Toughest unwanted battle imaginable

Haha CM3003 thank you, I sort of want to wish the days away like my life and be on 200!

Yes wilsy mate good to see you still just slightly behind me on the gamble-free days I remember at the start of your journey and it’s amazing how both of us are over 100 days gf now,I didn’t think it was possible to kick this problem but it is ya who are winning at the moment.

I’m glad your feeling much better aswell you showed real strength not to delve into gambling when you were feeling blue,it’s easily done so great to have you by my side racking up the days and as cm says wel both be hitting 200 days soon enough.

DAY 127

thanks Sel, I will message you back shortly, I haven't been as active as I would of liked with others recently but I will definitely check in with you at lunchtime. I am so pleased as well that the two of us since the start of our journies continue to rack up those days, I am really looking forward to 150, then 200!

Slept well but being a little lazy at work this morning. I have been really productive of late and have achieved some great results but today I just cannot be arsed! lol.

Nothing really to report, sound of mind, gamble free, money in bank, food in tummy, batteries charged each night from undisturbed sleep, weekend to look forward to, Mother's Day Sunday which is a pain financially especially when you have two. I would so like to spend some of my hard earn't money on myself one day instead of on bills, cars, mother's days, birthdays etc etc haha, I guess through not gambling I'm becoming a bit tight, I want money to build in the bank not keep spending out each time, it is continuous spending, same for everyone I guess.

Have a good day everyone, be safe and thanks for your post SEL87

Good Wilsy, job going all fine, no anxiety, sleeping eating well and most important of all no thoughts on gambling. What more do you or anyone else want. Keep up the fight, your winning it!

Shaun

Cheers Shaun, i do feel a bit flat today but that is probably because like with everyone, some days you just don't want to work and put your feet up. Hope all is going well with yourself will check in with your diary now.

Morning Wilsy. Sorry your feeling a bit flat today.

Pancakes are a bit flat but look good and taste delicious when you adorn them with sweet and savoury goodies.

Take care and keep smiling at troubles. Troubles are bubbles and bubbles will soon blow away...stephen

Hi Wilsey thanks for your post means a lot and sorry your bit flat today but fantastic your gf, it’s because of you and ppl like you (my inspirations) that I didn’t gamble in the slots and self excluded straight away. I did buy three scratch cards but have got my head around that now, the main thing is doing that stole my peace of mind and not happy bout that! Slots are deadly for me they are my Achilles heel and I didn’t play I self excluded straight away so I’m still in the gf road. P****d of though that I bought those stupid bits of card! I felt like couldn’t be bothered to work today lol and just put feet up. How’s your guinea pig? Hope she’s alright. Best of wishes my friend Lulu x

Hi Lulu, that is the main thing, you didn't do the slots, a few scratch cards even though you felt disappointed, won't do any damage or harm but the slots will so pat yourself on the back big time, give yourself credit and look at all the positives.

Funny you should ask today, well the one who had the operation is a bundle of joy but my oldest girl isn't doing too well, she is struggling to move around freely and is sleeping alot and just not looking herself. I am taking her straight over to my experts (their previous mummies) to get an emergency opinion. I am worried sick and need to find out that it is just arthritas which we can deal with by giving her drops and vitamins, I just don't want her to be in pain or for it to be anything else. I gues at 5 years she is an old girl, I just hope her end isn't coming soon as I'll be devastated, they are all I have in my life along with friends and family, I love them loads. My little lion just isn't her normal self. Wish could send you pictures 🙁 x

DAY 128

i know a few of you ask about my Guinea Pigs well an update on the eldest, she has arthritis of her back legs and spine. She is very sore but I now have the right meds to give her for the rest of her life so once they kick in, she should feel better and less in pain in around a weeks time. That is the type of person I am, I love my pets and care so much for them that when something doesn't seem right, I immediately get them checked out, I can relax now knowing that it wasn't anything more serious. I have been thinking recently, I will remain true to myself and my values and if someone doesn't like it then they have no place in my life and I don't need them in my life. I am a loving and caring man in all aspects and I won't forget that, I have been brought up well and I treat people with the same respect and care that I have always expected back. I am proud to be the person I am and I have built up trusted friendships with friends that have known me all their lifes who know me ever so well. Just have to remind myself sometimes that by treating people with respect that in most cases you will receive the same respect back. There is a percentage unfortunately of people who criticise and judge others, people who judge me I just have to ignore.

Feeling comfortable with my own company now, work is improving each day my motivation has returned with good results and the hours pass quicker when you are in a good frame of mind at work.

Looking forward to the weekend, it is Mothers Day and I have two great mums who I am lucky to have. I have always been able to go to both of them with my worries and troubles and they have never judged me, always there to help, they know I have struggled with my several demons all my life, I am just so relieved I never kept anything from them.

Getting my car done tomorrow, electric window will be fixed and I'll have a new set of alloys and tyres all bought with money I have saved from not gambling. I feel proud of myself for getting so far without gambling through some very difficult times recently when I could have easily returned to it. I am confident and hopeful that I am on top of this problem now and in time my life will continue to improve.

Looking forward to a few days off and when I return to work on the 12th of March, I'll almost be halfway through the month and another step closer to another payday. I am enjoying watching my debts come down slowly and progress is being made.

Have a great weekend everyone.

Wilsy x

Day 129
Getting car done and having to wait around a few hours in the high St where there are bookies. Had urges but not going to act on them taking myself to the bakers instead

Good on you Wilsey for staying gf you’ve come so far and your still that inspiration for me staying gf 🙂 good to hear guinea pig got meds to help her bless her and good to hear your able to get your car done with the money you’ve got through not gambling. It feels good doesn’t it seeing something for our hard earned pennies. I’m so glad I’ve found this site and ppl like you are a life saver for me. Bestest wishes Wilsey x Lulu

Awwww thanks lulu I'm really pleased I and others are helping you and I like checking in with you and your diary I'm really proud of you. Managed to avoid temptation in a high street today to be honest the urges lasted seconds and I just shoved them into the back of my mind. Have a safe Sunday lulu and everyone else enjoy time with your mum's or children xx

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Happy mothers day everyone be spoilt and enjoy your days

Hiya Wilsey yes you and others on here mean a lot to me 🙂 . That’s what I’m looking forward to, the urges only lasting seconds instead of most of the day some days lol. Sure it’ll come. So proud of you too. Have good day, going to chill, read and cuddle Jazzy lol bestest wishes my friend x Lulu

Nice to know you’re still doing well wilsy 🙂 keep it up my friend .

Sars