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The hardest thing is letting go of the outcome. To the outside world you appear to being doing all the right things but on the inside I know you still have doubt and grief and a big hole in your heart. You love your son and always will and you will never stop missing him. Your son is buried deep in there somewhere Ann and hopefully will fight his way out soon. Please keep the faith that it will happen.

My son finally seems to have had his aha moment. He has been attending GA twice/week and handed over all finances to me. There is a definite shift... I am so happy for him as the torture of this addiction seems to be loosening it's grip on him. I knew he had turned a corner when he said to me the other day that he will need GA for the rest of his life and that was OK. I know it isn't for everybody but we watched him try it his way for 8 or 9 years with no long term success so him finding what he needed in meetings was a godsend.

Who knows if/how may relapses are ahead but for now he is working recovery and for that I am so grateful.

I honestly don't say this to rub salt in your wounds but to hopefully give you some hope. There is always hope:)

Please do something nice for yourself today Ann... you are a lovely lady and great mom!!

Cathy xoxo

Hi Amom

I cant tell you how good to it is to hear your son is doing so well, its getting that "aha moment that they need and its obviously paying off. I know how poorly (if thats the right word) your son was and hes a came a long way I hope he contineus to go from strength to strength.

You haven't rubbed salt in any wound, its actually the opposite makes me feel a lot more hopeful for my son.

Im feeling a lot brighter in myself and doing things that make me feel good, and it will continue that way. Me and my husband are getting on great again, the way it used to be before all this and its really lovely.

Today we've been out for lunch then out for a walk and even something as simple as that felt so good.

Ann xoxo