Online slots...

Great counselling session today...quickest hour of the week...arrived 1/2 early so sat and had an alfresco coffee in the sun....lovely watching the world go by....totally chilled.....ooh how lovely it is not to have those bloody slots spinning in my head....compliments from counsellor about my positivity and improvements so far...xx

Thanks deano....it sure is...the simple things...I remember you telling me when I was scared to tell hubby..." he may surprise you "....I poo pood that...lol....how right you were....so looking forward to our future now....thanks for your support...you are always here which is a comfort to so many x

Suns shinning today...grandaughters 2nd birthday party...be great to all be together....100% with the family...no rushing away to those vile slot machines....no urges or even thoughts about playing....have a good weekend peeps...anybody struggling...keep fighting...each day...you can do this xx

60 days...gamble free...blimey ..if I'm honest I can't really remember the blur of my online slot addiction....it all kind of seems like a dream...was i really spending all my time. ..money and energy on a dam slot machine....well yes i was ....so that makes it a nightmare not a dream....but what I'm trying to say is I just can't imagine returning to that part of my life when a f*****g slot machine ruled me...I know I can never ever hit that spin button again...and at this moment in my recovery i have no desire...urge..need..to ever do that again. ..all my strength will continued to be used on never letting those connectors in my brain to 're join and say.." go on..just one spin "...because we all know what the outcome will be....and I'm not prepared to let gambling take over my life again....hope your all ok out there xx

Well done loxxie, yep does seem like a dream at times:)) but it wasn't, and we must not forget the devisatation it caused, and is waiting to cause again, if we let even one tiny inch open:))

Keep strong and keep up n guard

Suzanne xxx

60 days lovely Loxxie! Brilliant, well done and here's to the next 60. You sound so happy and content now; so glad you told your husband and family - you knew when the time was right for you and it's worked out well. I hope your husband is keeping well.

Onwards and upwards my friend, happy to be walking this path with you xx

Hi suzanne...yes you are so right....I will never forget the devistsation...the hurt ..the Lies...etc....I don't want to ever forget it....it keeps me safe ...you are an inspiration to us all...thanks for your wise words x

Cheers Annie...yep...I'm so much happier...and kind of at peace if that makes sense...hubby doing well...and being so supportive...some times it takes a crisis to sort a lot of other things...so it's like we've all started again....brilliant....like you said we all have to do what's right for us within our recovery.....tis a pleasure to be sharing my journey with you ...keep smiling my gamble free friend xxx

Well done on 60 days 2 months on old money "I bet" you never thought that when them reels were spinning 60 days ago

You are right Suzanne is a great inspiration but don't underestimate what a inspiration you are. I get the feeling you love recovery and are embracing all it throws at us.

The support you offer around this community is fabulous keep doing what you are it's great to see.

KTF

Oooh...thanx ktf....very kind words....yes I'm loving recovery and all its giving me ....its lovely to have support from you guys who are further along with your recovery...I'm very consious of the nasty re lapses i read about on hete....it scares me shitless. ...but it keeps me on my toes....i think it helps so much to offer support to people further back the recovery journey....makes you think feelings through and reminds you of all the damage gamblings caused...take care xx

Hi loxxie....how brilliant you are for getting to 2 months gf. Like you said in one of your posts is how nice it feels to be able to support and give advice on people who are starting out on their journey, I am with you on that one. There was a new lady in chat the other night who has suffered and as I have never really set up a diary I referred her to yours and mercs to get some good tips and support. It's always great to share xx

Deanooooo....looking back now I can see all the reasons I didn't want to tell hubby....or so I thought...but recovery has to be transparent....and the difference with him knowing makes it so much easier to fight the addiction
...not just because of the practical things in place but because of his emotinal support....it's like i don't need to gamble...im not looking for something i havnt got....ive got it all here aready..what a waffle ! Lol
Tilley...thankyou...I am proud of my recovery...and if my diary helps anybody then that makes me feel great as well...which in turn...helps my recovery...

That's if people can understand my waffle lol....take care x

Hi loxxie hun sorry i missed your 60 days yesterday have done nothing but sleep after my 5 nights. Congratuations on 60 days gf hun you truly are an inspiration and a wondeful kind caring lady xxx wont be long until you hit that 100 day mark xxx

Thanks merc...I hope you've caught up on some sleep now love...happy 40th to you lovely merc..xxx

Another wonderfull gamble free day...bumped into old work pal from 30 odd years ago...enjoyed a coffee and catch up ....visited my mum...spent time with both daughters..
Xx