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Hi bloated,

Thanks for your kind message.

Well done on 11 days, every day we abstain and maintain we are winners.

Keep going and keep strong.

Suzanne xx

hi like the style! reminding yourself of all those things that can niggle us and contribute to us gambling. Will try the "list" myself as think its a good remedy to help. Good luck and well done on another day gamble free and a better life

Day 12

Today I am grateful

That I am back here for another entry

for getting out of bed

for my life that is slowly coming together

for the good things about myself, I take for granted

for the bad things I am dealing with

for the long list of things to do (that most wont get done!)

for not being too hard on myself

for it getting harder to come back (must be doing something right!)

Today, I will just be grateful!

Day 15

I realised how difficult it is to maintain a diary, here.

It takes real commitment and determination and discipline, almost like a marriage.

You can understand why people walk away or find other things too distract tjere attention, so a big pt on the back for all who are struggling on in their journeys.

Today I am grateful

for being back here

for finally deciding to start a new journey today

for the difficulties that lie ahead

for the rewards that will be encountered

for the life changing experiences that may happen

for the one's that I will miss

for the future that is ahead of me

for the past that is behind me

and for the present that I can do something about.

Today I am really grateful!!!

Day 17

Today I am grateful

for adding an entry

For realising how messed up my thinking is

For understanding that sometimes I see things through warped lenses

For the good people I have around me

For the unreliable friends

for not heeding to temptation

for all the things I should have done that I did not do

That tomorrow is another day?

I am just grateful!

Day 18

Today I am grateful

for all today has to offer me

For acknowledging, how much I actually resent/despise my wife

for knowing most of that resentment was caused by me

for being at peace with that knowledge

for the busy day I have ahead

for the life I have lived

and the life I am yet to live

for the ability to make profitable decisions and choices

for the realistion that there is little I can do about certain things today]

for being human and all the issues that come with that responsibility

for the few good people I have around me

Today I just want to be grateful!

Day 19

Today I am grateful

for waking up and realising I still have some very toxic feelings within

for being able to release them

for understanding that some people are just annoying

for the faithful people around me

for a new day and all it has to offer

for my kids

for my wife and all she does

for things working out right

for a good nights sleep

for the start of new things today

for a really lovely day ahead

Today I am grateful for acknowledging the bitterness within, the depressive aura around me. With awareness comes the ability to be free.

Have a great day, all,

I love the way you vent your feelings and with 19 days of winning already, you are doing just fine.

Have a good strong day.

Suzanne xxx

Day 20

Today I am grateful

for the cricket match I am off to play

For not allowing things to get me down

for another day I did not miss

For Suzanne's encouraging comment

for everything life continues to throw at me

for taking ownership of my actions, even whenthey are wrong!

I am actually just grateful for today!

Day 21

Today I am grateful

That I did not miss todays entry

for people who let you down, constantly

for the pain in the b*m that I sleep next to

for being a hypocrite

for who I am at this present time

for all my flaws

for learning not to be too hard on myself, and the trouble it will probably get me into

Today I will make the most of the day!

Day 25

Today I am grateful

for another day of potential

for the long list I have written (that I may get through, at least I wrote it)

for beginning to accept who I am and knowing I dont have to remain that person

for acknowledging I may be depressed and the freedom that has come from that realisation

for the little things that bring a smile to my face

Today I am going to be happy on purpose!!

for things that are beginning to change around me

for this site and a place to be honest with myself

Day 26

Today, I am grateful

for realising how much discipline I lack

For understandng there are no quick fixes

for realising there are deeper issues that I need to uncover and deal with

for the long journey ahead

for the grace to accept where and who I am, today

for all that I will achieve today

for the opportunity to be a blessing to others today

Today, I choose to be grateful.

Day 27

I am gratefu for a lot of things, but mainly today for accepting the fact that there are deeper issues causing me to run to my "friendly" addictions and why when I give u one addiction I find myself moving onto another one as a replacement.

So today I am grateful to be digging deeper into what really is the root cause of my actions.

Self esteem, abandonment, trust issues, wanting to be accepted and loved, whatever it is,

I am grateful for the strength to face these long held fears

and grateful that they will lose their hold on me once uncovered

grateful for reaching this point of enlightenment

and for what the future holds, good and bad

Today, I choose to accept me for me

Today I continue to be grateful.

As Mr Benson said, the greatest gift of all is to love and be loved in return.

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/johann-hari/the-real-cause-of-addicti_b_6506936.html

Worth a read for an alternative to abstinence.

Day 35

Today I am grateful to be putting an entry in here, been wanting to for a week but just seems like I have no time!

All it takes is 3 minutes???

Well I have today,

And I am grateful for that!