reborn on the 4th July

Got to be one of the quickest weeks ever just don't know where the days av gone ,not had a minute to myself so from a gambling perspective thats just how I like it

Had my quarterly review yesterday and that went really well hitting nearly all my accountabilitys and will do by year end , asked bout potential moves from next Jan but nothings been decided yet if I'm honest it doesn't look good , from a business point of view to stay would be the right thing to do the budget set for next year is so achievable and could earn a nice bonus from it all the last 3 years hard work is now in place and is set up for a fantastic year

From a personal point of view I need to leave to move on with my divorce comin through in a few weeks its the ideal opportunity for a fresh start , I'm a big believer in fate so what's meant to be will happen , all I know when Jan comes I am goin to dig so deep and find a way to move on I'm not giving in to anything

There's still a fair few weeks left of this year to deal with but I can't control them yet , all I can do is take it one day at a time enjoy that day and make the right decisions in them its working for me now and thats all that matters

Great to hear your last positive post Castle...your determination on a number of levels shines through. Make 2013 your year Castle!

Forwards not back

Jewels

Hi Castle,

Ur last post was gr8 2 read....2013 is gonna be ur yr!

U r a gr8 guy and u deserve nothing but happiness 🙂

Stay strong 🙂

Woke up this mornin with the sickest feeling inside me how do I tell my little girl Ella went out of x factor ! Thats my biggest worry of the day !

Much better than the sick feelings I used to wake up to but my daughter is my life and she is gonna be way upset

Bless her !

Hey Castle...

It sounds like you are in a stable place .almost eye oof the storm and making calm decisions based on what is best for your personal welfare ...

keeping it in day compartments and the rougue thoughts at bay.....not sure if you read this but will pass it on as it seems fitting:

Depression is about our head living in the past

Anxiety iis about our head living in the future

Happiness and stability is about our head iiving in the now...

R and D xx

Thankyou so much for the posts castle it really sounds like you are in such a good place and living in the now but also with that forward look of what you want in the future and its all possible gamble free.

Poor little princess I to was gutted about Ella I had her down as a potential winner along with James my Facebook was going mental last night with people saying it was a fix but I wonder how many of those people voted I didn't and I love James Arthur I will be voting next week for him.

I think Ella will do well anyway and defiantly be a star of the not to distant future, sometimes our dreams or our fate are just presented to us in different ways.

Hope little princess isn't to upset and a cuddle and kiss from dad always makes it better.

Take care

Blondie

Castle.

Fella I was emmensely humbled by your words on my diary,for that I thank you unconditionally.

for you fella look what a gamble free life delivers. An Amazing job your doing be very proud of that!!

As for that programme, my daughter at 16yrs old threw her toys out of the pram lol,me I explained I believe it is about were the folk hail from Maybe this years show could be the E factor or the L factor both I believe have a popular vote!! as for talent well the lass had it in shovels!!

Sometimes life seems cruel,for the wrong reasons!!

Duncs stepping forward never back

Keep up the good work!!

Daughter took the news surprisingly well and has not fell out with the x factor think she just enjoys everything bout it esp the xtra factor makes her laugh and there's nothing makes me more happy than seeing her laugh at 8 pie shouldn't av a worry in the world and rightly so , little does she know she continues to be my rock of strength the one and only person I can truly rely on to be always there for me and in return I would give her anything

Ps she also knows this and has me wrapped round her little finger lol , wouldn't want her any other way !

Yo,

Hi mate you know I think it is not really bout the x but the interaction you to have about it .

Dad and daughter special time . Same with me and Sam .

What's is important is that you keep having those , with boys it's the footy with girls it the x or BGT .

Now you tape the the Xrta Factor , she gets more quality time , to have fun with her dad , on her level .

So you know mate keep doing what ya doing , cause you are making MG happy and yourself at the same time .

Hugs to you both , whose her fav now ?

Shiny fairy needs to know who to cheer on the finial .

Shiny xxxxxxx

Evening mate,

Good to hear from you it's been a while.

Its not easy this journey mate lots of ups and downs and the best thing is to learn from the down and thrive of the ups!!

I don't tend to post much I try to read as much as I can but find chat alot of help, it only works of the laptop though and again I hardly use this now (not gambling)

Keep at it mate your doing brilliant!!

Best regards Shaun

Hello Mate,

Just a drive by (not an American Style) to say it was really uplifting for me to see you post in the Gamcare Live thread. I would really appreciate the chance to meet you and get you a beer, been a constant support for me from my first day on this site.

The good news is there is a fair bit of interest, and Gamcare are looking into whether there is anyway they could support the event. Bad news for me is if they could support then I would actually have to arrange it lol!

In all seriousness if the interest is there I will make it happen so that beer is looking more likely now.

I have noticed some similarities between some of your recent posts and those of our Shiny friend, not bad company to keep in my opinion! Great to see you finding the positives so often now, I think balance is the key and I know you feel like you are pretty much there now. I for one couldn't be happier for you!

Flagg

Its took a while but for the 1st time I feel really balanced in my recovery and this site , at 1st I was on it all the time then the burn out came leaving me with in a whisker of jacking it all in , next came the days with so much inspiration followed by days with nothin to say but still feeling the need to come on , now though I can really take it or leave it even with loggin on daily to read a few diaries to keep me focussed , why and how I'm not really sure I know it really helped seeing shiny take that step back and how well it worked for her and possibly that my life is taking the strides forward I'm wanting to

Financially I'm better off now even though not really telling with xmas on the way but the money situation is a huge relief , the divorce is through soon and that is another big step , just work and my friend that will be left although work will always be fine it will just leave my friend as I always new it would the one thing I always gave into which always reminds me of giving in to gambling , I will av the strength though now to deal with this and when the time is right I will

For today though I will enjoy and thats all I can do

Just popping by to say Hi to my king!

Slipped but holding my head high!

I will beat this!

Sue xxx

its great you are focussed castle and all your hard work is keeping you on the middle lane...

You have to tools and also next year i think you will make lots of different choices in your life as you have firm foundation to work from..

hugs

R and D xx

Work is taking so much of my time up , just so busy which is fantastic had a fantastic week sales wise which lead to hitting all my other key performance indicators , this will keep the bosses of my back a bit but like gambling ur only as good as ur last day.week , handling the stress is important for me as that I know can leave me open to want to gamble to block it out , its hard to switch off as on store hi open 7-10 Mon to sat and 10-4 Sundays so whilst its ever open its difficult to fully relax , on Friday when I was off had a phone call at 6 in mornin as someone had not opened up so had to start ringing round fortunately they had just overlayed , yesterday I worked 6 while 3 at 5 got a phone call duty manager was ill and had to go to hospital and they had phone ond had everyone up and no one could do it , last night it was my dads birthday and me and my daughter were goin out for a meal with him and rest of family so thought I was goin to av to cancel my only hope was a supervisor that was on a week off so I phoned her and explained the situation and thankfully she agreed to work the night , I always believe in treating people right and look after them so in return they wil do the same for me and on this occasion thankfully it worked , out of all this I'm more pleased that I don't let situations like this tip me and return to those dark days