I thought this was going to take the pain away

i lost a lot of money to gambling. I've promised myself to never return to gambling, and i believe i can.

You can’t turn back time just use the slip as an opportunity to improve and don’t beat yourself up and move forward 

I lost £900 in too days last week on slot machines. I was irrational once I sat in front of the machines. Have been playing on 10p machine to start with last year  but then move to high stake ones £2 this year. I am still very shakened of what I did and the amount of money I lost. That was the money I saved for visit my folks in the Far East. I got to stop this disordered behaviour but this venue is the place I visit nearly everyday for pushed coin 2p games for fun to start with. I lived in this small town for over 20 years. I find it very difficult to resist not walking in as I don't have closed friends I can talk to . What I can do to help to stop gambling is to contact my bank yet again. This time not just to lower the amount I can withdraw the money but stop the cash out function.   I am still having urges of going for gambling, at the same time still feel very sorry for financial loss, very mixed feeling. The gamble disorder really hurts me both physically and mentally . I simply find my behaviour uncontrollable. But saying that. I am seeking help to stop this. In long run if I don't do something to stop this my life will be ruin. So,  stay strong and try not to go back gambling. 

You can do it, im 5 years gambling free and my speciality was online slots and roulette….. it all started in 2009 when will hill vegas first came about, back when you had to play the games on your PC or Laptop. So the story goes…I received a promo email and and signed up and received £50 free credit it was one saturday morning…built up the profit after wagering requirements and got down to my last £50, but I had to leave my house as I was late for an appointment, so I maxed my stake to £50 and f**k it I hit spin….time froze as my laptop started flashing and spitting coins out on the screen, yep it happened and it was the beginning of my downfall….. the worst day of my life, I won but in 3 months it went back in and some… What followed was 12 years of chasing that winning feeling which never came. So theres my story in a nutshell and I wanted to share that so you could understand I was exactly the same as you, down to a tee, all of the emotions and secrecy. I am now 5 years clean and my starting point was Gamstop.. which I highly recommend. Following that I searched up hypnotist videos on youtube to stop gambling as I was so desperate to stop and believe it or not It worked…before your sceptical I would try it. The video I used that worked was if anytime I see the color Red it triggers a sick feeling and fear of gambling. Crazy I know but yeah 5 years later no urges whatsoever. I hope you take my advice and I pray you see the other side of it.