It’s been 15 days since I’ve last gambled and the urge of chasing today is overwhelming. I hate to admit this but I miss sitting at a casino table with chips in my hands. I feel awful for feeling like this and I’m scared that I will relapse. My mind is consumed of finding a way to get funds together to chase. I have been meaning to bar myself from the casino for over a week but have not manage to master the will to do so as I’m so worried about going and changing my mind. My worst fear is entering a casino right now and being tempted to play. Will this urge ever stop?
Hi probably not but may subside to not 24/7. Not self excluding keeps the door open. Put your blocks in place they are important to recovery.
I gambled on the 10th June which I know I was foolish and irresponsible of me.
The urge was overwhelming and I convinced myself I was in control and lost over £2k chasing at the casino table.
However, I haven't given up hope and will keep trying. 5 days of GF and need to remind myself to take it one day at a time!
Thanks for your support on my diary, 3CP.
I’m sorry to hear of your relapse the other night. But well done for getting to nearly a week gamble free. You’re right, it is all about taking this one day at a time. Especially in the early stages.
I’ve tried to keep myself really busy but I’ve also treated myself to little things here and there that I otherwise wouldn’t have amidst all my gambling.
Good luck, 3CP.
Dan
We are available 24 hours a day, every day of the year. You can also contact us for free on 0808 80 20 133. If you would like to find out more about the service before you start, including information on confidentiality, please click below. Call recordings and chat transcripts are saved for 28 days for quality assurance.
