What a day!

They'll stunt your growth, your breath will humm

like the air expelled from Satan's b*m,

your face will resemble a dried up swede,

you must give up the dreaded weed.

Thought you might enjoy this anti smoking poem that a friend sent me.

Hope you are ok.

xxx

Thanks Rainbow- a very apt poem which made me chuckle 🙂

Day 79- gamble free

At least the gambling battle's going good. Am hanging my head at the endeavour with the f**s- seeing my smoking cessation advisor tomorrow. Still..........have reduced loads.

With recent events, my sense of "self" has been shoogled and I'm struggling a wee bit with what I want my future to be like. As I endeavour to change behaviours that harm me, I'm left with the quandary- who am I now???? In some ways, its an exciting prospect to have this free reign to rescover "me", in others it scares me to bits!

Hi Irene,

How r u?

I hope u r ok and staying strong 🙂

Have a gr8 nite xxxx

grrrrrrr just typed a screed and deleted it by mistake.......

Thanks Char for the post- hope you're OK.

Day 80

Gamble free. Emotional rollercoaster's returned! The past few nights have been disturbed by gambling dreams. How dare the thoughts invade when I don't have my "tools" to hand! A night with broken sleep means a crabbit day for me (as my colleagues could testify!)- not good!

Work's been so busy. Moved to a new office with the usual relocation probs that ensue. Should be OK once things are settled. I'm out and about mostly and just need an office to call "base", so the move won't have much impact. I didn't realise that I hoard so much bumph.....spent past few days ruthlessly binning rubbish that I know will never "come in useful".

No cigs today. Saw my wee woman. CO reading down to 4- apparently this is much better than it was previously.

News also about sister's dog. Her cancer's not spread but is very aggressive and she's to have radiotherapy to minimise recurrance risk. Strange, Paddy boy's been so gentle with her (he's usually a bully) and seems to sense that there's something amiss.

Son's final mortgage application was submitted today. Please, please, please don't let him be affected by my debts. Although he got a "mortgage in principle" approved, I'll be on tenterhooks until it's signed.

Going out tomorrow night- got freebie tickets for some event. Meeting sis for dinner first which should be great 🙂

Still day 80

Just had a dose of "chat"- feel much better 🙂

Thanks

x

HI Irene,

Sorry to hear you have had a few restless nights, there is lots of things going on in your life at the moment and some of them mean change this can sometimes have an unnerving effect on us , thats where the gambling dreams could be coming from.

This addiction is sneaky and very devious and will try and attack you when you are your weakest, just be on your guard and continue doing what your doing irene.

You have achieved so much and I have every confidence in you that it will continue.

Take care, be strong .

Blondie

xxx

Much admiration for you - no cigs / no gambling. Mega willpower in situation you describe. May the force be with you.

xxx

Thanks so much x

Day 81 no gambling

Day 2 no cigs!!!

Just home. Great night out- a wee bit different. Went to see the filming of a new BBC sitcom- soooooo funny. Was amazed at the intricacies of filming- took hours for a 30 min episode.

No mortgage news yet.

Knackered and this is my "rubbish" weekend- nightshift fri/sat 🙁

Irene

brilliant to read.

Just for today be proud

you earnt it.

Well done, enjoy and keep enjoying it!!

Duncs stepping forward never back

Cheers Duncs!

Day 82

Gamble free!

Hi Irene,

A huge well done on 82 days gamble free, u r doing brilliant!

I am soooooo proud of u 🙂

Stay strong xxxx

hey Irene....just catching up on some reading and hoping you can get comfy in your skin and rest your mind.

Feel for you on the sleep..if i dont get a minimum of 8 hours I panic.My ex used to have those dreams too and also read on here many folks get them after quitting..its just your mind dumping out the trash I guess...

just for today breathe...

hugs (((((I)))))))

R and D xx

Morning,

Sorry I haven't really been around this week. Kinda just been keeping my diary updated but not doing the rounds. I have patches like that just hope it doesn't offend anyone.

Anyway, I do still read and it is really uplifting for me to see you are still motoring along 82 days and counting. In GA meetings there is a lot of fuss made about 90 days and how that is a big milestone. In my opinion every day is a milestone so for you to keep going one day at a time is a huge achievement.

I was talking to a friend the other night about how life is pretty rubbish at times gambling or not but the key is for us to stay well away from the gambling as it ultimately makes things far worse for us. I have noticed you are having some real ups and downs lately but staying strong now will stand you in real good stead further down the line. The bet free rewards are huge but they don't all come at once.

I will be a semi regular visitor to your part of the world in the coming months so I will be expecting a freshly brewed cup of tea at some point :). Think my next visit is beginning of next month might even be camping weather by then.

Keep up the great work you are a real gem on this forum.

Flagg

Hiya hun,

Hope my purple haired choc stuffing badmington player is ok?

Thinking of you my wee friend!

Sue xxxxx

Again, thanks x

Day 83

At work. Will catch up hopefully tomorrow x