I am over 31 years clean from gambling, my pains are being healed, my fears being reduced, and I am a much more stable healthy person today.

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(@q86r2ugj5p)
Posts: 2005
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Hi every one.

I understand that any of my clean time can not be lost.

I have been in recovery since 1971, it took me over 20 years to understand what recovery means to me.

I use to escape in other ways long before my addictions and obsessions came in to play.

The more time and effort I put in to my recovery the more healthier I got.

As we go to meetings we get to understand that we are not bad people.

As we go to meetings we get to understand that we are not evil people.

As we go to meetings we get to understand that we are not stupid people.

We get to understand that we are just unhealthy people that are emotioinally vulnerable.

The painful experinces in our life did not get healed.

The painful experinces in our life caused fears in us that we did not understand.

By attending meetings with healthy honest therapies I got understand how I use to tick.

The healthy honest therapies gave me an understanding that I was reacting is some very unhealthy ways.

I was not a selfish how ever I was a very unhealthy self destrctive person, not the same thing at all.

Not only was I vulnerable but in the meetings I got to understand that I was a suvivor who had survived so many painful events in my life.

I found that I use to question why did I keep giving my hard earned money away.

Once I walked in to the recovery program I got to understand that my gambling was a form of emotional escape.

My gambling was a form of adrenaline rush, and I use to think I could get some thing for nothing.

Like many people in to the recovery program I was abale to abstain from my unhealthyh abit of gambling.

I found that my emotional triggers were my pains I had not healed, my emotional triggers were my unhealthy fears that I could not face or reduce, my emotional triggers were my frustrations due to my unreasonable expectations of people life and situations.

My emotional triggers were my feelings of boredom and my feelings of loneliness.

I found that I could only heal my pains once I was stop causing my self due to my addictions and obsessions.

I like many people did not stop gambling right away.

Each time I went back to gambling I got to understand why I did so.

I handed over all of my finances to my wife and in time I could trust my self with money.

Some people might think that it is easy to abstain from my gambling, for me not so it was hard.

In time I got to understand that I had lots of fears and in time those fears would be reduced.

Spending time and effort in to my recovery was very wroth while.

Gambling for me it a complete waste of time.

Gambling for me it was a form of self abuse and self inflicted pains.

Love healing and peace to every one.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham

 
Posted : 10th April 2024 4:54 pm
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Congratulations AKA Dave of Beckenham 31 years gamble free this is a very encouraging message to those at the start of their journey to know it is possible to regain control of your behaviour and decision making in relation to stopping gambling.

As you go forward on your journey of continued healing, reducing your fears and improving your well being and health as having good health is our true wealth, I wish you all the best.

Rets Forum Admin

 

 
Posted : 23rd April 2024 3:36 pm
(@q86r2ugj5p)
Posts: 2005
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@forum-admin Thank you

 
Posted : 23rd May 2024 3:39 pm
(@q86r2ugj5p)
Posts: 2005
Topic starter
 
Hi
 
I am a non religious person and walked in to the recovery program completerly clueless as to how unhealthy I was.
 
Now today I understand that the addictions and obsessions were just the symptoms of how emotionally vulnerable I was.
 
Before my recovery I did not understand how to heal my pains.
 
Before my recovery I did not understand how to face or reduce my fears.
 
Before my recovery I did not understand how to reduce my unreasonable expectations of people life and situations.
 
Before my recovery I did not understand how to become more productive with my time and my life.
 

I understand that if some one had given me money just before walking in to the recovery room I would have delayed learning how to become a healthy person.

 

Since I have been in the recovery room I have wtten down my needs my wants and my goals.

 
Since I have been in the recovery room I have forgiven my self for being a very unhalthy person.
 
Before my recovery my conscience caused me to feel the pains I was causing my self and other people.
 
My conscience indicated that deep down I was a healthy person.
 
When I went against my own conscience it caused pains in me.
 
The recovery program helped me abstain from my unhealthy habits.
 
The recovery program helped me understand that by abstaining from my unhealthy habits I could become ahealthy whole person.
 
The recovery program helped me understand that by abstaining from my unhealthy habits I could start to heal my pains.
 
I could start to reduce and face my fears.
 
All the time I was consumed by my unhealthy habits I could understand that I was causing my self and other pains.
 
All the time I was consumed by my unhealthy habits I could understand that I was causing my self and other more and more fears.
 
Talking about money lost or being in action was not helping me.
 
The recovery program helped me understand that by being honest and give therapies I could find inner peace and healing.
 
Being in the recovery program helped learn how to live a much healthier life.
 
I understand that showing deel seated emotional  gratitude and appreciation was showing the healthy growth in my healthy spiritual values.
 
I was never content or happy before my recovery and my healing.
 
I was never satisfied with my self or others before my recovery and my healing.
 
Money was never going to make me feel successful in my self.
 
Money was never going to heal the hurt inner child in me.
 
Money was never going to buy me a healthy life.
 
I feel successful in my life today due to my healthy actions and my healthy words.
 
Just for today I do not want or need to gamble.
 
Just for today I do not want or need to escape people life or situastions.
 
Just for today I do not want or need to escape in to unhealthy habits in any way.
 
How focused am I about healthy motivation in my life today.
 
Healing love and peace  to every one.
 
How productive do I want to be in my life today.
 
Do I feel that I am being productive with time and relationships today.
 
How much more healing do I need to do today.
 
Dave L
 
AKA Dave of Beckenham
 
Posted : 29th May 2024 3:36 pm
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Congratulations Dave. Great work on being gamble free for so long and your many inspirational responses on posts 😊 

 
Posted : 29th May 2024 8:27 pm
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Posts: 2005
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@bm241pin5d 

Hi

If it was not for you and others openeing up to recovery in healthy ways I would have not been abale to do it on my own.

I both want and need to live the healthiest life I can do today.

I am no longer lonely and as vulnerable as I use to be.

 

Thank you

 

 
Posted : 31st May 2024 12:32 pm
(@q86r2ugj5p)
Posts: 2005
 

@bm241pin5d Hi if we accept that we are humbled to be an equal to all people in healthy recoveries, if they can do it, so can I. Dave L

 
Posted : 29th August 2024 4:37 pm
(@q86r2ugj5p)
Posts: 2005
 

@bm241pin5d Thank you

 
Posted : 29th August 2024 4:38 pm
(@q86r2ugj5p)
Posts: 2005
 

@bm241pin5d Our sharing and our healthy expereinces help us achieve new needs new wants and new growing goals. Seriously I did not know or understand how emotionally vulerable and unhealthy I use to be. If we all  owrk together there is so much more we can achieve. Dave L

 
Posted : 1st September 2024 7:41 am
(@q86r2ugj5p)
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@bm241pin5d Thank you for your healthy comments.

 

 
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