Keep going Malc . Just look to have a GF April . One step at a time . Glad your sounding postive .
All the best
Hi Malc
Keep at it. A nice sense of not having to feel ashamed or concern looking at your accounts. Imagine that for the rest of your life?
Aye all good, like I say a bit to go yet but looking lots better than the end of 2016.
Happy days
Stay Strong Stay G/f
Malc
60 days, nice work Malc
60 days 2 months, no urges at all lately which is really good, just need to keep it going day by day.
Thanks again
Stay Strong Stay G/f
Malc
That is big big progress, have no doubt in that. Big pat on the back.
Keep going mate.
Day 75 is next on my radar so on and so fourth.
Busy day today, grass cutting season is here again that means I will be outside everynight until sun set exciting times ahead.
Stay Strong Stay G/f
Malc
Hi Malkie.
Lovely to read that you are still doing so well. It's good I think, to set ourselves little mini goals, I do the same. I think some people on here, can be so desperate and impatient, about trying to put everything right, in a short space of time. This I feel, can often set us up to fail.
Look forward to seeing you reach your next milestone.
Take care.
Our Lady
Thanks for the update Our Lady, Just try to keep my head down and take it day by day I am getting there, I have a few things that I check every morning internet banking and monthly check my credit report, I also have a sticky note thing on my computer that has the days G/f which I up date every morning.
Don't get me wrong there have been a couple of time where I could have easly of gambled but all the block are in place so there is no chance to be honest I could not care less about gambling now WE CAN't WIN BECASUE WE CAN'T STOP I just keep reminding myself of that.
Anyway llunch time is here lest see what there is today for food.
Thanks again
Stay Strong Stay G/f
Malc
This afternoon went and took my mum for lunch, and told her what has been happening all about gambling how I could not win because I could not stop. That in my life it is all or nothing 0 or Max nothing in between. I never told her about the amount of debt as she does not need to know that, she knows that I have stopped and have self excluded from all places that I could bet. She did ask about online I said that was not my thing so no problem. I used to have a serious problem with a white powder that came from south america for about 10 years and she knew all about that and I stopped about a £600 per week problem. I explained that gambling was a silent addiction other people could not see it but the people closest could feel it even if they did not know what it was they could still feel it.
I never told my dad he would not understand as he has been an funtioning alcoholic for about 40 years and as always hidden behind the drink. Anyway that is another matter.
Stay Strong Stay G/f
Malc
Malc,
Just opening up to your Mum is big progress. The more people that know the more people there are to let down if you relapse but also the more people to keep an eye on you. Your beating this mate.
Keep going
Matt
Aye she knows, I sat and talked to her for ages about my life what happened my Dad his drinking why she never walked away 40 years ago don't get me wrong he is not horrible all the time but sometimes she is scared and I am the only one that stands up to him. As I said to my mum there is nothing we can do about the past that has happened but the furture we can make better and manage the problem.
Anyway I have been letting people down all my life it was almost expected, not any more I just live a normal life doing normal things no drugs no gambling and most of all no more hiding face things full on after all we are what we are nobody if perfect and nobody opinion is right just opinions.
Anyway Friday is here almost lunch time and I need to get my finger out and try and do something.
Stay Strong Stay G/f
Malc
Morning folks,
Another weekend done day ~66 and more importantly only a 4 day week this week and off all of next week what a boost. Busy busy weekend went to my friends farm on Saturday saw sheep feed the lambs cows and calf's. the little en got to go in the tractor and got a shot on the motor bike, with my pal driving. While at the farm there was another couple there and the lady spoke about the casino and the national all in one sentance. I would have never of noticed before but she said she loved to go to the casino on a night out and then was DYING to place a bet on the national and would be gutted if the horse she choose won adn she never placed a bet. Strange how some people can manage there issues and other can't.
Anyway walk round the park on Sunday made roast chicken and raspaberry and lemon cheese cake for tea did the ironing watched the masters went to bed.
And before you know it Monday is here again
Stay Strong Stay G/f
Malc
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Congrats on 66 days and glad you had a lovely weekend. After being in the awful cycle of gambling, guilt and self loathing little pleasures and moments mean a lot because you can enjoy them. Have a good GF week S 🙂
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