I am over 31 years clean from gambling, my pains are being healed, my fears being reduced, and I am a much more stable healthy person today.

Hi every one.

I understand that any of my clean time can not be lost.

I have been in recovery since 1971, it took me over 20 years to understand what recovery means to me.

I use to escape in other ways long before my addictions and obsessions came in to play.

The more time and effort I put in to my recovery the more healthier I got.

As we go to meetings we get to understand that we are not bad people.

As we go to meetings we get to understand that we are not evil people.

As we go to meetings we get to understand that we are not stupid people.

We get to understand that we are just unhealthy people that are emotioinally vulnerable.

The painful experinces in our life did not get healed.

The painful experinces in our life caused fears in us that we did not understand.

By attending meetings with healthy honest therapies I got understand how I use to tick.

The healthy honest therapies gave me an understanding that I was reacting is some very unhealthy ways.

I was not a selfish how ever I was a very unhealthy self destrctive person, not the same thing at all.

Not only was I vulnerable but in the meetings I got to understand that I was a suvivor who had survived so many painful events in my life.

I found that I use to question why did I keep giving my hard earned money away.

Once I walked in to the recovery program I got to understand that my gambling was a form of emotional escape.

My gambling was a form of adrenaline rush, and I use to think I could get some thing for nothing.

Like many people in to the recovery program I was abale to abstain from my unhealthyh abit of gambling.

I found that my emotional triggers were my pains I had not healed, my emotional triggers were my unhealthy fears that I could not face or reduce, my emotional triggers were my frustrations due to my unreasonable expectations of people life and situations.

My emotional triggers were my feelings of boredom and my feelings of loneliness.

I found that I could only heal my pains once I was stop causing my self due to my addictions and obsessions.

I like many people did not stop gambling right away.

Each time I went back to gambling I got to understand why I did so.

I handed over all of my finances to my wife and in time I could trust my self with money.

Some people might think that it is easy to abstain from my gambling, for me not so it was hard.

In time I got to understand that I had lots of fears and in time those fears would be reduced.

Spending time and effort in to my recovery was very wroth while.

Gambling for me it a complete waste of time.

Gambling for me it was a form of self abuse and self inflicted pains.

Love healing and peace to every one.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham