Gazza,
Fabulous work. 26 days free from gambling is magnificent. Enjoy each day as it comes.
Tomso.
Hi Gazza,
Can see your doing well, great to read about people doing well and thanks for your posts on my diary it means a lot.
I like you am looking forward to spending quality time with my family this weekend and on Monday i will be on day 5 with out a shadow of doubt.
Have a great BET FREE weekend
Steve
gazza.
Good to see your humour diving out the page fella, nothing beats a post that makes a man smile evenmore so after so long without many.
have a good weekend fella BET FREE
duncs stepping forward never back.
Evening Gents.
Many thanks for your kind words of encouragement.
Hope we all have a prductive bet free weekend
gazza
Day 27
Nice family day spent doing normal things.
Hope everybody is well
gazza
Missed day 28 yesterday.
Day 29
Well that is a month since i started my recovery diary.
Very much aware that there is a long way to go,especially sorting out the financial fall-out.
I will stay strong and move on with a wee bit more confidence and a whole lot of determination.
gazza.
I will today share with you something a fellow said at a recent ga meeting i attended."For each day you dont bet you actually give yourself a 100% pay rise"
enough said fella,heres to another gamble free week!!!
duncs stepping forward.
Each day that you don't gamble and have a normal day WILL give you that extra bit of confidence.
It's a long trek but together, we will all get there!
GT
Ducan and GT
Many thanks for your kind words of support.
Happy that a month has passed but feeling anxious,not about gambling but about the financial side of things-can't get them out of my head.
Will be attending a GA meeting on Thursday so hopefully i'll take strength from that.
Day 30
Hopefully a productive day lies ahead.
Feeling a little insecure at the moment, which is silly, because i have so much love and affection around me.
Think i need to accept that i'll be carrying around the feeling of guilt for a long time .
I know one thing though,i won't be gambling!
Hope everybody has a good day
Day 31
Feeling more positive today.
Hopefully this will stay with me through the day.
I know that i won't waste money on gambling.
Hope everybody has a good day
gazza.
Fella you said it yourself "waste my money"
that will do it,one day at a time fella and just look back to the start of your diaries and show yourself how far you have come.
duncs stepping forward never back.
Hi Gazza, glad to see your on day 31, keep up the great work. There seems to be a lot of positiviety on here today which is good for us all.
Steve
Day 32
Duncs and tt- thanks for your posts.
Had a chat about my problem with my good lady yesterday.
This seemed to help.
She is very supportive and is trying to understand my compulsive behaviour.
This has been a great help and has made me more positive in my thoughts.
Hope we all have a good day
Hi Gazza,
I hope that you are okay. I've just been reading your diary and can relate to a lot of what you say. I am a dad with one baby and another on the way. I have decided not to tell my wife because of the pregnancy. Before I gave up this time she guessed that I had been gambling again. I admitted it. She was upset but glad that I had been honest with her. If only that was true. I said that I had lost £150 when in reality it was thousands. I just couldn't bring myself to tell her the truth. I was really worried that she was going to ask to see my bank statements but fortunately she didn't. I have only ever gambled with my own money rather than the joint account so I guess at least this is something.
I just hate the fact that gambling can turn an honest person into such a deceitful person. I don't recognise myself sometimes. I find myself checking if the post ha been and hiding my credit card statements, not because the latest ones will show any gambling transactions but the debt i have accrued.
As for the guilt well it is often overwhelming. We will talk about finances and deep down I cannot get away from this secret debt. It tears me up but I know I have caused it so I have to deal with it.
I am determined to be the husband and dad I was before again before gambling took it's horrible grip on me.
Sorry for my ramblings!
I hope that you are well.
Best wishes
Dave
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