Today marks my 90th day gamble free.
It like every other attempt at being gamble free over the last 10 years of 250k losses, has been an ongoing tough battle.
The constant battle I have many times a day about the masses of debt I have accumulated over the years and the “What if I just quit back then” thoughts whirling around my head.
I don’t think those feelings will ever go away but I just try to remain positive about the future of being gamble and debt free.
It is crazy to say this but I miss it, I miss a football bet, the excitement of getting up and checking who is playing and placing a bet. However I do not miss losing thousands in a day, chasing losses and accumulating even more debt. The sickness feeling, the not being present in the moment feeling when speaking to people because my mind is thinking about my addiction. The sleepless nights and the ongoing battle with anxiety.
This is my crossroad time in my life at 43 years of age, maintain the vision of becoming gamble and debt free or be homeless, jobless and lose everything good in my life. I know which outcome I want!!!
I still have the prospect of a good life ahead of me if I can stay disciplined and determined.
46k of debt left.
Please let’s together beat this for a better life.
Thank you to everyone on here that supports me every time.
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