I have also just noticed I get paid a week today, which cannot come soon enough!!! Amazing how not gambling for two weeks and I have a fiver in my wallet that has been there all week, and some change which when you gamble you never have anything in your wallet!!
Congratulations on 2 weeks 🙂
You're not wrong about that fiver...Back in the day, I was 'lucky' if I was sensible enough to keep enough back to pay to get my car out of the car park!
I'd be inclined to frame that fiver 😉
Oops...Double post - soz!
This is a helpful train of conversation and reading your 30 months clean is really encouraging - I did 7 years but then went back even worse than before..I'm on a long journey now but got to do it simple... I have no more lives or chances left.
Hi paul
I came back worse as well, this was due to having more access to money. I was blowing up to £2k a day, now regretting it. Luckily I saw the light again and have just completed day 14 of not giving my money away. I am sat here with my boys reading books, and just thinking about the casino I frequented. They charged £1.75 to get cash out of the cash machine, I dread to think how many £££ I gave them just to get money...... I asked them why, and they said you can get cash back from the booth, but I was signed in as my brother so I couldn't do that as they would know our names are different. I will fight a new day tomorrow
Day 15 - i am working from home today, which is normally a gambling day. I need to get my hair cut but there is a billy hills next door which always sucks me in. So I am going to take the money to cut my hair only ( the 5 pounds that has been in my wallet all week!!) and nothing else. Straight there and back messing. Wish me luck, I will update you all soon.
So I decided to go to a different barbers as I realised I went to the other one for two reasons, one for the cheapest haircut (£5) and two it's got a bookies next door. However it is a 25 min drive away, so went to the one 5 mins away, but paid £11 but I reckon it's saved me more money, as in my fragile state I predict I would have been sucked into the bookies !! Happy that I have been able to see sense, but it's this diary that is keeping me focused. It worked for me before and it will work again I know it will. I am confident that I will now not get the chance to gamble until next week, so days 15,16,17 should be ok. Getting nearer to my 1st target of 21 days, I will not break, once target of 21 is hit I will then go for a target of 50 days. May 21st is 21 days and June 19th is 50 days
Good work Dave! Lets hope you will always be that one day ahead of me forever.. that we both never go back. I'm still a bit raw thinking of the obscene amounts of money i've thrown away.. life changing amounts but hey ho.. its gone.. just need to knuckle down and make it all over again.. anyway for me, Day 14 - No Gambling
Cheers
Hi thanks for the comment earlier mate. Managed to get through the day.
I totally get what you mean about the haircut I don't he same i went to same barber as it only cost 6 pound but wasn't the greatest hair cut. You have inspired me to get my hair cut round the corner he charges 12.50.
Anyway well done on lasting over 2 weeks.
Day 17 - had a mates birthday party last night which was good but feeling very tired today.... As predicted I have been too busy to gamble, so I am still focused and happy to report this. I am working in Spain from Wednesday this week and then not back in the UK until the following Wednesday, and I will not get a chance to gamble, so if I can stay away Monday and Tuesday by the time I get back it would be 27 days. This is massive week for me.
Day 17 done, but as I lay in bed now I have a slight headache snd I know it's because of stress. It's the stress of owing money the stress of gambling again, I just wish I could turn my Brain off of gambling. One day I hope this will be the case, until then it is a new battle everyday
Day 17 done, but as I lay in bed now I have a slight headache snd I know it's because of stress. It's the stress of owing money the stress of gambling again, I just wish I could turn my Brain off of gambling. One day I hope this will be the case, until then it is a new battle everyday
Day 18 finished and I didn't gamble. Only 3 days until payday, and off working on Spain on Wednesday so things are looking ok to get to 21 days.
Forgot to mention last night that I watched the Willie Thorne interview yesterday on ITV, and it was heart breaking, seeing such a successful sportsman broken by gambling, but he struck a cord with me as he explained how he kept his integrity, even at his lowest by not accepting bribes to lose games. I have always felt let o have tried to keep mine throughout my gambling days, but actually when I think about it, maybe that is still part of the denial process, maybe I need to admit I lost my integrity as part of admitting my problem? I also wish o had the bottle to go on live TV and admit my addiction and debt to the whole world, again I see that as a massive step forward in recovery. Instead I choose to keep my problems just to myself, which is not good.
Day 19 - I just about to go and collect my kids so no chance to gamble for the rest of the day, and then off to Spain with work and not back until next Wednesday, so I am positive of hitting and passing the 21 day target!! I will be back in the UK on the 28th May, so this should be 28 days gamble free as i will have no access to gambling when in Spain due to work!!!! I just need to stay focused on my return and I can beat this. I may not be able to check in for the next week, but I will try to. Stay gamble free people
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