Steady as she goes!

Morning all, ty for your posts, some much happier folk today than this time last week, think we all know why.

Taking things easy today, bit of gardening and BBQ preparations and definately no gambling.

Feel calm and in a good place so not thinking about wrecking the tranquility.

Have a good weekend.

Weldy

Glad your in a calm mode today my friend.

Ive just had a nice lunch with friends and when I finish here will be off out on my bike and then the gym. No intention of looking at racing today or tomorrow. No doubt I will hear whats won the two big races but I just dont care anymore.

Have a lovely gardening session!

Eyes X

Well, had a nice day at home with the BBQ. I did watch the guineas, but obviously no bet and then switched off straight after the race.

Was fine and then had a good evening with my friends Carl and Carling!

12 days completed. Thinking about dropping the day count thing, maybe just do it occasionally at milestones.

Weldy

Hi Weld and thank you so much for your support on my diary. I have self excluded from every u k bingo site I ever registered with. Would never go on a foreign one as never trusted sites so at least safe there. Still cant sleep but know I must or will feel even more cr** tomoro.

Its bank holiday weekend and I am not working and I would normally have loved to go to car booties but no money so have decieded to do one instead. Hope to raise a bit of cash.

Glad you had a good day with the BBQ and hope the Carl friends didnt give you a headache!

Heres raising a glass to your 12 days. Remember to raise one for me when I get to 12 days as I am feeling better than earlier and realise this has to stop with the gambling. I will do this. Min x

Morning Weldy,

Funny that, I thought about dropping the days counting bit but I was still doing it in my head so thought I may as well record it in my diary. What is a milestone is when you get to your first day and completely forget about gambling and what day you are on. Yesterday was that first day for me and it was day 60.

I logged on this morning (Sunday) and realised my last posts were on Friday, I just did not count a day yesterday and it was a Saturday of all days.

Hope and expect you are still keeping strong.

Hi all,

Sunday afternoon and all going well, having a very relaxed weekend. Gonna do some work this afternoon & evening. Weldy

Evening Weld, dont work too hard. It is a holiday weekend and made for chilling. Min x

Just a quick hello Weld and to let you know I'm still reading and supporting you. Hope you are making the most of your weekend and put your feet up x

Feeling slightly disorientated with the forum tonight. Firstly, had a lot of trouble getting on the forum today (site was seemingly down for quite a while?).

Secondly, there are diaries that have abruptly ended, new ones started and others who unfortunately have had a slip.

This has slightly unsettled me as the forum for me was very settled and aiding my recovery.

I am still feeling strong in myself and have no desire to gamble. Though today I did get one urge to bet and found myself planning in my sub-conscious how i could have a bet and justify it to myself. But my clear mind kicked in and put the thought back where it belonged (i.e. gone!) It was a good reminder for me as to how the demons can catch you unawares.

All in all, I guess I was believing that the forum is a "guaranteed cure" if you use it when in fact I can see that it is just an aid, a support. It cannot "cure" anyone alone. And it won't suit everyone. The fact is, the real hard work is done from within us, away from here, in our hearts, in our minds, and in our souls!!!

Weldy

Hi Weldy,

I too have read some of things that may have got you disorientated and unsettled. It happens from time to time. But its at times like that that I try to concentrate on myself and let any unpleasantness of the forums pass on by.

Often I think its "addiction talking" and by this i mean the underlying character flaws that may, in part, have led to compulsive gambling in the first place. I see my own recovery in trying to manage my emotions in different ways. Ive been a bit depressed today.. in the past that would have led me to gambling. Likewise anger for me can be a trigger to gamble. NOT anymore. All the best to you and your on-going recovery.. S.A 🙂

Hi SA,

Thanks for the words. I too had already decided to concentrate on my own diary, and one or two others that I have been involved in. Agree that there has been a degree of "addiction talking" on the forum and know how to take these and move on.

Good luck with your own recovery.

Weldy

Working today, so will be keeping focused and away from any possible temptation. Weldy

Poor you having to work on a Bank Holiday- I hope they are paying you well. But its good you have something to distract you.

I know how tough this is for me and I've been gambling for 8 years so I can't imagine what it is like for you to change the life you have gotten used to after 20 years. I think you are doing fantastically well and your strength is inspirational x

Hello,

I am Jasmine's husband. There were two people on here in particular who Jassy was inspired by. I know you are one of them and I would like to say thank you.

I wish you all the best and once again thank you.

P

Hi Pierre,

Thank you for those words. I really hope that you and Jas can get through this and that you can find some happiness without gambling in your lives. All the best. Weldy