Hello to everyone,
I am here to say briefly my story..
Since November I started gambling in sports in a way I was thinking it was under control. Stakes were not big, but time spent was long. Since February I started in online casinos first a bit of roulette and after blackjack. I started with £5 and £10 pounds tables, today I was joining the £100 tables, wiping out £600-£700 "winnings" by cancelling my partial withdrawals. All the money spent in total is £2000, since November. I had stopped for a couple of weeks in the meantime but Champions League final was the beginning of that last rough round I described above. (The amount is not that big , but considering the fact that I am paid -for now- a low salary, all this made me struggle a lot).
Today I have said to myself in the name of my word that gambling is done for me. It is so tempting as everyone of us knows , but is the real evil, the infinite loop, the black hole. I have reached the level of thinking about gambling every two seconds and that is what triggered me the most. I read some of the stories, they give me power and I strongly believe that each one of us can do it, even if it is hard. I am only sure that once we reach our breaking point we should realise that gambling will never be that "innocent" as it could be for other people. It is just something that we should never fall in again. And even if we do, we must rise up stronger and as fast as possible.
All my energy , positivity and power to all of you people that want to live life again. Stay strong, talk and live every moment, FREE.
Welcome to the forum and for sharing your story.
I see lots of positives in this that you’ve recognised fairly early on this is a problem, for you. I tried to give up gambling last summer but wouldn’t stop my fiver accumulator a week as I argued (with myself) that I could control it. Found out the hard way that that I can’t.
I think by beating this early you will not only save yourself a lot of money but heartache and suffering in the future. Have a good read of other stories on here, try to forget the 2k you’ve hinted that your wage may go up in future so lots to look forward to without chasing big wins that never happen.
All the best and good luck
Thanks Leedsfan333
It is really important to communicate and express ourselves exactly when we feel the urge to gamble again, in order to stay free. An accumulator per week normally would not hurt anybody. But if we have reached excessive gambling levels it can lead to really tough moments again , as you mentioned. I may have realised early, but indeed the way I was thinking and acting the last months, made me realise I am heavily sick. I got depressed, I gain kilos and started losing interest in other things. It is a disease that eats you inside out. Only way is to stop and build up life again. All of you people stay strong and remember that power of will can overcome even this big passion called gambling.
Love to everyone, be FREE again people
hi
After another relapse last fri i put this stupid bet on and said to myself if i lose this i will stop and it lost and i put my key blocks in like already had gamstop and then rang up the multiselfexcluding bookies number and i havint missed it cause i know the blocks are there
Good morning my people.
After my last post I was on holidays, seeing family and friends kept me distracted from gambling.
Even though I gave my word, when I returned back to work and routine, I relapsed (as many of us do, that is not an excuse of course).
Lost £500 roughly added in my last £2000. I did not gamble as I used to, but I had some intense sessions and I was getting in the black hole of gambling pretty quick.
I feel stronger now, second time of quitting and will be for good, as the idea of quitting made me more mature.
Another thing I would suggest to myself and to all of you, is that we should find the root of why we gamble. For example, in my case is an escape of boring routine. (which applies in many occassions).
In any way, there are solutions , we just need to stay strong and get rid of the thought of gambling.
For a second time, for me and for us, let us be FREE.
All my energy to all of you fighting with this addiction.
Have a good day.
Thank you
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