Hi everybody
Never wrote a diary in my life.
Never read a diary in my life.
Never ever thought I'd be writing my diary but I thought I'd give it a try.
Well I stopped gambling on Friday there and not gambled since.
I've not had money to gamble but the very thought of it annoys me so I know I'm on the right track.
I've had a good couple of days since because I've had a clear conscious and because everything is out in the open about my addiction.
But today I feel really down, tired and I must admit a little depressed. I still don't feel the urge to gamble so that's something.
I think having no money at all recently and having a few family situations (that are nothing to do with gambling) are making me feel this way but I'm determined not to let it get me down.
I think I might make an appointment with my doctor and see what he thinks.
Anyway, I'll be sharing good and bad days on here and hopefully by me writing this, others can relate and we can help each other.
Cheers.
Hi John & welcome to GC! Best place to be to get loads of advice, support & encouragement for your journey to better life.. there is GA also if you feel you're ready to talk to like minded people in 3D.
Glad to see such a determination in you and I'm sure you are really committed to the change.
Few basic pieces of advice: get blocks in..self exclusions, antigambling software (K9 is free), don't carry cash with you or hand yoir finances for someone you trust...don't rush or expect quick changes..everything will settle down in time. GC also offers free counselling sessions if you would be interested.
All in all, stay close to this site, keep posting & reading and taking it one day at a time. It will get better if you really want it to get better ☺
Take care and all the best!
Sandra
Thanks Sandra.
I've had a few conversations on here and straight away you feel part of a group, a group that is all pulling in the right direction.
I've read a good bit on here aswell and realise that I'm not alone. Even though I've got wonderful family & friends roundabout me they don't truly understand the compulsive gambler in me because they've never been gripped like we all have.
I'll keep close to the forum.
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