This is my time

Evening Matt,

Long time no hear hope all is going well for you and sorting out your house. My house goes on the market next week sad days but needs must. Been busy working looking after my little boy, still gamble free which is good. Not posting as much now a days just trying to take it day by day.

Take care stay strong stay G/f

Malc

Hi Malc

Big congrats remaining G/f. I hope that little boy is inspiring you. Sorry to hear about the house but it is a new adventure for you now and when your in that new place you will have never ever gambled in it so it is a totally fresh start.

All the best mate, stay strong.

Matt

Hey Malkie I read your diary last night....what a journey! , especially relating to the single parent aspect. Although bizarrely I never think of myself as a SP as I don't know any different. But huge respect for turning things around, take care S:)

Aye we are getting there, the little en said last night we can get a tent in the garden daddy me you and Kara (or dog). The main reason for selling my house is the school that is close to our house has no pre school or post school club so going to move to the town two miles down the road. All good will be strange leaving this house but new start just me and the little man all will be good.

thanks for your kind words Matt and thanks for reading my dairy Sharon, I was in a dark place 120 days ago but day by day we are getting there no gambling not even thought about it that is in the past. The biggest change for me was talking to a counsellor and get told to pull my head from my a*s. Which I have.

I told my mum last week about the counsellor she cried I cried, I stood up to my dad and to him everyone was entitled to an opinion and not to talk to me the way he did just because he was drunk.

Been in Dubai for a week off to Canada on Sunday for 4 days and mum and dad are helping me look after the little man, I asked my father one thing please don't drink when the little man is here he is only 4 and does not need to see it.

Anyway thanks again for all the support so important in the early days could not have done it with out gamcare.

Stay strong stay G/f

malc

I guess putting children first is what it'S all about especially when you're on your own. I fully admit I'm no angel but realise you're not just a parent but a role model, their main influence and their world. I hope you're proud of yourself and have found some inner peace from remaining GF because you also deserve to feel happy and secure. Good on you and take care S 🙂

Thanks again Sharon, I agree with you I am no angel never have been and never will be, but I try my best for the little man, you are right we are not just parents but role models massive influence on thier young lifes that is the reason I have asked my father not to drink in front of the little man when he is around, I want him to look up to my father and not remember him as a drunk.

Thanks again the kind words of support are what keeps me going.

Stay Strong Stay G/f

Malc

You're more than welcome Malc, like wise the support, encouragement and understanding of everyone here has and continues to stop me falling back into the black hole of the misery of gambling. So here's to being GF S:)

Malc

Thanks for posting on my diary . It's always good to hear from you . Hope your doing okay . Cracking that your nearing 120 days and your quite right I'm still chasing targets - looking at -150 days - and then I figure 182 days is half a year - that's the big one . Imagine half a year without gambling !

Stay strong my friend . Keep reading and posting . It's a pleasure to go through this with you

Duuuurrrr sorry for not seeing this earlier! Thanks you are a constant source of encouragement and inspiration, I know I can't do this on my own. All ok and enjoying leading a quiet life and being GF. Got my eye on the prize of being debt free asap but not making myself completely miserable over repayments. Have amended my Payplan and made a doable budget. Have a great GF start to the week, take care S 🙂

Malc.

Really pleased you have finally opened yourself up to your Mum and told your Dad what is expected of him around your son. That is huge progress and more so the responsibility you are showing and pride in yourself not to be afraid anymore and hide in a gambling haze.

Proud of you mate.

Take care

Matt

Hi Malc

Just checking in. Hope you're still GF

All the best

Matt