have really affected me. Spoke to an advisor tonight who asked if there's been any change in my medication, which yes there has been so that might explain the dreams. I'm going to chat with my gp next week.
Things have been tough this week but slowly getting better.
Hope everyone is OK.
Stace
That is funny, Stace - I've had some bad dreams recently, too.
I'm glad it's a sign you're doing better, that you go to chat less. It is good to notice the signs of resilience growing.
I'm noticing a growing pattern for you, of longer periods of sobriety, building on progress, always in the right direction. It's been happening a while now and lovely to see. Cheers!
Getting back into a downward spiral is so difficult to escape, see that you were strong enough to hold it at bay for over 3 months, now that is strong, take heart in your strengths don`t dwell on the blips.
Thanks freda and lids.
Last week was a bad week but I'm fighting hard again. Feeling positive. Made sure my blocks are super tight. And moving forward
Hit a low, struggling to cope, gambling, drinking and smoking w***. Not sure what step i take next. What a mess.
@stace you was doing so well, its a tough situation to be in when you think your out of the woods it drags u back into it, take it as a set back and improve on yourself, gambling urgues get the better of us when we are more vulnerable it did the same to me and now im in debt, take on day at a time life is full of the unexpected the more we resist the better it is for us in the long, ive realised gambling only fills the void give it time one day at a time
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