Yer I agree with you, you do fell like your getting spied on people waiting to jump on after you and clean up! Keep think of I would prob feel now it is if went in to how I actually feel and it's so worth it to have made the right choice
2nd close encounter of the day just avoided prob hardest one I've had upto now, sometime this is hard this
As someone once said, no one said it was going to be easy lol.
It's far from easy, because the mind is still telling you it's ok, just to do a couple of pounds here and there.
You need to start to adapt to what your mind is telling you and the situations you are finding yourself in.
You need to start to think, when are the urges coming and how you are going to deal with them. For starters the town arcade, you shouldn't be carrying cards and lots of money with you, you should be carrying what you need and that is it.
So you go to town, without the cards/money, you see something you want, either order online or if only in shop, then go back, but beforehand take the money out you only need, straight to the shop and buy immediately.
Keep the guards up, put in new guards if need be and make sure you continue to visit and post here and often as you want.
Never posted yesterday with being so busy with work but not feel off the wagon still going strong still hard but I'm riding it out, just wanna say big thank you too 2 amazing people I've found on here tho Swordfish and ADT been such a support to me it's helped me so much on and off this forum, when I joined this site near 2 weeks ago never thought I'd find great people like I have so thankyou!
Well another busy day today so off I pop just rolling with life as you do!
Have a great weekend all!
Well Hit my 2 weeks tomorrow got to say it's been hard never imagined it would be this hard TBH but here I am! everyday that goes by makes me that little bit stronger and more determined, still get urges but what I've learnt this week is you'll aways get them it's how to control them.
Starting to see so many benifits now of not gambling looking back I don't know how I did it, feel like I've woke up to the world!
Never thought this time 2 weeks ago I would be here where I am now, feel proud and very positive!
The half a month mark, no Monday morning blues for you this week.
Soon be a whole month free.
2 weeks done!
Hard day today tho had to fight myself to not give in earlier, funny really some days your so strong and others your on the brink of failure 🙁
Congrats, you made it.
The urge to gamble can appear at any time, so that's why it's important to not let your guard down.
Gradually the urges become less often, but they still occur even years down the line.
Getting to milestones such as a week or month, can make them appear more often because your mind is relaxed and telling you surely it's ok, just to have a little gamble. But we know a little gamble just isn't going to satisfy a compulsive gambler.
Keep strong and now push ahead to that 3 week milestone.
Day 16
Well today been a hard one sometimes I just feel like I'm fighting the impossible and doubt if I can do this, days like this I feel so close to giving up
Stay strong Rylex. I've been in an identical position.......just thought 'I can't do this...!!' but find a way to hang in, you wont regret it. Every day you abstain is another day in which you've been a genuine winner.
Peace and Love.
Keep strong, you're nearly at 3 weeks, just a little bit more and it'll be whole month gamble free.
Think of how much you would have spent had you not given up nearly 3 weeks ago. Again look at your blocks in place and up or change them if necessary.
Well not posted here for a bit but as today marks my 3 full weeks thought I will just drop a quick update and say yes I am happy to reach 3 weeks completely Gamble Free! As it been hard yes very and it still is, had a hard week with work this week stress defiantly effects me in a big way since I've stopped don't really know how I feel today some days you feel like it's getting easier then bam the next day is hard, have lot of other stuff going on in my life at the min tho so surpose that's not helping been one of them weeks this week where you feel everything is out to test you, I have counciling tomorrow which I am looking froward too it's my first face to face feel like I need it to be honest, but anyway 3 weeks never thought I'd get here ever, new record for me and yer I'm happy about that if nothing else!
That's excellent news.
You'll have some great news to take to your councilling session as well and before you know it, it'll be a whole gamble free.
Don't post on here as much anymore don't know why really as this place Was what made me start this all, think being so busy last few weeks just not had as much time, going to start coming on daily again because since I haven't I feel like I've crashed a bit, I've not slipped off I'm still completely gamble free but just about! for days now I've felt so down and low maybe I'm missing the positivity of this as it's what really helped me at the very start, think I'm getting sick also that's not helping but this low mood I've been in since the weekend I just can't seem to shake it off feel like I'll be like this forever can't see a way out I'm drained of energy all the time only Time I'm happy is at bed time just don't know what to do, strange thing is last week I felt amazing like everything was turning a corner then all of a sudden out the blue this crash and into a huge dower, just want to be me again not this person inside that feels dead, sorry to sound so depressing everyone keeps telling me it will pass hard to think that when you feel like this, I thought after 3 weeks I was over the hard part but this feels harder than the first week
Think for me my gambling was a huge cover to cover up parts of my life I didn't want to think about and escape from it now there is no cover I'm forced to think and deal with them, very hard, I know gambling is not my friend tho even tho That part of your brain sometimes tried to make you think it is, never done somthing so hard in my life.
Sorry if I've depressed anyone with this post it is very doom and gloom in my mind at the minute hoping it passes soon.
Whatever else is happening in life, you know that gambling isn't the answer. It may seem silly, but you're possibly missing gamble, the thrill and excitement of it. But you need to tell yourself, that moment of thrill and excitement, comes at a massive cost. If you are, you need to fill that void in whatever ways you can.
If you are feeling constantly down, then perhaps consider going to see a doctor about your feelings, maybe they can prescribe something. You could very well end up seeing a nurse, which I find is generally less daunting than seeing a doctor.
It's important to get feelings out in the open and so many diaries on here, contain people's thoughts and moods on a daily basis and contain far more than their attempt to become gamble free.
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