Steady as she goes!

Case in point !

It's official! My g/f says that I have been a right grumpy sod today!

But, it's got absolutely nothing to do with gambling! So therefore, proof once again, if needed, that everyone has "off" days even when they are not CG's.

Actually, I thought I was ok - but apparently not!

I'm just a bit wound up with work at the moment as I seem to have too much to do and it's a little out of control right now. But I'm sure that I will get through it - eventually!

This has been a non-political outburst from Weldy! Goodnight.

Hi Weldy

Thanks for your post on my diary, yes it feels good that I 'chose' not to gamble yesterday.

I started reading through your diary when I first came on here, you mentioning your band made me realise that I haven't really listened to music for ages, I used to go to gigs too. Something I really want to get back in to.

Just saw your last post about 'off' days, I've been thinking about the fact that I may have off days at anytime, but then you know what I had so many off days when I didn't gamble! So if I do have one then I need to think about what's making me feel low, rather than assuming it's all down to not being able to gamble.

Especially when I can see that when I gamble, everyday is an off day, the anxiety, self-loathing the list could go on for ages!

Also, the fact that your kids noticed a difference in your behaviour is brilliant!

Hope things with work calm down, I'm off to work now

Hope you have a good day

K

Hi Weldy,

You are grumpy and I'm always in trouble!

You've done fantastic Weldy on your recovery and you also give super support.

Thank You

Jas x

Hi Weldy,

Here's to non-political outbursts! I like the sound of that. And like you say.. we all have OFF days whether an addiction lurks in the shadows or not. All the best in recovery.. S.A 🙂

Hi Kevin you know what sometimes its a pleasure to be grumpy!!! sometimes I have sat there and really really do not want to be full of the joys of spring. And as you say its nice to know that its just us being human and nothing to do with being a CG.

Do hope though you wake up full of sunshine tomoro as being grumpy is really hard work!! Luv Min

i am true i have a problem with gambleing please give me advise how you gave it thanks for your help

Had fun today, a day off work playing golf and then out for a few beers tonight. Played with a sports personality from the past and he was a really cool down to earth guy. Beats the old cr** that I used to be up to.

Been thinking of taking on staff, to ease the work burden and go forward with the business, so made a job offer to someone today aswell.

Got two gigs this weekend on saturday & Sunday, then no more gigs for 6 weeks.

Then, later in the week I am going away for 4 days for a short break, so won't be around for a while.

Weldy

thanks for advise i am so happy happy that i found this site people are so good. wish i had found this site while back ago l have lost thousands like most people, i am a indian born here when you read the stories there is a hell of lot people gambling why do we do it lose money. Thats why bookies are rich! the way l look at it now whats gone as gone its been 3 days bet free which the bookies wont get of me because i get paid next week

Hi Weldy

Just dropping in to say hello. I guess you are on your short break at the moment so hope you are having a great time. I'll catch up with you again when you are back.

All the best mate

LA

Hi all,

Back from a really good break in Herefordshire, just a quiet, relaxing time away from the workplace. Mobile phone didn't even work in the village at all which was a real bonus!

Will catch up with diaries in next day or so, but hope you are all still keeping strong and away from your demons. Cheers all.

Weldy

I am finding it more difficult to post, the further I get from my last bet. I know that this is probably a good thing, and yet, it feels as if I have lost something from this forum. In the short time since i joined the forum, some 14 weeks ago, many new people have passed through. Some stay for a short while, some longer and a few are still here. But it really hurts inside when someone that you felt was progressing well along with you disappears off the radar.

Not sure what this is all about......

Guess it's just one of those things.

I am sure of one thing though, my life is 1000% better than it was before. We all must follow our own paths, we listen to what our hearts tell us to listen to. When we are ready, we will chose the path that leads us away from gambling, whatever that may be.

I wish everyone can find the path, one day at a time.

Weldy

Enjoyed watching a grand prix this afternoon without having money on it, the first one I have properly been able to watch this season. Fingers crossed for Felipe though, that was a nasty accident yesterday.

Gonna watch the Moto GP aswell then get on with some work as the pressure will soon be on again after my short break.

Weldy

Hi Weldy,

I'm still lurking on here quite a lot. No gambling since 23.4.09 but I recognise I'm still a weakling. I thought your posting had reduced and I was so happy as I felt you had really found contentment in your life.

Those that come and go on here I have sort of got used to now. It's life maybe? I'm in it for the long haul now...I can never go back....just need to ride the waves of recovery eh?

You, my gambling recovery buddy, have done so well...I think you know that don't you? Keep safe and strong Weldy...Jas xx

"A Fool at forty is a fool indeed" - an old english proverb that I have come across a few times recently. 1551 - Edgeworth.

I had reached a stage in my life where this was really starting to hurt - I was forty last year and after 20 years of gambling had nothing at all to show for my efforts - yet I have always worked really hard.

I always took my responsibilities seriously, and paid for my two kids and ex-wife etc. and always made sure the bills were paid. But pretty much any other earnings went on gambling, and it was no way to live. Started to worry about my future later in life when earning money would not be as easy - recession, health etc.

So at forty years of age - I have nothing else to show for my efforts and something had to change.

I will be 41 soon, some 14 weeks ago I wrote on this forum that I had finally "had enough". And it seems that I really did mean it and for that I am proud and pleased with myself. things have improved beyond my expectations in that time.

From my experiences of gambling and my understanding of what I read on this forum, each and every CG has to want to stop and have their own reasons for wanting to stop.

Life is about learning, and knowing what we want from it and having the courage to go out and make the changes when needed to get from it what we ultimately want - a happy life.

Gambling cannot provide this - it just sucks the life from us - and suffocates any aspirations and enthusiasm for life we could have. It damages everything and everyone around us.

Weldy

Hi Weldy

Just wanted to thank you for taking the time to post on my diary, your last post has certainly hit a nerve with me.

Take care ands