Just wanted to check in quickly.
With this week being such a roller coaster, I seem to have lost sight of the real problem I have. I am positive that I canovercome my addiction and am going to do everything I can to focus on defeating it.
Tomorrow will be a test being around football all day but confident I can fight any urge.
Day 10 and 11 - Complete
So yesterday felt like a massive turning point for me. I was worried if I would be tempted to bet having been out all day with friends who religiously bet when it comes to football on a Saturday. However, I did not feel any urge to gamble which I was not only surprised about but also very pleased. After the game in the clubhouse I overheard a member of the other team state he was up £1000 for the month. Rather than feel like "that could be me", I actually thought "is he really though? Or is this all just talk"... Safe to say he is probably in a similar situation that I was in but does not know how to say he is or does not realise the consequences.
Really happy with the progress so far, only just over a month to go to get to the New Year without placing a bet. I can do this!
Day 12 and 13 - Complete
Another couple of days ticked off. Really starting to feel more positive and believing in myself that I can get through this. I know it's still early days but I haven't felt this positive before. Counselling last night was helpful and we identified a few causes of what made me gamble such as the social aspect and also filling free time. Just keeping myself busy as much as I can!
Day 14 and 15 - Complete
So the last couple of days have made me realise that I'm not just going to be able to rebuild the trust and relationships so I need to keep working hard to fix them.
On the other hand I'm still feeling positive about not betting. I'm able to talk to friends about sport without thinking what The odds for the game or race would be. Onwards and upwards!
Days 16 and 17 - Complete
Still feeling strong. Just waiting for that urge to arrive to see how I can deal with it. A lot has been going on that's kept my mind off it but hopefully things can start to go back to normal now and that is where the real test will begin.
Day 18 and 19 - Complete
Keep up the good work benny, it is difficult, the urge will come... when it does, stay strong and fight it!
I just fought one today and came out on top!
Luke
Well done Luke! Good to see you're keeping strong.
Another couple of days ticked off now, getting closer to the New Year target. Things are great at the moment with my girlfriend too, we are looking at maybe going travelling again which is making me feel very positive about the future. Onwards and upwards.
Day 20 and 21 - Complete
Awesome update 🙂
Great work on your 1st 3 weeks & yes, you have a lot to prove to your loved ones but you are doing it & can continue to do it for you & for them by staying on your guard as you are - ODAAT
25 days ticked off now. One step closer to my new year. What pleased me most this weekend was not even realising that the races were on at Cheltenham until my girlfriend mentioned it. This us something I usually go to every year so to not even realise it was on has shown me that I'm getting mentally stronger.
Congratulations, your so much more richer since not gambling, not only in money but more important things too like life, feelings and true emotions. Keep it up.
Thanks Steve.
It really is good to see my savings start to build again. To actually be able to go out and enjoy my money and especially to be able to buy lovely Christmas presents.
Merry Christmas to you all!
32 days ticked off now!
So it's been a while since I last posted. Had a great couple of weeks spending time with my family and with my girlfriend and I've come into the new year feeling very positive and a lot happier now that the relationships are starting to rebuild.
I still feel slightly ashamed that I got myself into a bad situation but I strongly feel that I could never get like that again. Life's too precious and I've too much to lose in terms of my loved ones as without their support I wouldn't be feeling as positive as I do now.
Happy new year to you all and here's to a bright 2016!!
Lost count of how many days it has been since my last bet but that can only be a good thing right!!
Absolutely kicking myself that I am back on here without good news.
Things had been going well, hadn't felt tempted, then stupidly decided to place a bet. On my 2nd anniversary with my girlfriend of all of the days to pick!
i lost, no shock there, hated myself for doing it but for some unexplainable reason still couldn't find the decency to tell people, even when it was obvious that they knew that something wasn't right.
Why do I continuously feel the need to lie when I slip up? Why can't I just be open and honest? Any help would be hugely appreciated.
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