I havnt been on here for a while but today I got the urge to play the slots, havnt felt like that for a while but I craved that buzz today and I had money in my bank and the whole day to myself with no distraction. I decided to come back on here because to be honest I get frustrated I still crave the excitmement of online casino's when it has been so destructive to me. Anyway, I looked at my posts from 2013 and wow. . . I was in such a bad place. I remember writing them posts with tears in my eyes, I was genuinely so low its quite hard to look back and see how I was.
For any of you quitting, or have relapsed let me tell you, I have relapsed 11 times since deciding to give up but if I hadnt tried I actually doubt I would be here today. But here I am, debt free for the first time in 6 years and mentally healthy, I dont hate myself like I used to, I have time for other people, I have other interests.
It is such a hard process and I still have many issues ahead of me I know, the truth is that urge has never left me, but you have to stop completely-not lower your bets, not change your game, stop completely. I didnt gamble today. Im going to get out of the house and go for a walk.
Good luck everyone, please continue to use this site and be honest, you are amongst people who will understand you better than the people who are closest to you. You are among people who act like you and think like you, they really do have a lot to offer. Please keep trying, addiction is horrible, but you are so much stronger than you think xxxxxxx
Great post Megan, its very inspirational to hear about your life now and how it has changed for you since giving up gambling .
I send you my deepest respect and heartfelt congratulations !
All the best for your future ...................Regards Alan
Hello Megan
I just wanted to say very well done for all the hard work you've put in to get where you are today. It sounds like having a read back through your previous posts was really helpful in reminding you why you decided to stop gambling. As well as being free of debt, you sound much happier with who you are today. Good for you and I wish you all the best for the future.
Best wishes
Laura
Hi Megan
Your post made me cry. Well done love. Keep being an inspiration to us all at the beginning.
Bella x
Very well done keep up the good work x
You're so right megan, I get those here and there as well and they seem so innocent until you come here and read your posts or others and realise one wrong move can be disastrous.
Hi Megan, I am a newby here and supporting my husband who is a gambler and I gain strength that he can recover after i have just read your post. You should be so proud of yourself!!!
Congratulations to you, resisting the urge, and using this forum as a tool to help with that is fantastic. It sounds like you are doing amazingly well with your recovery. I hope I can look back as see that I have achieved as much as you.
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