Toughest unwanted battle imaginable

DAY 131

thanks Lulu and Sars.

Had a lovely quiet weekend. Got the new wheels and tyres for the car, drives much better and got the electric window fixed so no longer cold and getting wet. Ate out on Saturday and saw family over the weekend. Piggy is much her normal self and she is being a good girl taking her medicine by syringe, if anything she's become even more friendlier as if she is grateful that I am helping her to feel better. Looking forwards to another positive week although it's bloody P*****g down again!

Stay safe everyone!

DAY 132

slept really well and heavy last night so am feeling tired today. Happy with car, content with work and my own company and have no urges so all is quiet and peaceful which I am grateful for.

Have a safe day everyone.

Hi Wilsy, Thanks for dropping by my diary ...... Good to see you are very much still on the right track and enjoying the benifits that a gamble free life offers us, glad you are having no urges and all is "quiet & peaceful " just the way i like it ..... well done on 132 days, great going, keep up the good work.

Hi wilsy congrats on 132 days gf your doing amazing bambi x

DAY 133

thanks Chartom3 and Bamb84

Haven't been as active or supportive of others recently as I have had a lot on, i hope at some point to catch up with people's journeys.

All quiet this end, on top of things, feeling more relaxed, that's it really, going to plan to do something on the weekend, not sure what yet, will see who is around.

Wilsy

Day 134
Feeling much more relaxed, sleeping well and no anxiety when I'm feeling like this and gamble free I feel my old happy, friendly and kind self x

Hi Wilsey im doing ok but have been having the odd urge here and there but im not going to give in . i think maybe because i have money now and things are a lot better . Last month i couldn't gamble as no money but now will be the hardest test . I really dont want to throw all my hard wotk away . Its stupid but i still dont trust myself hope one day these urges will leave me alone. Thanks for your support i will stay strong . Im really happy your doing so well and you are feeling like your old self you should be really proud you done so well and your have inspired me too . Bambi

Bamb84 I know how you feel I'm getting them as well I suppose they'll always surface just got to try and stay as strong as we can mate

Day 135
It's Friday I'm feeling fine and looking forward to the weekend 🙂

well done Wilsy.just catching up on posts as I don't have time in the week.you seem content .great that you are feeling better about yourself .I've found it easier only keeping those around me who make me feel happy or that they are good people.at the age where I don't need toxic relationships.so pleased your g.pig is out of pain.im a dog mum and can't bear it when they are not themselves.
have a good weekend .
have you found your moodlifting due to the seasons changing.i definitely have.
take care of you .

Thanks Cookie for your post. Yes I'm feeling much better within myself, I know who I am I just needed to find myself again. Yes it is easier just keeping good and kind people in our lives, there is no space or time for horrible people, I have tried my hardest and given them many a chance but some people never change, they are what they are.

Yes my guinea pig (eldest) is doing much better and she's so much friendlier, she lets me stroke her in her cage all the time now so maybe she knows I'm helping her and making her feel better, or I like to think that. I have always wanted my own dog, I just can't because I'm always at work or out and it wouldn't be fair and because I rent and the farm I live at have four outside dogs, they might not get on. Maybe one day I'll meet someone, get my own place and then I can have a boxer which is my favourite kind of dog, what do you have Cookie?

Have a great weekend also, yes my mood has lifted considerably since we entered Spring, I am also now getting out more.

Thank you and I will take care of myself, it is about time I did.

Wilsy

Good work Wilsy! keep it up mate. It's been a tough week this week knowing that the Cheltenham festival was on tv but I battled through even though near enough every advert was showing.

All the best, hope I can be as successful as yourself.

Im looking forward to some better weather! One good thing is its noticeably lighter in the mornings when i get up at 5:30 that helps me feel a bit better about getting out of bed.

Well done Wilsy, have a good weekend mate =)

Day 136
Thanks sjwsjw the lighter mornings and evenings are certainly helping me and many others I'm sure. I keep getting reoccurring dreams of having a car crash which is waking me up each time, it's the same dream not using my breaks on a bend and crashing into a wall all in my current car I wish they would disappear. We lost a member of our extended family yesterday to leukemia he was only 24 so my thoughts are with my sisters husband and his family today just tragic. Times like these make you realise how lucky we are because we've got the chance to live our lives and make choices this poor boy had no choice but to fight and sadly lost his life it has made me realise that good people get taken from us sometimes and a*******s sometimes remain and do nothing but hurt people, I just want to surround myself with good souls and try and be happy giving the same mutual respect and kindness they give me. I am grateful I have the choice to try change my life for the better and I'm doing that. Take care everyone x

Day 137
Apart from it being freezing I've had a nice quiet weekend alls good