Toughest unwanted battle imaginable

DAY 48

No urges to gamble whatsoever so that's good but the low mood is starting to kick in, this is the time of year I don't enjoy and I am already starting to feel quite depressed about it. Restless night's sleep, no energy to do anything, can't even shave! Will remain on my guard during this time. Money is very tight am relying on help to pay my rent but at least for 48 days, I haven't wasted a single penny on gambling, that I will pat myself on the back for.

Trying to remain positive, the sooner Christmas and the New Year is over the better!

DAY 49

No gambling urges but have a sick pet and my depression is starting to take hold again Pre Christmas, the closer it get to Christmas. Just for another day I will live a normal life without the stress and destruction that gambling causes

You're doing really well hang in there. One day at a time x

Hey Wilsy, Your past Day 50 now. Huge achievement. Pat on the back from me.

Thanks LH6809 and Daley, day 50 tomorrow, keeping strong, good luck on your own journies

Wilsy

Wilsy,

Lovely to see you back on the forum. I wish you well. Take care.

Tomso.

DAY 50

Hey Tomso, how are you doing stranger, I'll read your diary in a second, catch up with what's been going on with you fella. Day 50 up today and no urges to gamble. Pet situation sorted although one needs an operation in January, money I cannot afford but the flipside is I will have money available to pay for it due to not wasting any money on gambling over the last 50 days and putting myself in more debt.

Last day and a half left at work, I'm looking forward to finishing for you year but I am also nervous about the loneliness and boredom over Christmas, there is only a number of times I can go round my parents, i can't expect to go round there every day.

Just for another day today, I have absolutely no interest in gambling, it is in my past and I intend to keep it there. I will never be cured, I will always be a compulsive gambler but I choose to not participate anymore.

Hi Wilsy,

Dropping by with well wishes for Christmas.
I do know how lonely it can feel during this festive season..but please remember you're not alone!

Very well done on your ongoing journey! Keep winning - one day at a time!

Best wishes

S&B xx

Hi Wilsy ,

Wishing you a very merry Christmas and a GF 2018 🙂

Sars

DAY 55

Thanks s_j_b and Sars for your well wishes. Christmas has passed smoothly without any thoughts of gambling, I have been ill for the most of it. Keep pushing forward.

DAY 57

A few urges the last few days to chance £20 but haven't given in to them. Stayed up until 4.00 am watching an italian mafia tv series called Gomorrah, I strongly recomend to everyone watching it if they like their TV Series.

Good to hear from you. Pft we all know it never ends at £20 regardless so well done for that.

DAY 59

Thanks sjwsjw

more and more urges due to boredom but haven't acted upon them instead I have come round my mums.

DAY 62

Christmas and New Year passed the test, I am very proud of myself and any urges are short lived and are kept under control. This is a New Year a new chance and life for me and I am determined to remain on course and gamble free.

Just for another day I choose to abstain from the destruction and despair that gambling brings me.

DAY 63,

checking in, no urges at all which pleases me, debating giving up the smoking but seriously don't think I can just yet, I want one more packet! lol. Second day back at work and am already tired, did feel I would have motivation to crack on, I'm hoping I feel more interested next week, it's going to take a week or so until everyone is back in the grove.