one more step along the road I go.....

Hi Cookie thanks for your kind words, yes social services were called by the Police when it happened they are quite happy with his mum just not her boyfriend obviously. It’s all been sorted he’s in Court April 9th I think. Worst thing is they’ve got texts that he sent his ex girlfriend saying he was going to ‘smash my grandsons face in’ I am so relieved obviously that he didn’t attack my grandson too, it makes my skin crawl to think of him being around the evil ****** I could say what I’d like to do to him. I’ve seriously thought about going to see him in prison and tell him what I’d do to him if he ever laid a finger on my grandson. The police are trying to prove he went there with intention to kill and all the texts he’s sent to other ppl too seem to back that up. I can’t help but feel angry that my grandson s mum bought someone like that into his life but that’s wrong of me. Anyway we will see what happens. So you have ptsd too Cookie? It’s not nice is it. Glad CBT has helped you. I’m having counselling. Hope it helps me. Well done on gf days bestest wishes Cookie x Lulu

Hi cookie 42 days gf not long till you reach the big 50 well done hun xx

Hi Cookie just dropping by to see how you are, like Bambi says nearly 50 days! That’s brill Cookie spk again soon bestest wishes Lulu x

hi .all good still gf.got to Thursday and realised I hadn't thought or had images in my head or dreamt of slotsthis week.received another card in the post from a new online ....ripped it up before I could read the name.they have only come by post since I self excluded.6 weeks ago I would have been angry/anxious/in turmoil....today nothing.i am not letting them havethepower. mymantra today is.i have the power to control my urges I have the power to change.i have the power to be happy. one more step along the road .....have a good week all and thank you for checking up on me.very busy at work and a few health issues plus carer to my gorgeous disabled adult daughter so not enough minutes in my day to get up to mischief .take care

Hi , thank you for writing on my diary, glad to see your days stacking up. Stay positive, it’s so worth it, when mr g sits on your shoulder saying go on one £10.00 won’t hurt knock him out, trust me the urges that wash over you get less and less. Do things to fill those free hours you have, such as colouring books, walking etc. Reading diaries on here inspired me no end. Whilst I’m still able to I shall support and watch out for you. Best wishes, stay strong x x

Hi cookie 47 days gf hope you are well hun and sticking to your guns . Glad yiu having less images of those nasty slots it does get easier im feeling better no urges recently but still keeping my guard up . Sorry your still gettingvit through the post its so wrong you should report them . Speak soon hun stay strong Bambi x

50 !!!gf
thank you anon and bambi ..xx
week off .have rediscovered a talent for portaitures in pens and family are all asking for pictures so keeping me busy.have got through the week without any urges ...keep fighting everyone xx

Happy Easter hun well done 51 days gf so glad you have found a new hobby you sound happy which is great 🙂 stay strong hun best wishes Bambi x

Hi cookie 59 days gf well done . Hope you are well hun and keeping busy 🙂 Bambi x