Boredom was one of my emotional triggers, it was due to my procrastination and having lack of faith and confidence in myself.

The recovery program for me was about healing the hurt inner child in me.

No one could stop me gambling that was going to be my own choice. 

I use  to fear being honest.

I use  to fear emotional intimacy.

I use  to fear being my self.

I found that the deep honest heart felt therapies reduced my fears.

I found that the deep honest heart felt therapies helped heal the hurt innner child in me.

The recovery program it helped me write down my needs, it helped me write down my wants, it helped me write down my goals.

The recovery program it helped me write down all of my fears. 

Then I reduded my fears and face each one.

Am I allowing procrastination to limit me living my life to the full each day?

In time I would understand that Procrastination was due to my fears my lack of confidence my lack of self esteem and lack of self worth.

I soon realized that sitting on my hands doing nothing was not gettting me any where healthy.

Like many people I would learn that by my mistakes and my errors I would F**g btetter healthier skills.

The longer I am attending meetings the less of a loner in my self.

Shared therapies would help me open up my self more, be able  to articulate my feelings and emotions, I would seeeand feel my self in other peoples therapies.

In the meetings as they get more and more healthy you find that most people will heal and grow at different rates.

I am very much dedicated to a non religious recovery.

I am a much healthier spirtual person today.

I no longer want to be a fear filled person.

I no longer want to be an unhealthy scared person today.

Love healing and peace to every one.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham