Sick and tired of being sick and tired.

Hi folks and thanks for your posts and support it means a lot to me.

Hope to post next week on all your diaries. Im just getting ready to leave work then heading out for dinner with other half , getting kids minded , so cant wait!

Have a good wk end folks!

Enjoy Gav,

You deserve it.

Suzanne xxx

Thanks for popping by Gav, lovely to see you staying SAS,

Keep strong and stick with recovery, :))))

Suzanne xx

398 days gamble free, have however had some thoughts / dreams re gambling but havent acted on them. From being bombarded from online sites which i've previously stated that i've severe issues with gambling, sending me more and more emails which TBH doesnt overly bother me as i just delete/block them straight away. But it does annoy me how ruthless these companies are.

I found myself having a few beers on saturday and casually started watching some racing on ch4 just a few races nothing obbessive or anything, also found myself wondering what the odd's were of certain football/rugby games over the weekend.

No plans whatsover of gambling but these are dangerous dangerous things to do so i wanted to vent my feelings down here today and knock this behaviour on the head.

Just goes to show this is a life long battle. I dreamt last night that i had slipped up and i was devastated , wondering whether to come on here to explain myself. Thank goodness it was just a dream

What i do realise is that LIFE is a million times better without gambling, and i now know that i cannot dabble in it at all, as not matter if i won or lost, it would set me down that obsessive destructive path again, somewhere i never want to go ever again.

Hope everyone else keeping ok will try and post more during week.

Thanks for dropping by Gav,

WOW look at you on 400 days today, proud of you my friend,

Stay strong and keep your guard tightly up,

Suzanne xxx

Hi gav,

been a while but I was delighted when I logged on and seen your doing so well.

Hope life is treating you and your family well. I have experienced one or two of those dreams and they are not please tell but I found them good for building the resolve of never wanting that gut wrenching feeling of losing ALL my money on a spinning wheel.

Best wishes gav. Your friend John

Hi Gav, so much for my patience, I waited to reply & then forgot but hey welcome to your 5th century 🙂 Boo to those nightmares, I haven't had them for a while, thank goodness!

Isn't it amazing what a difference a year can make to our lives? £30 for a pair of jeans, bring it on eh 😉

420 days and thanks for the support guys, no temptations recently getting quite a bit of work done round the house and had a fab last week end out with mates. Just checking in to say all good at present,

Hi you, thanx for dropping by & great to see your update 🙂

I'm keeping safe & sound, currently reaping the rewards of life without Mr Gamble bleeding me dry & boy, it sure feels good, maybe even normal & I'll take my invisible hat off to that 🙂

Here's to a lifetime of winning - ODAAT

w*f indeed (calm has been restored) & you're right, I'm not alone, I've never had so many friends 🙂

Hope everyone in your household is looking forward to Christmas (woohoo eating & drinking without guilt...How is your food/alcohol intake these days?) & it's not quite so stressful this year (no Ch4 racing for you methinks, no point piling on pressure when it's not needed)...High 5 to the wee man who has been making me smile for 10 months now & woofs to doggie 🙂

And with less than a week to go, a perfectly acceptable time to add a bit fat MERRY CHRISTMAS to all the above 🙂

Hi Odaat!! Thanks for keeping an eye on me!

470 days free from the madness! days stocking up!

Wishing eveyone a merry christmas, and prosperous new year, thanks for all your help over the years.

Things going pretty good, currently , but still drinking too much, which is my next life challenge, that and to get fit and lose a lot of weight.

Looking forward to a few days off and spend time with my kids, todays my last day of work.

Gamble free dreams thankfully except for one a few nights ago which was bizarre ! My 4 yr old was playing online slots, i was across the room from him telling him no, but as i got closer he got a big win and won thousands and then i let him play suddenly he upped the stakes and started playing 250 or something a spin then the panic set in i told him to stop but by then he was down to hundreds, i then woke up!

thankfully a dream, but in reality that happened to me in my past, a place i never want to visit again!

take care all, peace!!!!

Have a lovely Xmas Gav and an even better new year:))

Suzanne xxx

HAPPY NEW YEAR Gav 🙂

Here's to hoping that little one never touches an online gambling site! But yep, another painful reminder of why we cannot go back!

Hope the whole family had an awesome Christmas & the four legged ones got more than just a sniff of Christmas dinner 😉

Roll on that detox/exercise regime...I don't drink & I never really had a problem with my weight but I found a big roll of fat laying on the settee & insisted the NM get in the scales the other day only to find he's the same but I've put on another half a stone in an incredibly short period of time :-0

Happy new year everyone and thanks for the messages of support!

496 days gamble free which is great. Had a pretty good Xmas with famillly etc kids had a ball! Dog was also treated.

HOWEVER lots of things to look at, my drinking is a huge issue, i need to address it straight away, as i drink far too often and far too much! Wk end benders all over the place leaving me feeling like **** in work now and can barely keep my eyes open.

I prob should go the whole hog and give it up completely but im going to try and reduce it as going cold turkey would be too hard, id prob end up gambling again.

Off the f**s too, bought one of them vape e things but the lost the dam thing over the end, plus when out walking the dog on saturday i dropped my iphone and smashed the screen = not good.

Anyway need to keep my chin up, even when things havent be going great i've still stayed away from Gambling, my biggest enemy.