Was ВЈ50k, now £14k in debt May 1st 2015 day one

Hi ODAAT yes off this weekend, just can't wait to get away from the this weather for sunshine! This is a massive reward for not gambling

Day 287 - loving life at present and all it brings, off on holiday to Spain on sat, loads happening in my life right now. No thoughts of going back to my stupid old ways ever, for anyone who is reading this, please see the light and stop gambling, there is so much more to life then sat in a casino or bookies all day!!

Day - 289 off on holiday today so can't wait, one week all inclusive in the canneries, this is my reward for 289 days gamble free. I just hope the sun is shining!!

Well done ...enjoy yourself...you have earnt it...: )

Day 298 - holiday was ok, but the weather was awful!! Now only 2 days away from the 300 mark, this is so amazing. I have just read an article online of a 27 year old who killed himself as he was addicted to FOBT and his dad is campaigning to get rid of them from bookies, I would love for them to disappear, but I cannot ever see it happening as they make them all too much money. They are the crack of gambling for sure. Hope you are all still gamble free, I would love you to update me how your doing, so please update me

Hi davebs26, read your entire diary last night and it gave me hope for the future ahead.I lost a lot of money around 5 years ago due to gambling on football.I had enough and stop gambling for around 3 years after it and got myself back on track.I had a relapse during world cup 2014 and got burnt again.Why I started again I do not know.However I started to rebuild again until around Oct 2015 someone recommended a sure bet to me and it was.Won some money and felt great, opened a few accounts and winning continued until Barcelona hammered real Madrid 6 nil towards December time I think.I had bet big on Madrid to score a goal.Feeling like c**P again about losing money I said I don't want to ruin Xmas for my family and had broke even over the few months back gambling.I got Xmas out of way and started again come janaury. I hit a real good streak,I was up nearly 25k towards the end of the month. Said to myself I will get balance on screen to 25k then withdraw the lot and stop.It felt great and I thought I had it all.In the space of 24 hours I lost the lot.Woke up on the Sunday morning happy and went to bed sucidal.First game hearts ended nil nil 4k loss,2nd game Everton no goals in second half 5k loss,3rd game athletic Madrid nil nil 5k loss,another 5k lost after that, I then deposit 5k into account and get lucky with Valencia scoring in injury time.Should walk then but real Madrid on next and playing real betis.Should be a banker another 6k gone as it ends 1 each. I go to bed in bits, I have lost 25k on one Sunday of madness.Wake up next morning awful and think of money I lost and how to rectify it.Get loan for 10k and promise no more gambling.Again I slip into another new account, do well again but as before get greedy and lose around 6k on a stupid Chile football match in the middle of the night that ended nil nil.I got lucky game before it when West Ham scored in injury time of extra time, Should have walked then but said one more before giving up gambling for lent.Money lost and another sleepless night with only me knowing what's going on.I get another loan to replace the 6k I lost last time and say I am putting it into house renovations. I start well and get a bit of work done and feel good with no gambling nearly 2 weeks.I sit down to watch spurs match on Sunday and see advertising at match for a betting company. I haven't self excluded from them so sign up for a goal to be scored, just before I deposit money palace score and it's half time.Looking for a bet I reckon spurs must score second half so put on 2k, they don't and i lose. Raging I now deposit another 4k to chase my 2k back and in one game I get it back with Porto coming from 2 nil down to win 3-2.I now have my money back with a few hundred extra. I should walk away and spend time with kids but no I go again. Athletic Madrid ends nil nil, 3k loss.Go to help game at half time, one nil down, 3 k on another goal and it ends 1 nil.Money all gone again, I feel as bad as I gave ever felt, I go to bed I can't sleep, sweating, had a dream it was all a dream which it wasn't.Yesterday was a bad day, I am tired, angry, confused, don't know what to do.I go to work in a daze.Come home and go to church to pray for help, I really hate gambling so much but love it when doing it even when losing.It really is a big problem. I have a holiday booked in July to Florida and really to want to gamble again to mess all I work and live for up.I got in control of gambling before and have to do it again.It seems every time I am in control and have my finances in good health I go again and end back in debt.I was 25k up ffs with money in the bank, I felt like a king.I know have a 10k loan and a 6k loan with nothing to show for it only the gambling company got richer. I want to stick at it this time and your story has inspired me to go again.I cannot win as I cannot stop. Thanks for reading, God bless.

I know your pain, been in the exact same situation I was once £16k up and blew it and much more in the space of a few hours. You need to self exclude and get someone else looking after your finances and own up to your gambling problem, if you don't you will not stop. Please feel free to message me when you feel s**t, I will do the same to you. Take care and

I have self excluded from most companies but always find a new one. It is so handy on a smartphone now to bet and need blocks on that.I am not sure I am ready to tell anyone about it as it really is embarrassing and I think my wife will leave me if I so.Most annoying thing is I stopped before and told everyone not to gamble etc and hated it then I let my guard down and got sucked it.Isn't it funny how you always win at the start and you get the ryb of the green.I really am at rock bottom this time but my saving grace is I didn't gamble everything and hopefully will stay above water if I don't gamble.I am sitting at work now wishing it was 6 months ago and I was gamble and worry free.I can get there again with this site and members help.For my debts I will have to work hard and keep my head down for a few years.I would love to know why we hate spending a few pound in a shop but bet thousands on a game of football praying a team will score knowing at some stage you will lose your money.Thanks for the reply and today is day 2, I think I will give watching champions league a miss tonight.

Even admitting on here is a massive start. I used to love football, but slowly I have fallen out of love from watching it as its all about gambling, advertising, half time next goal scorers team shirts the whole game is set up for the gambling industry. I tend to not listen to talk sport either now as again every 30 secs it's bet this bet that, these are all silent triggers. I agree I wish I knew why spending £1 on food shopping hurts so much, yet I used to spank £1000 on a bet of how many corners there would be or will both teams score, crazy mentality, luckily mine has changed and I now see this change in me, I don't mind my Mrs getting branded sauce now, instead of asda own, or my kids getting a toy car for 50p, you in time can also tune your brain to this. Remember it takes 21 days to break the habit, once you have broken your habit you can take your addiction on, they are two separate issues, beat the habit 1st. Good luck

Day 4 and feeling strong but weekend full of football to come, I actually feel a lot better I am tackling this problem again, hopefully with hard work I can get back to normality again and forget about losses this last few months.

Day 305 - so debt is now at £25k as I have paid off all credit cards now!!!! This is a massive milestone for me, and has come sooner then expected. I also had my annual credit card statement today for my barclaycard, I had used it for £27,000 of cash withdrawals in the year prior!!! Crazy stuff. Now I move onto too my loans £9000 on one and £16000 on the other, I will go after the£9000 first, hoping to pay this off before Xmas this year, this would be big if I can do it. Amazing what can be achieved by having a better attitude towards life!!!

Well done Dave.

You should be feeling so pleased with yourself for achieving that. Hope you are taking time to enjoy life too and keeping some of your money just for "you".

Take care and remain strong.

Feb.

Great stuff Dave

Wow Dave, this is such a great success story. Reading this has made me think there is hope to get my life on track and my debt to get paid off whilst beating this addiction. Thank you for posting this it has made me feel like there is a light at the end of the tunnel 🙂

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Hello Dave,

An amazing story and so very happy for you. That is some achievement. You make John Rambo look weak hehe.

Well done.

Toad.